Soo it's been awhile since I wrote and it appears I was the only one that didn't write a blog last Thursday. Although thats probably a good thing because I was behind on my design anyways. So sorry again about that guys. I'm an idiot. I need to stay on top of this stuff more this second half of the semester so I can study more for my finals. I can do it! I have faith. Hahaha. Although I am kinda falling behind already. I have to still do reading for comp sci and do some practice programs. That's my plan for the rest of the afternoon.
Last week was pretty stressful but its been nice to be home. I went to Regina Saturday morning. That was a fun drive. Although I slept a lot. Visted with my grandpa and Betty Saturday and Sunday and then went home Monday. I slept a lot on the way home too! It was great. Had dinner with my Baba and Gyda and my Baba made me a touque and scarf. She is funny. Haven't done much of anything since then. Caught up with some of my shows. I haven't been able to do too much because LEANNE GAVE ME HER COLD!!! Hahaha. Oh well. Life goes on. I have been pretty lucky this year with my health.
I went and got my licence renewed which is good I guess except I'm without ID for a little bit now. Kinda annoying. Oh well. I guess I will have to use my passport or something.... It shouldn't take more then a week but then my parents have to send it to me and you know Lister mail.
I'm going snowboarding at Lake Louise tomorrow. Which should be stupidly awesome cause it has snowed soo much in the last 2 days. It's exciting. I think I'm going back to Edmonton on Sunday. I feel kinda bad cause my dad is driving me back but it happens to be his b-day that day too. Shit I just thought I haven't got him anything. Although I'm sure he doesn't want anything but still. I usually get him something. Guess I should go shopping Saturday.
So that's what I have been up to this week. Hope you are having fun too! I'm sure you are. See you all soon.
Peace!
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Monday, February 13, 2006
crazy week, but at the end is home!
This week sucks because I have multiple misterms, a design portfolio and a math assignment which I suck at. I don't like this week but I'm taking it step by step and tomorrow much of the horribleness will be over. But I do have one thing to look forward too. Going home on friday. I can't wait for yummy food and a break from this place and school. I don't function well here anymore, or sleep. I should work on that. Anyhow just wanted to give you a brief update and I just wanted to write something in my blog!
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
today started off as a good day...
Today started off as a good day. I had a shower this morning and braided my hair and wore my new pink sweater and it was just good. Went to Human Sexuality which was interesting as always, we talked about sex positions today... although the prof said that the lecture couldn't really teach you about it and if you think you can learn about it from a book without actually doing it you are very wrong.... crap. lol. just kidding.
Anyways, I think the bad day started when I wrote on my sweater. It was just a little blue mark but I was annoyed at myself. Then I went to Computer Science which stared off ok until about half an hour in when this fat, stinky, really annoying guy came and sat next to me. My definitely went down hill from there. The rest of the class he was all I could hear and concentrate on because of his annoyingness and stench. Then when I finally left class I went and got Subway which was tasty but I sat alone as usual because I don't have any break friends, which was kind of depressing today for some reason.
Then I tried to do my math assignment which was hopeless. I am stupid. I will be lucky if I don't fail this stupid class. And the stupid thing is I still need to make sure I have a decent GPA to get into the design program and I actually need this math class unlike a bunch of the classes I'm in. It sucks... So I went and got some math help which was good. Then I went to Econ. Did nothing special in that class except for maybe sleep. I would say I was awake for the first half hour and then I was out. Like I was actually dreaming. Almost the rest of the class.
This caused some problems when it was time to leave because I was disoriented when I got up because it was like I was waking up from a nap. So I was trying to walk around the bazillion people outside of the lecture halls all the while trying to hold my T-square and do up my jacket, WHICH WOULD NOT DO UP. This is where I was actually getting mad. Then I had to step over this chicks shit because she was sitting RIGHT in the middle of the stairs. Like WHAT THE HELL??? Clearly there are people trying to get out could you not MOVE? So I just about tripped over her textbook and stepped on her coat. After that I wanted to walk all over her coat I was so pissed. So I slowly walked back to lister in my angry state and then I started to think....
This led to some more thinking which led to me getting back and trying to have a nap but taking about half an hour to fall asleep because I was thinking. It was nice to actually have a nap and I didn't want to get up after but I figured I should. Although i haven't done anything except be on my computer and talk to Vanessa because I am procrastinating which is not the best decision right now but I don't seem to care...
Like seriously I am always thinking about how I need to be in better shape and to stop eating crappy food but when I have a day like this I totally go to the comfort food. I am sure I ate half a bag of chips. The big bags... Like FUCK!!! What is my problem? Like why am I so annoyed and irritable today. Oh and all that thinking didn't really help. I guess I kinda left that part out, what I was thinking about.
Yeah well me being stupid I was thinking about mostly boys. Leanne knows this from last night but I guess Chris has a girlfriend now, and I think I am actually bothered by it. I don't know why because we haven't talked to much lately but there was always the chance of something possibly happening if I wanted it to but now there isn't. I don't know whats goin on. Or maybe I finally realised I really won't ever find someone because my luck so far... sucks. I think that is my other problem. I feel a lot more lonely lately, even if I'm not really alone. It just seems like I don't have any luck with this stuff. I don't even know if I am looking forward to my b-day because I feel so pathetic.
Like seriously WHO AM I??? What normal person has this many issues with not finding a guy and no one liking them or me liking the wrong people. AAAAHHHHHHH!!! Now I am just getting angry and I don't even know why. I just want to crawl in a corner. I am destined to become a nun... Ok I am done wallowing in my own self pitty now. Bye dudes.
Anyways, I think the bad day started when I wrote on my sweater. It was just a little blue mark but I was annoyed at myself. Then I went to Computer Science which stared off ok until about half an hour in when this fat, stinky, really annoying guy came and sat next to me. My definitely went down hill from there. The rest of the class he was all I could hear and concentrate on because of his annoyingness and stench. Then when I finally left class I went and got Subway which was tasty but I sat alone as usual because I don't have any break friends, which was kind of depressing today for some reason.
Then I tried to do my math assignment which was hopeless. I am stupid. I will be lucky if I don't fail this stupid class. And the stupid thing is I still need to make sure I have a decent GPA to get into the design program and I actually need this math class unlike a bunch of the classes I'm in. It sucks... So I went and got some math help which was good. Then I went to Econ. Did nothing special in that class except for maybe sleep. I would say I was awake for the first half hour and then I was out. Like I was actually dreaming. Almost the rest of the class.
This caused some problems when it was time to leave because I was disoriented when I got up because it was like I was waking up from a nap. So I was trying to walk around the bazillion people outside of the lecture halls all the while trying to hold my T-square and do up my jacket, WHICH WOULD NOT DO UP. This is where I was actually getting mad. Then I had to step over this chicks shit because she was sitting RIGHT in the middle of the stairs. Like WHAT THE HELL??? Clearly there are people trying to get out could you not MOVE? So I just about tripped over her textbook and stepped on her coat. After that I wanted to walk all over her coat I was so pissed. So I slowly walked back to lister in my angry state and then I started to think....
This led to some more thinking which led to me getting back and trying to have a nap but taking about half an hour to fall asleep because I was thinking. It was nice to actually have a nap and I didn't want to get up after but I figured I should. Although i haven't done anything except be on my computer and talk to Vanessa because I am procrastinating which is not the best decision right now but I don't seem to care...
Like seriously I am always thinking about how I need to be in better shape and to stop eating crappy food but when I have a day like this I totally go to the comfort food. I am sure I ate half a bag of chips. The big bags... Like FUCK!!! What is my problem? Like why am I so annoyed and irritable today. Oh and all that thinking didn't really help. I guess I kinda left that part out, what I was thinking about.
Yeah well me being stupid I was thinking about mostly boys. Leanne knows this from last night but I guess Chris has a girlfriend now, and I think I am actually bothered by it. I don't know why because we haven't talked to much lately but there was always the chance of something possibly happening if I wanted it to but now there isn't. I don't know whats goin on. Or maybe I finally realised I really won't ever find someone because my luck so far... sucks. I think that is my other problem. I feel a lot more lonely lately, even if I'm not really alone. It just seems like I don't have any luck with this stuff. I don't even know if I am looking forward to my b-day because I feel so pathetic.
Like seriously WHO AM I??? What normal person has this many issues with not finding a guy and no one liking them or me liking the wrong people. AAAAHHHHHHH!!! Now I am just getting angry and I don't even know why. I just want to crawl in a corner. I am destined to become a nun... Ok I am done wallowing in my own self pitty now. Bye dudes.
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