Almost done first semester at ACAD

So I had my two written finals yesterday. Art History was average. I'd say I got a 75%. Humanities wasn't too bad either I guess. Maybe the same as Art History. At least they are over now though. I have my glass critique Friday. I just finished one project but I still have another to do. Monday is my Drawing crit. I have to redue a few drawings for that one. I think this is going to be a busy weekend. Anyway, I am glad I am almost done. It wasn't too bad at all. Next semester is going to be a little more difficult however. So we shall see. Good luck with all your exams guys!

Essays = boo earns

So I hate essays and I am really terrible at them. I mean I did ok on my art history one but he gave us a lot of the information we needed to know and I did my research so I found it pretty easy to write. This essay however, sucks! I mean I know about the gender issues in the past and woman's lack or rights but it still sucks. We have to watch a movie, which I did, Pride and Prejudice and write about it in the viewpoint of one of the authors that we read about this semester. Well this lady that I am writing as is a feminist so you would think it would be easy. It doesn't seem to be. Do you realize how hard it is to write as another person? You are talking about their values and views on society. I mean how the hell am I supposed to know? It is coming along, but it won't be the best thing I have ever written. Plus I still have to study for my 2 finals which are just as important as this essay. Oh well. The craziness will end soon. Peace.

school, life, whatever comes my way

So I got my art history paper back on Tuesday and I killed it! I did really well and I am very proud of myself. So hopefully I will do ok on the final and then come out of the class with like a B. That would be nice. Humanities I don't know what is happening. I still have a lot to study for and I still haven't started my paper and I have class all day tomorrow and I work Saturday and I have class all day Monday and then it's due Tuesday, so I think I can say I fucked myself over, but that's my problem. Oh and I have a drawing I should do in there too but I don't know if I will have the time. We shall see. But class is getting to the point where it is almost over. After next Tuesday I am home free I think.

On another note, I am SOOOO excited that I am getting my tattoo. 2 weeks from today. Should be awesome. I'm not worried about it at all so I figure thats a good sign. I should come with you guys when you get your piercings done just cause I think it would be cool. Depends on when you get them I guess.

Not too much else is new. I have realized that I am going to be bored during my break and that I will for sure need to spend time with you guys cause I can't come to the school after the 22nd and thats like all I ever do. It's sad. Haha. Dani we should go see a movie when you get home.

Oh and I still have x-mas shopping to do, but I'm not too worried about it. It will have to wait till next week thats for sure.

I think that's it. I really don't have much to say. Hope you are having a good day. Later girls.

XOXO

back in the fast lane...

This year has been going not to bad. School has been pretty good and and not too stressful and I have fun every once and awhile. But I have discovered that I have a lot going on in the next few weeks and I have a feeling I'm going to freak. I have had class as usual this week. However, I was at school almost all day yesterday working on some of my glass pieces to finish them. Then we went to the musical Aladdin which was nothing like the Disney movie but very funny. Today I have to catch up on some of school work. Tonight we are going to zoo lights. Tomorrow I have class then I am helping Britt make Christmas balls because she needs someone to assist and she said she would pay me. Then I am going out with my sis to this pub for this guy Erik's b-day. Then I am coming to see you girls on the weekend. Then in the next couple of weeks I have my finals, an essay due, a final Glass crit which I have no idea what I am going to do for my project and my drawing crit.

It's going to be crazy. Oh and my work Christmas party is somewhere in there too if I decide to go in on it. And then there is shopping for x-mas gifts which I haven't even started looking for yet. It will be nice when x-mas break rolls around, although I am sure I will keep myself busy then too. I am actually scared that my manager is going to decide to book me a whole bunch and I don't think I want to or that I will have the time. So I have been thinking about quiting. Because he was like news years day morning is really busy and he needs a lot of people to work. I don't want to work new years day. I dunno. Am I being selfish?

So I am getting my tattoo. It's official. I booked my appointment and put a $60 deposit down. So unless I want to loose $60 bucks for nothing I'm getting it. December 21st!! It's exciting but I am scared too. You know me, always questioning my decisions and scared of all the actions I take. My dad is going to hate me. That part will be shitty. But I trully feel that if I am going to get one this is the time in my life I should get one. I'm in art school, I don't really know where my life is headed and I'm still a bit of a kid and I feel like I can be reckless now because I might not be a few years from now.

Mind is all over the place as usual....

mixed emotions

I can't seem to keep myself on a constant lately. You know it's weird, ever since I have been home that's when so much seems confusing to me. Being with you guys kept me on some sort of straight path and when I came home I hit some Saskatchewan road and I was in trouble. I mean it's not that it's bad here, because there are a lot of good things, it's just that I miss you guys, and having girlfriends and someone to talk to. I realized today that I basically have no one to talk to in person here that I trust and feel comfortable with other than my sister. And sometimes things go beyond a sisters understanding or interest. I miss my best friends :'( . I am definitely thinking it would be wise to quit my job just so I can come to Edmonton more because I need someone.

This is one of those times when I MISS YOU ALL SOOOO MUCH!!

Anyways, the many things toying with my emotions right now fall under the following:

Bad Things: guys, school, no friends, work, unknown future, and my body.

Good Things: guys, school (glass blowing specifically), getting a tattoo, making money, and my hair (I love my hair right now haha)

I wish I could learn how to go with the flow and enjoy.

Mini story. We (meaning my sis and I) were telling my mom today about going to a tattoo place today to check it out. Well she asked for who. I said all of us (our family friend Matt was there as well). And all she said was your getting another one (which was obviously directed at my sister who is going to have 3 soon). She didn't even acknowledge the fact that I am getting one at all. So I don't know if she knew it was going to happen or if she missed the point. We shall see.

Went to Regina this last weekend and it was the most uneventful weekend of my life. We left at like 8 pm Friday night. It's an 8 hour drive. Usually I sleep but I was up for at least the first 6 maybe 7 hours. I watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith, Swim Fan and watched my sister play Sim's most of the way. Once we arrived in Regina at 4 am we went to bed and got up at 9 to go see my grandpa. We spent all day in his tiny apartment except for a very short shopping trip that was unsuccessful because a lot of things were closed for the holiday. I slept probably half of the time I was there on his floor. Then we went back to our hotel and I began to watch Harry Potter. Got up the next morning and went to visit grandpa again. We were there for probably 4 hours and once again I probably slept for half of it. I also finished watching Harry Potter. Then we left for home. The 8 hour trip home was once again uneventful. I slept, watched Mulan 2, and contemplated life the whole way home. Monday was the most interesting day of the whole weekend and guess what guys, I spent a good portion of it at school in the Hot Shop (glass blowing well watching), and writing my Art History paper which turned out not too bad I think.

So yeah that should catch you up for awhile. Hope to see you all in a few weeks if I can make it up to Edmonton. Lots of love.

Today was one of the good days

The Goo Goo Dolls concert was awesome tonight. They were so good and it was nice to see Kait and it made me happy. I was at school for most of the afternoon which was also good. Being at school makes me happy. Being with other students and working in the glass department. I think thats why I want to major in it because it makes me happy and that's what I want for my life. Plus the awesome people in that department help. Today was the 4th years class so I saw them working and I got to see one of their demos which was super cool. It's almost like and addiction for me now... Haha. I'm kinda sad that friday is going to be the last christmas ball blowing night though. I have been to them all and I can only stay for part of this one and they are going out after which sucks cause I am going to miss the social part. The one time they are going for drinks and I can't go. :( Oh well. Regina her I come. Hope you all have an awesome weekend!

sad, pathetic life

So I went out Tuesday for Halloween and had an awesome good time and somehow got drunk (obviously people were buying me drinks) on $15. It was sweet. I danced and chilled and it was sooo nice to just get out and have a life. I got the pictures back today too and they are awesome. So many randoms that I will probably never see again. Actually kinda funny. Although I didn't make out with anyone, just random pictures. Haha. But anyways, really that has been the extent of my social life for this semester.

Dave said something about not having a social life when you are in art school. I was thinking about what he said and I'm like you have a social life, what are you talking about. It may be with some of the people you go to school with but I can guarantee they have been out a lot more than me this semester and they do have a social life. Me on the other hand, with you guys not here, I don't really have one. Seriously for me it's either work, home or school. And my life is so sad that I get bored and go shopping because I have nothing better to do with my time. Do you realize how depressing that is. And on another note, most of the glass department anyways has a significant other, I don't. Also included in a social life. I would love to tell him that. But I won't.

You know I think the worst part is, I still like Jaan. It's not that easy for me this time. I can't seem to let it go. And that sucks even more cause I can't do anything about it and I wish that I had more of a social life because that would distract me and possibly attract me to another person who is actually available. This is one of those times when I wonder what if.... I had say hung out with Chris more often or went out when Woz would call me drunk. But then I think it wasn't right at the time why would it make life better now. I have serious issues people. And I still have to write an Art History paper due in just over a week and I am going to be in Regina next weekend which shoots down my time period to write it and I still have no idea what I am even writing on. I'm fucked. I think I have allowed myself to fall behind thinking I was ok and now I'm screwed.

I will probably apply for U of A again for next year but I can't see myself getting in and then I will probably apply for design at ACAD but they only take so many as well and EVERYONE in first year seems to want to get in design, shot down again and even my idea of majoring in glass blowing might have a hole in it cause they only take so many people and having a good GPA helps you get in. I'm seriously fucked. What the hell am I going to do???? Having to deal with this sucks. And it totally doesn't help that I am PMSing because my emotions are all over the place as usual. Fuck, that's all I have to say at the moment. Hope all your lives are currently better then mine! Love you.

for sure

So I talked to Shawn. And Ross did have his phone Saturday. He asked me what he said and im like well he said that he wishes i was there and he thinks about me. He didn't answer back though. This was a text message. Anyhow, the point is it's still kind of creepy. Plus I am not even in that city. It's too weird for me. I told my sister about it and shes like why not. I'm like is Ross I'm just not comfortable with that. Plus I'm not attracted to him. Anyways just wanted you to know.

craziest message... leads to a story!

So... tonight I was checking my voicemail cause it said I had 2 unheard messages. I was like really... cause I hadn't noticed any missed calls. Well the first one was from my mom the other night and I just hadn't deleted it. Then the second message comes on a it's a guys voice, not what I was suspecting and the messages starts, "Hey, you know who this is." I was like what the fuck. So I hang up and check my missed calls. Sure enough there was one on there but it hadn't shown on my phone this morning. Weird... And I was thinking it couldn't be, but it was, Shawn Mcmaster had called me. Leanne you know Shawn. In fact Dani and Ali you have met him too, at Cook for my b-day the first year. You know who I'm talking about. The guy I was in love with. Anyhow. I had to listen to the message again. It was sent at like 1:30 am though so I'm not really sure what to think. But here is the gist of the message:

"Hey, you know who this is. Wish you were here. I could give you the time of your life. Wish you were here. I've been thinking about you a lot for awhile. I just wanted you to know that your always on my mind."

That isn't exactly the wording obviously, but you get the idea. But I listened to the message a few more times and it doesn't really sound like Shawn. Now I'm starting to think it was Ross on Shawn's phone, cause thats who it sounds like. I think Leanne is the only one who knows him... Where the hell was he going with that message. It seriously bothers me. Mostly because I have always liked Shawn, but also because I don't like Ross like that. He is quite a bit older too, like 27. Thats too old for me I think. Interesting but frustrating. Now I'm curious....

Anyhow. My weekend pretty much sucked cause I worked late yesterday and didn't end up going out to party like I was supposed to. I wish I could have. So work was all I did. Shitty. But I am looking forward to Tuesday. I will be done my humanities midterm and I am going to dress like a whore, go out to the bar, get fucking loaded and dance. Which I miss doing very much. Haha. wish you were here, or that I was there. Love you. I will try to call this week to chat.

With love,

Kim

It has been confirmed...

I met the girlfriend tonight. "Kim this is my girlfriend Terri, Terri this is Kim." Hahaha. So shes real. I seriously found out more about her and them in 15 minutes then I have about Jaan in weeks. Haha. She met him in his second semester of first year. Which means they have been dating for almost 3 years. She goes to the U fo C. She rides a horse. She is blonde and very pretty. She is also very nice, and they are cute together.

It's funny cause it kind of sucks but at the same time its good for me cause now that I know for sure and have met her I can move on. I'm weird like that. So that's my random story for today. And my feet hurt and I hate heels. Bad news.

Peace

Sorry its PISCES!!

NOTE: Don't bother to read if tired of listening to my boy troubles!

Sooo, I am still hooked. On Jaan if you were wondering or had any doubt. Seriously I think I need some help. I know he has a girlfriend, if he does cause it still seems weird to me but I can't help it. I like him more all the time. Really I'm just sucking myself into a deeper pit of future disappointment. I am a sad excuse for a human being. And you know I have almost been in a situation just like this one before, where I didn't have a chance and I know what happens but it doesn't seem to matter. Don't mind my rambling I'm not sure I know what I am saying.

Anyways, a few explanations as to why. He's hot, has an awesome smile, makes me laugh, he is very talented, very carefree (which I wish I could be), and says things that make me think he is flirting. And on top of that, I finally saw his new tattoo tonight. Yeah wanna know what it's of.... A pieces symbol in this crazy wave like thing. Yeah you know, the similar idea of what I have been planning to get for like a year and a half now but haven't had the guts to do but have wanted to do more since I have come to an art school and it's an art thing to do. (Very long sentence).

I think this officially sucks. However I don't think I could give up hanging out in the glass studios because I do have fun down there. And who knows, maybe I will become a glass blower.

FRUSTRATED

hurt :( .....

This sucks. You know when you have a feeling, like there is a chance he has a girlfriend sucks, but when you find out it's a reality it's just plain depressing. You know it stupid. It's not like I'm close with him or anything, but I'm upset. I really wish I wasn't because it would make this whole process easier. The other thing is it would make it a lot easier if I didn't see him to get over the situation because I have been sort of in this place before but that isn't possible. I see him every day that I'm at school. It's not like I can even really avoid him if I wanted to. Which is another sad thing that I don't. I still like him, and probably will for awhile but I'm hoping that maybe we can just be friends. Because those would be nice to have near by now too. I am SO glad I didn't ask him out now though. Imagine the embarrassment. That would have made this situation even worse. Fuck this sucks!! Talk about changing a persons happiness in one day....

Thanksgiving Weekend

So I had a pretty good weekend. It was mostly uneventful. Ate a lot of food, studied some, played cards, sang songs, drank and that's about it. It was nice to chill though. I am super tired today though. Probably because camping and sleeping in the cook shack on the floor isn't the best sleep ever and I kept waking up last night which sucked. And of course I was still distracted with my guy situation. I figure if I don't so it this week I never will. So I either have to ask him out or just give up on the situation. Wanna know something really funny though, even some of the adults this weekend along with all the kids are all telling me to ask him out just like you guys. I'm like I wish it was that easy. And then there is Dan (Leanne you know Dan) well he decides to give me and idea for asking Jaan out. He was slightly intoxicated but I laughed so hard, as did everyone else. He told me I should go up to him and say, " Hey do you like boobs, cause I have some." Haha. I don't know how well that would work if it didn't freak him out and if I did have the guts to ask him out like I would say anything close to that! Haha. So that was my eventful weekend. Hope yours was good. Talk to you later.

P.S. - Always after thoughts

I FORGOT to tell you. So I pulled out my phone and he's like hey we have the same phone. Oh wait yours doesn't have a camera. Then later he put on this suit so he could pick up the lobster when it wasn't done and the heat wouldn't bother him. Well this suit is like shiny metallic, and he called it the alien suit. He asked me to take a picture of him with his phone is this suit. But I stood there forever waiting. And then his memory totally turned out to be full. But I was thinking after, I was like it so would have been smart to either look at his phone and find his number cause obviously it's stored on there or I could have put mine in there. But that may have been a little obsessive or creepy and stalker like, but so funny and possibly flirty at the same time. I dunno. So yeah, my thoughts.

-Kim

Guy Update

Sooo this is what I have for you so far. His name is Jaan as I have told you. I went into the school today to scope things out and maybe get a chat in and such. Well I was there at about 4:15 and I went and talked to Dave, this other 4th year about this peice he made, which was cool but unfortunatly cracked. Then I realized it was another first year class and saw people I know so I chatted for a bit. Then I went out into the hall to sit on the bench and guess who shows up. Jann. :)

Of course I wasn't surprised because those 2 are almost always around somewhere. So anyways he had one of his sculptural pieces and I was commenting about it and he was showing me stuff about it and it was a cool moment. Then he left for a bit to coat it. But at like 5:00 he came back cause they had some some space booked in the hotshop. So for like 2 hours I talked with Jaan and and a few random people who came and went and we watched Dave make a lobster. Yeah dudes, a lobster out of glass. Like seriously cool. Hahaha.

Anyways, it was a good night. I was SOOOO glad I went. Haha. And I learned his background is Swedish and that he was born in Toronto and moved here when he was like 10. I know stuff you probably don't really care about but I feel like sharing cause I'm happy. :) Anyhow it was 7:00 and they were done and I wasn't sure what they were doing but I figured I should go home, so I went past them and Jaan is like, "Are you heading out??" I was like super nervous cause I didn't want to be stalker like so I was like, "Ummm yeah, I'll see you guys tomorrow," and I hurried out of there. Haha. I know I'm the BIGGEST chicken shit alive. So slaughter me. Hahaha.

But it's a start right. I'm making a real connection with him, not just a hey here and there and teaching stuff. We will see what happens tomorrow. Maybe then I can get the guts to ask him out for a drink. He doesn't seem to be a coffee person and we were talking about drinking tonight and I think that might work better... I dunno. Only time will tell. Haha.

Have a good weekend ladies. I'm going to be out camping so I don't think I will be talking to any of you. Hope you have a good one!

Stuff

Horoscope

" The real thing is out there, but before it can come to you, you have to find the real thing within yourself. In other words, learn to love who you are and love will find you. That means all of you, not just the nice bits."

I think I need to start to listen to these things sometimes. I kinda like this one. Its got me thinking....

Anyhow, thanks for the few awesome days girls. I had fun and I miss you guys so much. I wish I could have gone to Cook with you guys last night it would have been awesome. Soon hopefully. Have a good rest of the weekend and talk to you later.

At school....

So I have like a 5 hour break between my classes on Tuesdays and I don't really feel like reading right now and I still have almost 4 hours left so I figured I would write a blog to catch you up. I don't go home suring this break because I feel it would be a waist of an hour to drive there and back and a waist of gas when really I can find stuff to do here, which clearly I am doing.

So the guy situation at the school doesn't look hopeful. Unlike the University which has like thousands of people the population here is small and a lot of the people are really artsy fartsy and totally not someone I would hang out with which makes it really weird to be here a lot of the time. I have only seen a few guys who I actually find attractive and one is married and another has a girlfriend so my hopes are small....

I am hoping to come to Edmonton soon to see you all I just have no idea when it's going to happen yet. I never know with this school. I mean so far I don't really get homework in Glass but I always have drawing to do and then there is Art History which you all know requires a lot of reading and looking at pictures and I'm so bad at memorizing that stuff. It doesn't help that I work at Ricky's and of course he always wants me working the weekend cause that's there busiest time and he really doesn't have enough servers to cover everything. I guess I will just have to book a weekend off. And then I was still planning on trying to come the a Wed, Thurs. Since I don't have class then so it might make it easier. I know you all have class but hopefully we can spend some time at night together and then I can visit some people from main and such.

I swear when you guys are in Calgary if you ever come here you will have to come see my school. The people here are so different. The building in weird. The art everywhere. Sooo crazy.

I don't know what else to say. That's like my life in a nutshell lately. Nothing exciting really going on. I haven't been out except like the weekend before school started. I really want to go to cook. I miss the bars in Edmonton and partying with you girls. It just isn't the same here without you... I will come soon. I promise!

Anyways, I guess I should go study or something useful. Cause I do have a lot of reading to do. Later all, talk to you soon.

PS. I finally finished my room. I will post a picture of it on here for you to see. And Leanne I will send you holiday pictures. I will try and do it tomorrow.

School, Life, Comments

Like Leanne said THE GOO GOO DOLLS are coming!!! I too am super excited. I was so stoked when I heard it on the radio last week, I was actually freaking out when I got to work. Of course I had to share the good news with everyone. Yeah I work with a bunch of 40+ people, they didn't share my excitement, they had never even heard of them. Haha. Oh well. They were happy I was happy. Although when I played them Better Days (they play that one on the radio all the time) they knew the song. So that's cool. I was excited all day. I of course had the dilemma of figuring out who to go with because it's in the middle of the week and Leanne would be the perfect person but it just wasn't going to work. Then I realized my cousin Kait loves that kind of music and when I asked her to go she said she would. So I am going. Booked my tickets and everything. SOOO excited. Should be a good time.

So I'm painting my room as most of you know I think. My msn name has mentioned it. I am getting there. It's looking good. I am excited. It will be nice to have brighter lighter colors in there, since I am going to be working in there on school work and stuff. Should be good. I will have to take pictures when I am done. :) Oh and I am getting new bathroom hardware stuff. Like toothpaste holder and cup and stuff. I'm excited. No more duckies!! I think I need something a little more mature..... and then I can paint that too!! Starting new here at home.

Now for school. I am excited. The school is cool and there were a lot of interesting people there. I still have to make some friends though, but I know that will take time. I'm scared about the work though. I have a feeling I will be at that school A LOT. Busy busy. But oh well. It's open crazy hours too. I can be there from 7 am until 1 am. CRAZY!! That's asking for trouble! Definitely mixed emotions on this one. I will let you know how it goes as the weeks progress. Pretty mudane at the moment.

Later Folks. Enjoy my blurb. Have fun at school. Don't party too hard without me!!! Love you.

News

So I started my new job at Ricky's restaurant this weekend. Learning to serve already. Kind of shadowing. It's good. I like it there. The girls I work with are super nice. The one girl that has been helping me, Aly, is so nice. I even drove her home today. I think it's going to be ok there. Once I start serving I should make some good tips though. I'm excited for that. It's going to keep me busy this school year that's for sure. I'm not even sure how often I am going to be able to get time off because their busiest times are weekends and I guess they are really hard to get time off with. The managers are chinese and a little high strung but it's all good. I'm just excited to be serving soon!!

Dani's b-day was awesome last weekend. I had a really good time. Gotta love dancing! And her friends are super nice too. I couldn't really expect much less though. :) I would love to party with them again. And I got my Barn Dance shirt. Now everyone can look at me funny and ask me about it because every time I mention where I was they look at me funny. Haha. I don't care, it's who I am.

I'm kind of excited for school to start but scared too. It's going to be weird.... especially not being in Edmonton. I am going to try and get up there as much as I can but I don't know how often that's going to be with school and work and such. Just gotta wait for school to start. Just about done at the airport!! It really sucked having to do a lot of paperwork this summer. I assumed working in the shop I would do less of that. YEAH RIGHT!! I'm the girl so I'm their bitch. Fuck that!! That's why I liked having Daniel around. I would help him with jobs that were more shop appropriate and he's a fun person to work with.

I really hope I meet some cool people at school and make some new friends, otherwise I am going to be lonely this year. I mean I have some friends here, but look how much I hung out with them this summer.... It doesn't look promising. I think I might make some friends with the girls I work with too which would be cool. I'm excited to be going to school here but sooo scared too. Once the first few weeks are over I think it will be better. :) A few more weeks and we are thrown back into the stressful life of school. YAY!!! not...

The only thing I am really excited for is the fact that I am painting my room. It is going to be super sweet. I will show you all pictures when I get it done. It might take awhile though cause I have to get all this shit out of my room first. Then I have to prime it and paint it. So it should be interesting. Plus I'm still working at the airport and I'm working at Ricky's like 4 days a week. Busy busy. Ah well it's better to make money and keep busy then be bored.

I'm looking forward to an interesting year! Hope to see you all soon. I miss you guys! Love you.

Emotional and confused...

I have no idea what is up with me but I am all over the map. The littlest things are setting me off in a whirlwind or emotion and confusion lately. I seriously watched a movie tonight and cried through like half of it. SAD I know. I think I'm just not sure what to expect coming this school year and my future. SOOO much is up in the air. I feel like my life is spinning out of control....

I am going to be living at home again, which is fine because I like it here, but I'm afraid things are going to go back to the way they used to be before I left, with my sister, and even myself. I feel like I have grown so much in the last 2 years and now I'm shrinking or something... I mean I'm sure I will make more friends here at school but it won't be the same. The people I really want to be with are going to be too far away for comfort.

Plus I still feel alone so much of the time and like I have no one to even just be with to enjoy the silence. My life is seriously depressing.

OMG listen to me. I am a sad excuse as a human being. Why do I even bother with it all. Would anyone even notice???

I'm scared.... of what my life is going to turn out like. Who am I going to be?? Will anyone notice????

Alright that's it. I'm a basket case and I really need to get over my self. Just had to clean out some emotions. Don't mind me.

Summer Update

So workin in the shop this summer is pretty awesome. Bruce is a good boss. I have a lot of fun with the guys. Although James Kowalski is still the work summer student on the planet. He stressses me out and I swear I have just about killed him 10 times. SO ANNOYING. I have hit him thats for sure. DIE JAMES DIE!! Actually everyone hates him. I'm not sure why he comes back everyday. It's ok though I am going to holidays tomorrow and I will be away form him for 2 weeks. :)

I can't wait to be in Idaho. It sucks that this is going to be the last summer. They had to close it on me.... I'm going to enjoy it as much as I can though. And I'm excited that Leanne is coming for a week too because it sucks not being in the same city and not being able to hang out all the time. :( I miss you L and you too Alison. Life is quite here without you.

I found out last night that I will probably have to get a new camera in a few years because the memory card for mine is discontinued. Sucky! So not fair.

Incase someone doesn't know yet it also looks like I won't be going back to Edmonton this year. I didn't get in at the U of A and I did at ACAD here in Calgary so it looks like that's where I am going. It should be fun but not the same because I won't have you guys. Looks like I will be making trips to Edmonton this year instead of Calgary. I'm going to miss you guys!!!

Nothing else has changed though. I am still a loser with no friends here and I sit at home and do nothing and I am still single and it looks like it will be that way for awhile. Hope to see you all soon.

Kimmy

July Long

This weekend was SOOOOO much fun. Thanks for taking my Dani. I haven't been camping in southern Alberta in years and I saw a whole bunch of it this weekend. We went to Dani's cabin which was super awesome and so cute. The best part was for sure the Barn Dance. That is probably the most fun I have had all summer other then the time I went to Edmonton and out with Leanne. But this Barn Dance was good. I had fun and pretty much got a workout in too with all the dancing I did. Then the last 3 dances of the night I danced with this cowboy. He is from Australia but has been here for about 10 years. He is an electrician has a house in Cardsten. He is a pretty good singer. Very nice. The funny thing is I didn't think to ask his age. I would say he was mid to late 20's though. When I went back to Dani after she's like you should go hang out with him for the fire works. But I couldn't do it. I thought it would be weird. But I should have. :P But I might get to see him again if I go out there with Dani again. Apparently he pretty much goes there every weekend so who knows. I went to the lake where my parents were Sunday and had fish and went wakeboarding and landed my 180's twice and I went skiing today. It was a good weekend all around. But I just thought I would share my happiness. :) Hope you all had a good one. Luv yeah.

Update

The University is officially stupid. So I talked to someone today in Art and Design and they have my portfolio and they did not send out the second letter. The office of the registrar sent it out, and they must have screwed up or got their info backward. And I hate them for it because they stressed me out and gave me hope and its all gone again. God I hate life sometimes. Grrr. I will get over it but I would like to ring someone's neck for it. Just thought I would let you all know. Not much else to tell.... Talk to you all later.

IS THE UNIVERSITY TRYING TO STRESS ME OUT????

They are doing a dame good job if that is their intention. As you all know I got the letter a few weeks ago saying I was not accepted to the Design program. I was upset but dealing with it. Trying to decide what I am going to do next year, because I can always go into Art and Design which is easier to get into and I can take most of the same classes. Anyways, Thursday night I got another letter from them telling me why I was not accepted into the program. It said that they did not receive my portfolio by May 1st. THAT IS A LOAD OF FUCKING CRAP!!!!! I handed it in the day I left. April 28th. It was there. I have the FUCKING RECEIPT!!! So of course I was freaking out. I called the university yesterday to figure out what the fuck is going on. I talk to a guy at the admissions office and he looked at my file and told me that it looks like it says they don't have my portfolio. I would really like to know WHERE THE HELL IT COULD HAVE GONE. If I did not get in because of this and I could have but can't now because it's too late I am going to BLOW A FUSE!!! I seriously don't know if I can go back to the University and take the Arts degree knowing I could be in Design if the U of A hadn't screwed this up. THIS IS MY FUTURE THEY ARE MESSING WITH!!! AAAAARRRGGGGGG!!

That isn't all though. I talked to that admissions guy and he said that I need to speak to someone in the Faculty of Arts directly to figure out the issue. That's fine, he gives me the number and transfers me. Well the dame woman that is supposed to take care of students IS ON FUCKING VACATION!!!! I know everyone has the right to a vacay but THIS IS NOT A GOOD TIME FOR ME. So yeah she is gone for another like week and a half. She left a number of another lady to talk to if it is an emergency. I called her but she didn't answer her phone either. I can't win seriously. But I left a message. If she does not call me back Monday I will be calling back and finding SOMEONE to take care of this issue because I CAN NOT WAIT A WEEK!!!

But I guess there is an upside to this in any case. If they find my portfolio they I may just have a chance of still getting in. A very small chance but a chance none the less. So cross your fingers and hope girls. I need all the luck I can get apparently. Hope you all have a great weekend. :)

Good Weekend in E-town

So this weekend was a good time all around I thought. Driving with Dani to Edmonton and back was a good time. We had great fun speedying by people and mooing at cows and singing. And I had fun chilling with Leanne and eating Dairy Queen icecream and seeing her cousin and going out to Cook. I always loved partying at Cook. Me and Leanne had a good talk there, at the bar, a weird place for it yes but it was fun. Then we had McDicks which was quite satisfying. :) Coloring Leanne's hair was a good time too. And then I had dinner with Dani and her parents, which was fun and nice as well. It helped cheer me up and made things easier. Too many thoughts and decisions t to make about school right now.... And I have a headache now because my family was fighting tonight, I was trying to avoid it but the house is only so big. I guess you can't always get away from it. Now I'm kinda stressed though. I think it's bed time. No more reading for me tonight. Love you all. Talk to you soon.

My body hurts....

Well May long weekend was awesome. I partied a little, was outside most of the weekend and enjoyed the sun. I got a bit of a burn on my face but it's pretty minor. My muscles however are suffering. I went wakeboarding and waterskiing for the first time yesterday, my god it is hard on the body. I have forgotten. I need to get in better shape. I think I might get a membership at the YMCA. :) So yeah. Life isn't too bad. Tired now though. I might be getting a second job at Shank's so I will let you know what happens with that. Breif summery. I have a very large headache from being out in the sun and getting wiplash yesterday, so I will talk to you later. :)

I can't win!!!!!

Ok I mean I'm not really looking for a boyfriend, but when you are attracted to someone the thought comes to you right. Well there is this guy that works in the shop at the airport. He is an apprentice, age 23 and his name is Cliff. I was really starting to like him, and obviously still do but I am slightly depressed because I found out today that he has a girlfriend. Of course he does. Why wouldn't he with my luck.
I seriously am giving up on a social life. It's actually sad. I have also realized that I have no friends left in Calgary. Yes Dani is back with me which is a blessing because then my life really would be depressing but we are both working. But other then that and family friends of course I really don't have anyone. So I'm not going to be out much, which means I won't be meeting anyone. Why is this bothering me so much lately.
Seriously it wasn't a problem before, but now it seems to be. I am thinking I need to stay more busy. I am still trying to get another job other than the airport because that will keep me busy and I can also make more money which will in turn allow me to spend more money which always makes me happy, when I am buying movies and such. Listen to me, are you reading this, I don't know why you would, I sounds like a frickin loonie toon. I really need to clear my head or learn to be happy with who I am and what I have. I am crazy aren't I?????

Brooks and Dunn

So I went to Brooks and Dunn last night. Such a good concert. That was the second time I saw them and they are always an awesome show. Aaron Prichett and Sara Evans played too. They were awesome. Sara Evans was awesome. I love all her music. Aaron sang a new song called Hold My Beer. It was soooo good. Funny too. Sara sang a new one too. But I don't remember it that well. A good night of entertainment. Me and Kelsey danced some too. Good times. But there were these 4 guys in from of us that we all wanted to kill. They were up and down constantly buying beer and other drinks and then they had to get up all the time to go to the bathroom. Finally the girl that had to keep getting up to let them pass told them off. Which was good. But they were being drunk bums and I wanted to smack this one guy. Errrr. But oh well. Good times. Brooks and Dunn had this really cute girls brown hat but I tried to buy one after and they were sold out. :( It made me sad because they were really nice. I got a shirt instead but the hat was nice, and something different. But what can you do. I am still sick unfortunately though. And singing last night didn't help the voice. I don't understand why I can't get better. SOOOO annoying. I was hoping I would be better before my exams. So much for that.

Anyways, hopefully all of you are doing well. See yeah later.

Home

Well I am home for the week before exams. Hopefully your guys exams will go good in the next couple of days. I haven't done too much studying yet. Mostly because I went out for my sisters B-day and then it was Easter Sunday yesterday and we had family over. It's nice to be home, but almost too quiet... My cold got worse though. My throat hurts a lot and I get coughing attacks where my eyes start to water. It sucks but hopefully I will be good to go when I get back. Time to make dinner.... Peace

Well apparently....

Well apparently me being an idiot doesn't really matter. I got 29.5/30 on my lab exam. That's just ridiculous. And they said it was going to be hard. It was not hard. The only reason why I probably didn't get full marks was because of that one stupid question. Hahaha. But now I don't even care because I did awesome anyways. That makes me happy. :) Oh and apparently I am rated 8th in my class out of 90 people. So maybe computer science is something I am actually good at.... well lets hope anyways. What a good way to start the day on the last day of classes. And with Shank's tonight I'm sure it will end good too. ;) Haha. Hope you are all having a wonderful day!

I'm and idiot...

So I'm stupid. Don't you hate when you make stupid mistakes that you shouldn't have made and you realize it when it's too late and you hate yourself for it. Yeah well that happened to me today. I wrote my comp sci lab exam. It was so easy that it's actually unbelievable. Although that also worries me. I hope I did ok. That isn't the problem though. I know I made one mistake on there that could have been avoided if I wasn't so DUMB. Like really. I knew that I had to do it, it's not like I haven't done it before but somehow I just happened to conveniently forget during this test. I mean it will probably loose me like maybe 5% on the test max, BUT IT COULD HAVE BEEN AVOIDED. I was kicking myself for it not 100 feet from the building doors. FUCK! I really hate life sometimes. DUMB DUMB DUMB!!! Just had to get that off my chest.

randomness

So guys, I haven't updated this in awhile, so I figured I should write something new, although Leanne hasn't updated hers in AGES!! Hint, hint. lol. Anyhow, I have had a few random drinking nights lately that aren't really planned but a pretty good time, and Matt had been the cause both times.... haha.

Friday night I was having a few beers no big deal. Well Matt decided to bring out his tequila. I drank a lot of tequila, and then some rum, so I was D-RUNK! Oh man. I have not been that bad in a long time. I do not know WHAT happened. I sort of remember Alison being in my room and puting the garbage can by my head, but that's about it. Oh and I payed for it Saturday let me tell you. I was ill till like 9:00 pm. BRUTAL. I still managed to play dodgeball successfully though so I was proud. But other then that my day was very unproductive. Sunday I did Econ and then went shopping for supplies for Design. Well that was crazy too. I went to Southgate mall and found NOTHING that I needed or wanted. So that sucked. I ended up going to West Ed anyways which I was trying to avoid but I guess I should have just gone there in the first place.


Monday we kicked 5K's ass in dodgeball, which was very satisfying. It's so much better when you know people from the floor. It was great. Now we just have to do that again tonight and we will be set for finals. Lets DO IT GIRLS!!! We will kick some ass. I went out last night for Kyle's b-day at Windsor's. That was fun. I was maybe going to have one drink. Well Abby gave me beer and once again Matt gave me beer and beer is evil. I always feel so full and ill when I drink it. Sometimes I wonder why I do at all. But it works I guess. I was buzzin. Then they tried to go to Duke's but it was closing so Champ gave the guys some beers in a box and they decided to drink them in the back alley. Yeah that was good. Matt stepped on my new clean white shoes with muddy shoes... I wan't happy but it wasn't that big of a deal because I could just wipe them clean. :)

I was so tired today though. Probably from going out last night. It was a long day. Kickboxing was tiring. I haven't sweated so much in my life. Oh well, it was good times. And I only have 2 classes left now! I can't believe classes are over in a week. That's so crazy. And I have my Comp Sci lab exam tomorrow. I should really go and study for that...

Keep truckin! We are on the home stretch now girls. Almost out of Lister for good! Yee Haw! Hahaha. Love you.

DONE!!

I have finally finished my last midterm, done, done, done! It's very calming almost. So nice to just get it off my chest. Now I just have to start studying for finals and work on my design and get my portfolios together for my applications in the Design programs. Hell that's going to be the most stressful thing coming up. I have my Computer Science lab final next week too but I'm not too worried about that. The labs were easy and I have heard the final is almost the same. I'm sure I will be fine. Oh and I had my computer science presentation today too. That was nerve racking. I hate presentations. But it went well and our group did fine. It's worth 8% and I would have to say we couldn't have got any lower than 6%. So that's good. My Econ midterm sucked. I didn't really have enough time and her wording of the questions were confussing. I dunno. We will see how I did, but I'm scared. And we usually get the question booklet but if I want mine I have to get it from her later since I wrote the test early I wasn't allowed to have it. Oh well. No big deal. So yeah that's my update.

Oh but I had the worst sleep of my life last night. I went to bed early because I knew I had to get up and had to write my midterm today but I had a bad headache too. Well I don't know if it was the tea I drank or just me but I could not fall asleep for like 2 hours. So much for getting more sleep. And I didn't sleep that well either, I was rolling around a lot and just uncomfortable. Hopefully I will sleep better tonight. So that's my story and I'm stickin to it. Can anyone guess what song that is from?? Haha. Later dudes.

Kim

Snow Plow

Ok I know I have been talking about this all day but SERIOUSLY??? Snow plowing at 4:30 in the fucking morning right outside of a residence. Are you fucking joking. I went to bed later then I wanted to last night just cause of whatever. Then once I went to bed random girls in this wing decided to be loud and stupid. So I didn't get to sleep right away. I was going to say something, but then they were quiet. So I went to sleep at probably 1:00. I had a midterm this morning in Human Sexuality at 8:00 am so I wanted to get a fairly decent sleep. Yeah well that didn't happen at all. I was kind of restless for some reason, who cares though, I was sleeping.

UNTIL.... the stupid snow plow. So I was woken up to the sounds of those crazy big snow plows that have the bob cat like shovels on them. It was just going about it's business SCRAPING away at the asphalt to clear all that snow and making LOUD BEEPING NOISES while backing up, shoveling the sidewalk right outside my window. AAAAAHHHHH. I'm like ok so maybe it's almost time to get up right? WRONG! I look at my clock and it's 4:30 in the morning. FOUR THIRTY! Yeah so I was pissed. It took me forever to fall back asleep because I could hear it back and forth, back and forth, and then I was just so angry about the whole situation I just couldn't sleep.

Once I did back to sleep I only had a few hours left before I had to get up. Therefore I ended up being really slow this morning on the get go. I made it to my midterm on time, and it didn't go to badly but it probably could have gone better if I slept better. It just makes me bitter. I mean for what reason would they be doing it then of all times. I understand cause there are no cars or people at this time so it might make it easier, but there are people sleeping. Go snowplow somewhere else on campus where there are no people. Oh and I don't even know if that is really allowed cause I know construction can't start till 7:00 am because of noise bylaws so I don't know how this is any different. It better not happen again or I am going to speak to someone, ANYONE about it.

Totally unacceptable. And it ended up ruining my whole day because I was so tired so I slept through part of my Computer Science class and part of my Econ class and I felt like I was walking around like a deadbeat. Even squash wasn't as much fun today just because I didn't have the energy to try or run around. You will pay snow plow man, if I ever find you....

But I guess I am ok now. Must move on right. Finish off my stupid Computer Science project and off to bed it is for me. If I hadn't been procrastinating about this all night (the project that is) I could be in bed by now. Oh well. Now I must be off. Later dudes!

Oh Alcohol...

Last night was a good time. Oh St. Patrick's Day, how you influence alcohol intake! Haha. Duke's was fun, a lot of drunken people doing supid drunken things. And a lot of fun amuzing conversations with drunken people. It was a good time.

I talked to Chris Thompson a bunch. He just came up and started chatting with me. That has only happened one other time this year and we were both drunk then too. Hahaha. Pure crazyness. That kid is pretty cool though.

Playing quarters and hanging out was a good time. Silly silly. Alison and Leanne, you guys are always good for some entertainment. Now your picture is captured by all the guys who work at Duke's! Hahaha. Sweet. You make me laugh. Hope you had some good times last night.

I think that is the last time I will be drinking this year. Can't do it anymore. Too hard on the body and I have to worry about school now that we are getting close the end.

Later all!

Jealousy

It's been really weird, but lately I have felt jealous of everyone and what they have and their lives. And sometime they may not even understand their life or are not even at all happy with it, but I still wish. Does this make sense? What is wrong with me? If I put out there why I was jealous about some things most of you would be like why?? It's not that great, or they don't think it's great at all.

I think the real problem is I am so unhappy with so much of my own life that I am trying to escape through others and it's not really working. Other then the fact that the U of A is in Edmonton and I have to be in Edmonton to go here, I would be tempted to stay home if the program was offered in Calgary. I mean not everything is always perfect there, but generally I think I am more happy and content when I am there, at home then when I am here. It's weird, and I don't know why, but that's how I am feeling at the moment. Maybe I just need a home fix and then I will be ready to come back. Maybe it will be better next year when I'm not living in Lister and I have a home.

So many things running through my brain. But I have to try and block them out and just finish this year because I have so much left I need to do and I can't have this holding me back all the time. I feel like I have been shot in the head and my brains are splattered all over the wall behind me. Not functioning normally. AAAAHHHHHH!!!

Ok I feel a bit better now that my thoughts have been sprawled across the page. Hope you enjoy the crazy confusion called my life.

Peace

Strange how things work out....

This weekend was a bit of a bust in terms of plans but in the end I still had fun and it was probably the way it should have been. I mean Friday we had the Gin and Juice party and I thought it would be a fun time and it could show my sister a good rez time. But it kinda failed. I mean the party was pretty pathetic in terms of Lister parties. And she didn't even like the gin which doesn't surprise me so now I have to pay for her anyways even though she didn't drink any and she drank my other alcohol. Lol. Oh well. We peobably should have gone to Duke's. Always guaranteed to have a good time. But it worked out ok cause everyone ditched to pass out and who knows what. I got to talk to Pat's brother who is a lot nicer then Pat. Pretty cool kid. Me and Kelsey had a good time talking to Matt. I don't get to have many good conversations with him but it was fun. Then we went to bed pretty early and just had a good sleep.

Saturday we got up and went to West Ed where Kels had never been before. It was super busy there though. We bought something from Winners but it was like the first store we hit so the other stores it was more like exploring the mall. We were there for awhile and met up with Heather and Matt who were also here this weekend and it was fun to see them again. Then we took the bus back and went to BP's for a good dinner on my dad. :) Yummy food. Then we came back, got ready and went.

Again this year it was just my true friends that came. Thank you Dani, Leanne, and Ali, you made this weekend for me and I value your friendship. No one else made it but we danced a bit, got angry at the stupid bitches at the bar and then walked home, got chips and pizza and just watched Grease. Which was the best part of the night for me. :) I guess I don't need much else then to be with my friends and being our normal silly selves, just singing to the movie. That made my night. Then me and Kels just went off to bed and slept.

I read in the morning and she slept in and then we watched a movie. Then I took her to the bus and she went home. It was really weird to say good by to her. I was actually kind of sad she was going. I miss her. I'm glad she came. Then I just had a chillin night, talking to Dani and watching Coyote Ugly. It was a pretty relaxing night. Now I have to get my shit together and keep on top of things till the end of the year! It's gettin close guys. 47 days till I move back home and 32 days till the last day of classes. It's crazy. The next few weeks will be busy for all of us. But thanks again guys, I love you all, and I am always here for you if you need someone.

drunken weekend

Hey guys, what's up? Thought I would amuse myself by writing a blog while still recovering from my hangover even though it is now 4:00 in the afternoon. I haven't been like this in so long. It was nice to just party though. Oh man I miss it. Being responsible sucks sometimes. Haha. Oh well. So Thursday night was a good time. It sucked that we had to wait in line at the Union for so long but only because I had to pee really. I need to get a new bladder... Me and Dani danced tons and it was a good time. I drank a fair mount too. Silly alcohol, it cost me so much money, I wish I was a cheap drunk. Hahaha. Unfortunately we left by about 12:30 because I was feeling ill, stupid cramps, and Dani wanted to go home anyways. But I had such a good time partying with the floor. It's been awhile since I have done that.

We caught a cab and went home. Shared some Kraft Dinner which was super tasty and then I sat in the lounge for quite awhile with people chatting. It was a good time. Although I was up until about 3 and I didn't end up making it to my math class that morning. I guess I will just have to get the notes from Hardcore, if I can read them. So yesterday was a bit of a right off. However I did go to the design studios and do a bit of homework which is good. My goal is to not fall behind this second half of the semester so I can actually go home on time after my portfolio is due.

Last night was a rockin good time though. Sweatpants are just so comfortable, it was a good kegger. I did however get really drunk. I remember all of the night except the last hour is probably a bit blurry. Beer is just bad news with me, I just get stupid on the stuff. I was right fucked that's for sure. I'm paying for it today too. I had fun though. Met some new people. Don't know if they will remember me though cause we were all kinda drunk. We threw stuff at this really drunk guy Chris which was funny. That's what he gets for passing out in the middle of a kegger, not cool man. Oh the one thing that was pissy though... I stepped in some gum on the floor in the house and it was nasty. I remember being kinda pissed about it all night. Kinda minor but that's me. Anyways, I saw people leaving slowly but I ended up being there for a long time. The house was definitely emptying out by then.

At the end of the night I remember I was going to walk home with Leanne. I was getting ready to go and I thought that just some random guy gave her a beer and she was going to stay and chat so I left by myself which was cool. I was informed this morning that the guy was Kjell. That is why I am pretty sure that I don't remember everything from last night cause Kjell is a hard guy to miss. Anyways, I was also told that I was very drunk and apparently I fell out of one of the chairs or knocked it over or something and Kjell helped me up. Definitely don't remember that. I dunno. I walked home really fast and went straight to bed. I was going to go to bed makeup and all but I ended up actually washing it off so that's good.

Some good times! It's made for a pretty good weekend and I still have a day left! Which is sweet. I do have homework to do though. Especially cause next weekend will probably be similar because Kelsey is coming to town and we are going to party for my b-day. So that's pretty cool. But that's the gist of it. Later all.

week at home

Soo it's been awhile since I wrote and it appears I was the only one that didn't write a blog last Thursday. Although thats probably a good thing because I was behind on my design anyways. So sorry again about that guys. I'm an idiot. I need to stay on top of this stuff more this second half of the semester so I can study more for my finals. I can do it! I have faith. Hahaha. Although I am kinda falling behind already. I have to still do reading for comp sci and do some practice programs. That's my plan for the rest of the afternoon.

Last week was pretty stressful but its been nice to be home. I went to Regina Saturday morning. That was a fun drive. Although I slept a lot. Visted with my grandpa and Betty Saturday and Sunday and then went home Monday. I slept a lot on the way home too! It was great. Had dinner with my Baba and Gyda and my Baba made me a touque and scarf. She is funny. Haven't done much of anything since then. Caught up with some of my shows. I haven't been able to do too much because LEANNE GAVE ME HER COLD!!! Hahaha. Oh well. Life goes on. I have been pretty lucky this year with my health.

I went and got my licence renewed which is good I guess except I'm without ID for a little bit now. Kinda annoying. Oh well. I guess I will have to use my passport or something.... It shouldn't take more then a week but then my parents have to send it to me and you know Lister mail.

I'm going snowboarding at Lake Louise tomorrow. Which should be stupidly awesome cause it has snowed soo much in the last 2 days. It's exciting. I think I'm going back to Edmonton on Sunday. I feel kinda bad cause my dad is driving me back but it happens to be his b-day that day too. Shit I just thought I haven't got him anything. Although I'm sure he doesn't want anything but still. I usually get him something. Guess I should go shopping Saturday.

So that's what I have been up to this week. Hope you are having fun too! I'm sure you are. See you all soon.

Peace!

crazy week, but at the end is home!

This week sucks because I have multiple misterms, a design portfolio and a math assignment which I suck at. I don't like this week but I'm taking it step by step and tomorrow much of the horribleness will be over. But I do have one thing to look forward too. Going home on friday. I can't wait for yummy food and a break from this place and school. I don't function well here anymore, or sleep. I should work on that. Anyhow just wanted to give you a brief update and I just wanted to write something in my blog!

today started off as a good day...

Today started off as a good day. I had a shower this morning and braided my hair and wore my new pink sweater and it was just good. Went to Human Sexuality which was interesting as always, we talked about sex positions today... although the prof said that the lecture couldn't really teach you about it and if you think you can learn about it from a book without actually doing it you are very wrong.... crap. lol. just kidding.

Anyways, I think the bad day started when I wrote on my sweater. It was just a little blue mark but I was annoyed at myself. Then I went to Computer Science which stared off ok until about half an hour in when this fat, stinky, really annoying guy came and sat next to me. My definitely went down hill from there. The rest of the class he was all I could hear and concentrate on because of his annoyingness and stench. Then when I finally left class I went and got Subway which was tasty but I sat alone as usual because I don't have any break friends, which was kind of depressing today for some reason.

Then I tried to do my math assignment which was hopeless. I am stupid. I will be lucky if I don't fail this stupid class. And the stupid thing is I still need to make sure I have a decent GPA to get into the design program and I actually need this math class unlike a bunch of the classes I'm in. It sucks... So I went and got some math help which was good. Then I went to Econ. Did nothing special in that class except for maybe sleep. I would say I was awake for the first half hour and then I was out. Like I was actually dreaming. Almost the rest of the class.

This caused some problems when it was time to leave because I was disoriented when I got up because it was like I was waking up from a nap. So I was trying to walk around the bazillion people outside of the lecture halls all the while trying to hold my T-square and do up my jacket, WHICH WOULD NOT DO UP. This is where I was actually getting mad. Then I had to step over this chicks shit because she was sitting RIGHT in the middle of the stairs. Like WHAT THE HELL??? Clearly there are people trying to get out could you not MOVE? So I just about tripped over her textbook and stepped on her coat. After that I wanted to walk all over her coat I was so pissed. So I slowly walked back to lister in my angry state and then I started to think....

This led to some more thinking which led to me getting back and trying to have a nap but taking about half an hour to fall asleep because I was thinking. It was nice to actually have a nap and I didn't want to get up after but I figured I should. Although i haven't done anything except be on my computer and talk to Vanessa because I am procrastinating which is not the best decision right now but I don't seem to care...

Like seriously I am always thinking about how I need to be in better shape and to stop eating crappy food but when I have a day like this I totally go to the comfort food. I am sure I ate half a bag of chips. The big bags... Like FUCK!!! What is my problem? Like why am I so annoyed and irritable today. Oh and all that thinking didn't really help. I guess I kinda left that part out, what I was thinking about.

Yeah well me being stupid I was thinking about mostly boys. Leanne knows this from last night but I guess Chris has a girlfriend now, and I think I am actually bothered by it. I don't know why because we haven't talked to much lately but there was always the chance of something possibly happening if I wanted it to but now there isn't. I don't know whats goin on. Or maybe I finally realised I really won't ever find someone because my luck so far... sucks. I think that is my other problem. I feel a lot more lonely lately, even if I'm not really alone. It just seems like I don't have any luck with this stuff. I don't even know if I am looking forward to my b-day because I feel so pathetic.

Like seriously WHO AM I??? What normal person has this many issues with not finding a guy and no one liking them or me liking the wrong people. AAAAHHHHHHH!!! Now I am just getting angry and I don't even know why. I just want to crawl in a corner. I am destined to become a nun... Ok I am done wallowing in my own self pitty now. Bye dudes.

a never ending week...

of hell I think. It just doesn't seem like it's going to be all that great, so far it's lived up to my expectations. You see last week was SKULK. Which was a lot of fun as usual but also not healthy for the body. Lack of sleep probably didn't help as well as kissing (well touching lips) with so many people from my floor gave me some sort of illness. I HATE COLDS. I have been fine pretty much all year this year, which is so awesome cause I was sick all the time last year.

But no of course I wasn't going to go the whole year without having a deadly cold that would have been way to abnormal for Lister. I was just hoping. But I guess it was all worth it cause we WON!! That's right bitches, we kicked fuckin ass again, even while every other floor was sabbatoging us in the penny wars because we fucking kick ass. It's so awesome. Makes me happy. :) I almost considered not drinking Saturday since i got pretty sick but clearly that was not going to happen cause it's mystery lake and it's like a sin if you aren't hosed. So I got fairly drunk. Felt pretty good too. I even cried when we won... although I'm not sure why, made me happy I guess. It was good to see everyones hard work stand out. I'm proud. Me and Dani had a pretty good time dancing one the stage and I had fun screaming. I'm not sure how I didn't loose my voice Sunday... Good times though.

But anyways, back to the good weekend leading into a bad week. I was pretty sick Sunday from this cold. I was sick yesterday which made kickboxing class really hard because I'm having issues breathing, and I had the worst stomach ache that just wanted to eat my body. Not cool. Oh yeah and I get my period sometime this week to top it all off!! Woohoo. I couldn't have done any better that's for sure. Plus I have readings, homework, design projects to catch up on, oh and sleep, which hasn't worked well. I try to sleep but yet I'm still not getting enough to keep me awake in class. I need more sleep when I'm sick like most people but I haven't been able to really get that for whatever reason. Maybe part of it is because I am sick but I haven't been sleeping well and at 3:30 this moring I woke up like wide awake and for a few minutes I thought the clock said 6:30 which ment I had to get up and blah. Just no fun. I mean I almost fell asleep in Human Sexuality this morning, if that doesn't tell you something is wrong then I don't know what will. (We had the coolest presenter this morning, he taught us a lot and he make sex/relationship board games that look super cool but of course right now are of no use to me so of course it would be stupid to get one, BUT THEY ARE SO COOL. Oh and he is even giving us a discount! Haha. If anyone wants one let me know...) .
But yeah I slept through most of Comp Sci which isn't good because she started C++ programming today and I kinda need to know how to do that. So lets hope I picked up on most of the stuff.

I think the only thing I have to look forward to is that they have cabbage rolls and perogies in the cafe tonight!!! Yay. First time since we have been back and it couldn't have been soon enough. I don't think this week is going to be good for anyone. Ali, I hope your week gets better as the days go by. It's hard to hear you sad and not being able to do anything about it. Leanne I hope you rape your midterm and that they can figure out whats wrong with your stomach with that test so you can keep your food down, cause it sucks being hungry!! Dani, I hope yoga and wall climbing is fun and your arms don't get too sore! Next week will be better! (well I hope anyways) Later dudes!

I know, I know

I try to keep up on my posts but I still can't type as fast as you even though I am faster then I used to be. For me to write a blog it can be quite time conssuming and I haven't seemed to have the time since I have had math assignments, and design and then there is the readings, which I have been pretty good about keeping up with this semester. I am quite proud of myself actually. :) Yet somehow I am still behind in a lot of it but I seem to only be able to do so much in one day before I get bored and then I end up being lazy. I can do it! And you all know what happened this weekend, since you were all there, or someone has already wrote about it. Haha. The Kegger was awesome though, and I am totally looking forwarf to Mystery Lake. It will be great. I need to go and buy a disposable camera! At least I have something ot look forward too. But this blog is finished for now because i have a math assignment to finish!! Later peeps.

Kim

Intense

Last night was crazy. I got right fucked, and had an awesome time. I didn't really want to come back, cause living here just seems weird and I miss having a home. I realized that when I was at home during the break. It's weird. I'm glad that I have my friends here to take care of me though, cause who knows what would happen if I didn't. Pure crazyness. My head hurts a little bit today though, and I still feel dizzy. Stupid hangovers. I'm glad I didn't consume any more alcohol, that would have been bad. I think I need to have a nap now though. Recover a bit more from my intoxicating night. Haha. Later. Love you all. And thanks for takin care of me!