Feeling fat....lol.

I hate this time of the month. I mean I know it's coming and that it always comes but I hate it. I feel not that great and the cramps. Grrr. Oh and then there is the things that come with it. Like the serious cravings for chocolate. Omg, I have had so much chocolate in the last few days and I love it but it makes me feel like crap and that I am going to get fat or fatter. Oh and then there is the bloating I guess. You feel fat even if you aren't fat. It's just uncomfortable. I also feel no motivation to do anything. But I need to. I haven't done anything in over a week. I feel lazy, and fat. FAT FAT FAT ok. I know it's horrible and I'm not, blah blah blah. But that's the way I feel right now and my scale at home seems to show the proof. I have gained wait since I moved here, which I am not proud of, but I dunno, what am I going to do, not eat? Ya I DON'T THINK SO!!! I love food too much and I can guarantee I would pass out at some point. So anyways, that is my little, slightly depressing blog. Now you know how I really feel. But it will pass and I will feel better when the weekend comes. I can go out and party and just have a good time. But there is also the fact that I have an English research paper due Monday which I didn't do the pre-work for which means I got no assistance from my prof when she probably could have helped me with topics to write a good essay. But um no, Kim was dumb and chose to forget about it and not care, even though I do care because I want to pass but I'm fucked. I haven't even started and now I have a measly few days to do it and look at me now I'm still procrastinating. I can't wait to have no more english. I need to find things I enjoy taking. But I don't know if that will even happen. Crap. Oh and I have to get up early tomorrow morning to register in classes cause I want a good schedule and if I do it then it's one less thing to worry about. Along with the Lister residence stuff that I have to fill out and hand it. My time is lessoning and the pile of stuff to do just seem to grow every day. Now if I had done work before I would have been better off but once again first year university, the partying and not knowing what I want to do has screwed me over. KICK IN THE PANTS!!!! I need to go home....

Random crap!

So I have some random but vital information about my life. Well maybe not that vital. So anyways, I tried to donate blood today, because I had an appointment that was made like 2 months ago and I couldn't cause I'm sick, and it sucks. Technically I could have done it like 2 weeks ago and I should have cause I was healthy then, but nooo.... Oh well, now I have to wait like a week or two, and then if I'm better I can. I want to, cause it makes me feel good about myself! But it can wait cause I don't want to be sick for weeks either. Moving along, I realized in the last few days, that I really don't like Jeff that much anymore. If there is anything it's insignificant and only there because I don't like anyone else right now, and I like having someone to like because it gives me something to think about. I mean I still want to be friends with him but he is kind of ignoring me. Oh and he is still quite obsessed with his ex which is terribly sad, and I pity him cause he needs to move on. But whatever keeps him going. It's kind of cool that I did hang out with him for awhile though cause I met Dylan from his floor and he is a really nice guy and I love talking to him. That's another reason why you need to live life with no regrets, something good usually comes out of it. ;) Now I move on to the depressing fact that I am avoiding doing my english essay that is due Monday and I haven't started and it's not going to be simple, but I have lost all motivation even though I want to pass that class. It just seems so hopeless. Oh but I did finish Angels and Demons today. What an incredible book. I love this Dan Brown guy. I may have to find his other books. That was probably the highpoint of my day. I was tired but that passed as soon as I got back to Lister. It's those professors, they sing lullabys of learnage. Haha. Oh and I went to the chiropractor today which was nice. That guy is awesome. So I got to see Nicole too, and listen to her boy troubles. She has too many boys, and I have none! What a girl. Just like her brother so she attracts the them all, lol. I think that was pretty much the extent of my day. Nothing to too thrilling. But I suppose I should do SOMETHING now, so I leave you in despair.

Easter Weekend

Well it was Easter this weekend, and I went home, and it was nice to be home, but I really didn't do anything all that exciting. Thursday night it was late when we got back after driving and dropping Kurtis and Leanne off so I didn't go, also because I was sick and I went in the hot tub and watched some TV. Friday I slept in till 11 I think, which was nice. Doing a little catch up. I needed that. My sister was over at Nick's I guess so I got up and got ready and went out with my parents for the afternoon. We went and looked at cars cause we are going to need something for when I get home, and then we did something else too, oh ya recycling and I think that's it. Just a day hanging out. Then I went home and watched more taped shows all night. I didn't go out at all because I was still feeling sick even though I wanted to go out then too. I decided to go to bed at 1:00 after I changed my laundry and that's when Kelsey got home from Nick's, a little late but whatever, she fell asleep. So we ended up talking about things for like an hour and then it was time for bed because we had to get up to go shopping the next morning. We went grad dress shopping Saturday morning. We ended up getting lucky though because Kelsey found her dress is the first store, and it suited her so well because it's bright and crazy. But of course it was also like $650.00, which is insane and like more then double the price of mine, but I guess you will only live through it once. Then we went down to Pat and Maggie's which was nice because I haven't seen them in a long time. After that we went to Southcentre because it's right there anyways. We didn't buy anything, just looked. I wanted to get some stuff from La Senza but my dad was there so my mom said I should go later without him. I wanted to go and see Stef and Heather downtown but it was getting later and we ended up going to Peter's for a late lunch which was tasty. Then we went home. Leanne came over for a bit to fill out some forms for my dad and bring her tax stuff and then I took her home because she was going out with her cousin. I would have gone, and I wanted to cause I hadn't gone out all weekend but I was still sick so I just didn't bother. So again I sat and watched TV and did nothing all night. Went to church Sunday morning at 10. We were there 20 minutes early and we still had to stand. It was crazy. And I almost passed out because of the heat. Gotta love when everyone goes to church on the holidays. I saw Erik there too, Jeff's buddy. I see that kid everywhere, it's crazy, but at least he is a nice guy. Then I went home and did nothing for a few hours until I had to pick Lacey and her boyfriend Eric up from her place down south. It was good to talk to her. And we got to meet her chuiauia too, his name is Muchy. He is so cute, and very little, but so much fun. It was great. I did manage to forget to pick my sister up to though. So when I got home I had to leave again to get her. That was genius on my part. Then we chatted and had dinner and talked some more. It was good to hang with Lacey. Hopefully I get to see more of her this summer, and he boyfriend seems pretty cool too. Then I went home but I had to make a pit stop at Stef and Heather's because I had to see their tattoos. They actually turned out pretty well but I guess it still hurts. We will see if I still get mine. But I didn't stay long and I went home and watched more taped shows because I still had some left and I didn't end up finishing them anyways. I got up this morning and got ready and said goodbye and then me and Dad went and got Leanne, and then we were off. Didn't take long to get back really. So we dropped Leanne and our stuff off and went to visit Uncle Henry for a bit. It was good to see him, and I finally got to see his tattoos. The one of Cooper is amazing. It looks exactly like him, just like a photo, I was impressed. Then me and dad went to McDonald's for lunch and he took me back to Lister and headed home. Now I am here, doing nothing of significance even though I should be. I did make my bed and put everything away though, which was somewhat productive. Now I shall do my chemistry while Leanne sleeps.... I wanna sleep, but I shouldn't. Oh well, I have tonight. So ciao for now.

P.S. - I forgot to mention that I talked to Dylan a lot this weekend, a guy from Jeff's floor, and I think he may like me.... It has been interesting, but I am not making any conclusions because I know nothing about boys/men as I have noticed over the last year!

Pointless blog!?!?

Haha, the title may distract you from my blog, and then you may not want to read it cause if it's pointless then what's the point right??? Haha. Well anyways, if you feel like distracting yourself for awhile to amuse yourself with my randomness then go right ahead. I can't guarantee anything though. This may drag on and not be amusing at all, which would suck for you if you choose to read the whole thing right. Oh and just to let you know, this random and probably long blog is dedicated to my roommate Leanne who has requested a long blog that will hold her over for the weekend because she will not have internet to amuse herself over this long weekend. K, now I am going to actually get into writing my blog. So anyways, Alison gave me her disease and now I have this horrible cough that is severely hurting my lungs. Every time I breath in I want to have a coughing attack. It's so not cool. And I am attempting to take some drugs but I don't have cough medicine so my options are limited. Oh and the other thing that sucks about this disease is the fact that my nose is more stuffed up again. God, I can never be healthy here. Like seriously, Lister is a death trap waiting to happen. I'm just glad I haven't caught anything serious yet!! Oh and what I was going to say before was that this stupid sickness and cough are making me tired and I even got a full 8 hours of sleep last night which is amazing for me, I don't know the last time on a regular day that has happened. It's crazy shit. So ya, it sucks. And I think after I am done writing this which will probably take me awhile because they usually do if they are long I will have lunch ( go me and my KD cravings) and then have a nap and pack somewhere between now and 5:00. Just for the record I started to write this blog at like... 11:15 I think or somewhere around there anyways. So this way we can really figure out how much time of my life I was writing this stupid and pointless blog, once again requested my Leanne. Lol. So I was saying, I think I will have a nap and then I will probably sleep on the way home so hopefully that will help. Plus I have been drinking water and I got some Raspberry tea from Tim Horton's and it's very tasty and I hope it helps this dumb cough too. Okay, I think it is officially time to move onto a new topic. So this morning I put in some new contacts. I didn't actually get any the last time I was at home though so these are ones I have had for probably almost a year and I never used them because I got new ones when I went and got a check up because they had to bump up my prescription. But they will do the trick and plus the eye doctor said I should try a lower prescription anyways because I get more tired when I wear my contacts and they thought it might help. But it really didn't cause I still get tired and now I can't see as good to so that was kinda useless. Oh and the reason why I have to use these old contacts. Well the ones I have been wearing I have had for well over a month, probably almost 2 and they were really hurting my eyes and felt like I had something in my eye the whole time I was wearing them. So I had to result to these contacts because I couldn't wear the pair that the eye doctor gave me because after like maybe 2 weeks one of them ripped which does me no good because I can't really see out of one eye. But ya my mom picked me up some of the higher powered contacts so I will have fresh ones for when I get home which will be fantastic. Oh my god I cannot wait to go home. I need it so bad. I can't really stand this place right now and I need to get my feet planted firmly on the ground and I need to get a kick in the pants from my parents so I can actually do well in the rest of my classes because they would be really disappointed if I did bad because I have one less class to worry about now and the was probably the hardest class too which changes everything. I just need to see them and my old friends so I know what I am coming home to at the end of April. It's going to be so weird to be there all the time again. But I don't think I will mind. Unlike a lot of people, I like my house and I really don't mind my family. I just needed a new experience and a little bit of freedom and coming here gave that to me. And Kelsey was driving me nuts at the time and I just needed some space because our good relationship that Marilyn loved so much was going down the tubes. We were just having some issues and it's better now. And being away for so long has made me realize I can handle her crazyness most of the time because I miss her so much it kinda makes up for it. I think the distance has made us realize the we really do need each other for support because we know each other so well and what we are about. There is also the fact that I feel I am missing out on so much of her life being here, like there are more secrets and there is so much more I don't know.... But it will be good to go home this weekend to be at her side and help her find a grad dress because that's key. You have to look good on one of the most important nights of your life. It represents so much. I love you Kelsey and whether you believe it right now or not things will be ok and they will get better. They have to. Everyone goes through a hard time, even if you may not see it. So going home is really important right now. :) I was going to party it up too but now that I have gotten sick I don't even know if that will happen at all depending on how I am feeling all weekend. Stef wanted me to go out tonight, and I was considering it because I know that it would be a good time but if my lungs hurt now I can't imagine what they would be like in a bar.... That would suck I can tell you that. But if I got absolutely hammered it probably wouldn't matter either.... Something to consider I guess. I have some time to think about it. But ya I think it will be good for everyone who is going home. Alison went home last night and she needed to go home too. Get some motivation for that last little push to finish off the year with a bang. Plus she gets to see her brothers and little cousins which will make the trip that much better. And of course Leanne is going home too, and her brother Kurtis is coming along this time. I think there mom really needs to see them. See that she has people that rely on her and there are people that worry about her and she needs to get her butt into gear. My dad, being the great man that he is, is driving all the way up here this afternoon to come pick us up at 5:00. We probably would have gone home earlier but Leanne has her EAS midterm this afternoon and it goes till 5:00 so there wasn't really and option in that one. Wow this blog is getting long. You better be happy Leanne!! Hahah. ;) Okay I think I have one last topic which I guess is kind of 2 so bare with me for a little bit longer if you will. On Monday afternoon or was it Tuesday, yes it was Tuesday I chose to do some crazy cosmo exercises. Lunges I guess but what I didn't realize it what they were going to do. This is probably one of the worst exercise pains I have ever felt. I feel like I am walking with a stick up my ass it's so bad. I thought I had issues walking yesterday, ha, was I wrong. Of course I had to play dodgeball because we are in the playoffs now and any game could be our last. Well running around and bending definitely did not make my situation any better. I woke up this morning and I could barely move my legs. Seriously it is an effort to walk. My legs feel like ass today. That's another reason why I'm not sure if I could go out because I don't think I could stand that long. Crazyness I tell you, crazyness. So ya I had multiple difficulties walking to class this morning and even trying to sit hurts and is an effort. My muscles are so stiff that when Leanne poked me in the ass at dodgeball last night it actually hurt. So now we come to my last topic. Dodgeball. Last night was interesting that's all I have to say. We lost the first classic game but then we came back strong by winning the first doctor and the second classic. Then during the second doctor game Chris decides to dive toward the net and dislocate his shoulder which of course stops the game. Poor Conner was going into shock and shaking and cold and then he felt sick and was white as a ghost. He did not look good. Remind me to never do that okay. But anyways, some people came to remove him and we decided to finish off our games without him and kick some ass and win. Well we had to restart that game cause it was all messed up and we ended up loosing. Whatever. Now we were tied 2 and 2. The final classic game we went hard and dedicated the game to Chris and we kicked ass. So we won and that means we go on. Which is so awesome. It makes me happy to know that our floor is happy and that we can be united during dodgeball even though the guys are far to competitive. It was fun anyways. Oh and I can't forget that I was in such a good mood and being silly the whole time. So in the one doctor game I was singing U.G.L.Y. you aint got no alibi you ugly, hey hey, you ugly. Lol. Good times, good times. Now that this blog is extremely long and Leanne probably won't have any time to read it and I have been typing for like over and hour I am done. Plus I am hungry. I need my KD. So I hope you all have a fantastic weekend and enjoy your freedom or your family and live life with no regrets. See you all later and I love you!! Peace out. Rodger Doger as my Uncle Henry would say. :)

So tired!!!!!

You see it is now 12:30 and I could have gone to bed at 11:00 pm but no I choose to stay up and talk on msn and write blogs and write silly quizzes. And I'm tired and want to go to bed, but then again I don't. Actually I just don't want to get up early tomorrow morning with no sleep tonight. I shall go to bed as soon as I finish here however. Which will be soon because I really don't have anything to say today. Nothing happened out of the ordinary really. Oh well I did go all the way to SUB just to meet Alison to make sure she was going to the doctor, because it NEEDED to be done and if me being there made her go then I'm glad I went. And tomorrow I am picking up Leanne from chemistry to take her too. Haha. I love doing this support/motherly thing. I mean if it gets the job done. And then I will come back here and do nothing with my time as usual. But anyways, going with Alison today gave me a chance to read my book and then I met Dani for lunch and we chatted as usual. Oh and then I had my lab, which was actually ok.... but I had a blonde moment and I turned red and was laughing at myslef along with my TA and everyone else. It was great. I like Colin more and more every time I have a lab. He is just a really cool guy. Down to earth and funny. But I can't start crushing on my superiors now can I!!! But oh well it's kinda fun to dream. ;) But then the day went down hill when I spent like 5 hours doing my stat's lab. Man did that suck the shizzle. But it was good cause me and Leanne walked in late, which I don't really care about and it gave us a chance to chat which was a good time. I love our random chats. I think it keeps me sane. So ya, I think that's finally it, and I really need to go to bed now even though I am having a lot of fun talking to Dylan at the moment. Meh oh well. Night night. Love you all! Peace.

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Stupid cold... my hands are icicles!!

Hey guys, what's up? So I just thought I would point out incase you somehow didn't figure it out yet, that this weather sucks!!! And for whatever reason Lister is doing a bad job of heating our room. It was warmer in here when it was -40 out. Like seriously. I'm sitting by my comp and typing and I don't want to anymore cause it's so cold by the window. DUMB WEATHER!! Fuck. Grrr. Anyways, yesterday was a good day though. I got to hang out with Leanne and her family and a bunch of random people. I went to breakfast with her Uncle Greg which was alright. He's a really cool guy. Very much a kid at heart. And then I went shopping with her and her dad and we met up with Mariette too. She's really nice. It was a good time. Lot's of shopping. Leanne's dad got her a whole bunch of new clothes which is cool and he even bought me a few shirts and I bought my own zip up Garage sweater which is awesome. Yay. Clothes and shopping. I love it. I wish I had more money. But anyways, it was entertaining that's all I have to say. But after we got to go to Mariette's for dinner and it was tasty cause it was home cooked food. Plus I got to play video games with Kurtis and just hang out. Then we went over to a family members house for Alyssa's first birthday. She was so cute, and so were all the other little kids. God does it make me miss babysitting. I love little kids. They are so cute. And dogs too!! Awww. But it was a good time. I enjoyed myself and that's all that matters. But now I must return to doing homework or sleeping now that I have wasted 2 hours of nothingness on my computer. Haha. Oh well. Ciao!

B-day at Cook County Saloon!!!

So last night was a blast. I was fucking HAMMERED. Like drunk out of my mind. Shawn decided to point that out to me too. I was like ya I am drunk, thanks for pointing out the obvious. Haha. But that's alright. Cause he was being awesome last night and I'm glad we are talking. I was pissed at a lot of other people though. Stupid ass mother fuckers on my floor don't even care. Why did I even invite them. I should have known that they weren't going to come. Me and Cook County aren't good enough for them. So whatever it made me see that I only have a few friends who truly care, and they came out with me. I love you Leanne, Dani, Alison and Amy. You guys made my night and thanks for the drinks and stuff. I had a good time and it definitely wouldn't have been the same without you. So many random drinks, I had so much crap last night. I didn't have my shot of Yag though but I did have sambucca and that just about did me in for the night. I just about hurled. It was sick. But I ended up being ok. Oh and then the whole thing with me being so drunk and then I was sitting so I was getting tired and the bouncer tried to make me leave cause he didn't want me passing out or whatever. I was just tired. Fuck. But anyways, once I got dancing again I was fine. That's all I need to do is keep myself active. So the rest of the night was good. I was pissed off at Marc a bit because he was being an ass when Nicole was riding the bull and I tried to take a picture and he flung the camera out of my hand because I was pushing him or something stupid like that. Whatever. But Shawn was being fun and nice all night. He gave me lots of hugs and we chatted and everything. I felt comfortable with him again. And he was being really nice to the girls too and was joking around with Alison trying to put ice down her shirt or something. It was amusing. And she drank a bunch of his pitcher. Silly silly. But it was good. I was happy he came as I knew I would be, but that's the problem when he is nice like that it makes me want him all over again even though I know I can't have him and the it isn't the right thing to do. But anyways, Ross came too which was cool cause I got to dance with him and he is a good dancer and he knows how to spin you. Plus he is an awesome guy. He doesn't fuck around. So ya that was basically my night. Oh wait I forgot the fact that I spilt a whole drink on myself too at the beginning of the night when I wasn't even drunk yet. I'm Ms. Grace. Haha. Oh well. My pants dried and I forgot about it pretty quickly. Oh and when I woke up this morning I found this huge bump/bruise on my leg and I was like holy fuck where did that come from. I have no clue. Probably did something stupid last night. So ya we walked back from Cook which was good cause it sobered us up and we chatted and it wasn't too cold out either. Good times. And the best part is I'm not even really hung over right now. It's great. ;) But now I must run cause I'm going to the boat show!! Yay. Have a good day everyone and thanks to everyone who came. You made my night!

Doom....

So I quit Organic Chemistry. I'm done. Finito. It's cut. I feel bad about the whole withdrawing thing when I am almost done and the waist of money and time. And all those labs that I worked so hard for. Gone, and I still had to pay for all the crap I broke this year too. It sucks. But anyways, it is over with, I am officially withdrawn. It will be a nice relief though. But now I feel obligated to do better in my other classes because I have more time and no excuse. Aaaaahhhh!! And I gave in a went to the plant for a few hours instead of studying for my Stat's midterm which was at 8:00 am this morning and if my parents found out they would kill me. Holy Fuck I am an idiot. I have to get my ass into gear. This is a serious kick in the pants! But ya that is the extent of that. The only other thing I have to say is that Leanne and Alison were so fucked last night it was entertaining. Wow. But as me and Amy predicted they are hurting today and don't really want to get smashed at the moment. But they will. They have to. It's my b-day, and Cook County! Fuck am I excited. But I should go and do something before the day is through.

Happy St. Patrick's Day!

Well it is March 17th today and I want to wish you all a Happy St. Patty's day. GREEN. The power plant should be awesome tonight. The last time I went.... was before Christmas. A long time ago. And I haven't been out in general at all in awhile. But anyways, have a great night!

Dilemma

So last night I had a bit of a break down. I mean it wasn't that bad but there were tears. I think this week is stressing me out and I don't know what to do about Organic Chem. I was looking over the practical stuff for today's lab and I was getting worried that the reaction wouldn't start or that I would manage to screw it up. I mean it ended up turning out ok and I got a product but I didn't really have enough time to write my discussion but oh well. Whatever. I'll get most of the marks I'm sure. I'm not to worried about that. What I am worried about right now is if I am actually going to stay in that class. I am considering withdrawing from it tomorrow because I did shitty on the quiz and I got 20% on my midterm which sucks. So for my lab exam and my final I will have to pull something out of my ass if I want to pass. And I don't know if I can do that and if I can handle the stress of it all. It may kill me. And then I talked to my parents today and my dad said if that's what I think I should do then do it, but he was a little upset and then I call my mom and she's like I dunno if that's the best thing to do, I need more information and time to think about it. I don't have that much time mom. God why does she have to drag everything out sometimes. Oh and then my dad brought out his little lecture again. About me coming home and going to the U of C and taking classes for architecture. I don't know what to do and they aren't really helping. They have to be so difficult. And now I have to make this choice and I wanna go out and party and I have the hugest headache. AAAHHHHH. Stress. Fuck and I have my stupid stat's midterm tomorrow and I haven't studied. Fuck, fuck, fuck. Anyways, if I do want to go out I should go. So hopefully things get figured out!

Ladie dadie da!!

I couldn't think of a title so that's what you get. It's probably not even spelt right but I'm sure you will get the gist. I'm not even sure what this blog is about. Randomness I guess, and procrastination. That's what this space is for, when I don't want to work and when I have something to say. So anyways, I just wanted to say yesterday was a good day and Monday was pretty dame good too! I think it was cause I was so excited for yesterday so it just made me happy and I was acting like a kid jumping around and jumping on my bed and skipping and just being happy. So it was good times. Yesterday was good too of course though. I got up and got ready for class and decided to dress up all nice and everything. Then I opened the package from my parents and I got a card from them saying they miss me and they have bears at home waiting for me and then they got me a charm bracelet with my initials. It's very nice. Oh and they sent me a card from Houie too. They put ink on his paw so he signed it but I guess he didn't like it very much. So ya then I had class, which is ok because I like Econ but I also found out I didn't do as well on my midterm as I wanted too even though I didn't do bad. And then there was Organic Chem which I hate and it was so boring. But then I had lunch with Dani and we chatted up a storm as usual and it was fun. Then I had my Chem 102 lab which really wasn't that hard and I was being a smarty and I knew stuff and so I was kinda telling the class, it was great. Kinda one of my teachers pet moments. Haha. Colin was impressed. The funny thing though, I know I was dressed nice but when I went to leave I took off my lab coat and Colin looked at me kinda like you look nice and gave me the once over. It was funny. I was flattered even though I'm sure it was totally innocent. So then I came back here and fooled around and bit before Marc picked me and Leanne up to go to dinner at the Craddock's place. Shawn and his girlfriend were with him too. Her name was Bronline or something like that. It was different anyways. She was nice though, and at least he picked a smarty. She goes to the U of A too, in education. And seeing her confirmed it and then it showed me that I see him like I see Marc now. He will just always be there but I can do without him now. But it was still good to see him and he wished me a happy birthday and that made me happy. We were supposed to be going right over but knowing there family there is always some sort of pit stop. So we went to the shop and changed vehicles and then Marc had to pick up some garlic for Nicole. But whatever. So we got there and she was making dinner and I didn't get to help but that's alright. Oh and there floor looks awesome, and the new paint job. It looks great. But ya, we had roast, ceaser salad, stuffed potatoes and garlic bread. It was fantastic. And Nicole made me dessert with fresh strawberries. It was awesome. It was nice to have a good dinner on my b-day! :) Then Nicole brought us back right away because we had a floor meeting cause we had to vote for out next years FC. I really wasn't sure what I was going to do but I voted for Hardcore. I think he would have got it whether I had or not anyways. But when I asked a question about his intentions for fun stuff and not just volunteering and I think it will be alright and there are going to be so many returners that we will make stuff happen anyways. So he won, and I'm ok with that. But then we had the rest of our floor meeting and I ended up volunteering to find a ping pong table. But it's going to be hard cause Chris has decided to be picky. Oh well whatever. But that's about it. Oh and we got out Lister Yearbooks the other day and they are actually pretty amusing. I was impressed. But they had no cover design. So it's a plain white cover with Lister Hall written on it and 2005. Which ended up being ok I think because now we can put whatever we want on it. I made my exciting with stuff and my jellybean. It's great even though all of it's in black. I am going to have to invest in more colors I think. But it looks good and I'm excited to have everyone sign it. So that's what I spent my night doing. Coloring my yearbook. But it was my b-day, I didn't want to do anything else. And I went to bed at 2:00 am even though I could have been in bed a lot sooner. I was just enjoying the day. But now I should really get back to work because I do have a midterm Friday and my practical tomorrow for Organic Chem. Geez that is going to be a bitch. Whatever. I can't do anything about it. But I guess that's all for now. Peace out!

19th BIRTHDAY!!

Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday dear Kimmy, Happy Birthday to me! Yay 19 today guys. I'm getting OLD!!! I'm no longer new to the world of bars, drinking, and partying! It's alright though because I now I can share my knowledge with my younger friends and sister. Haha. Not that there is much to know. Oh and for my presents I got a charm bracelet from my parents with K and J charms and then Leanne got me some too because she conspired with my parents and bought me 3 charms. Best Friends, I love chocolate and a fish for Pisces. They are all very pretty. And now I am so excited for Friday, it's going to be awesome! Love you all. And thanks for your b-day wishes.

What a night!

Last night was awesome! It's Alex's 20th birthday today and we celebrated at Duke's last night as well as our fuck you winter attire. It was great. Everyone it tanks tops and shorts. It was a good time. We played some quarters, sung some songs, danced to The Last Saskatchewan Pirate, *do do do do do do do do*, and drank! I got a little pitcher to myself. It was a lot of beer for me, and Duke's beer plus they very large drink I had before I went so I was quite smashed. It was awesome. I wanted to play quarters with Jeff but he was too drunk and high, moron. Oh well. I left Duke's at like 12:30 by myself cause no one else was ready to go yet. I can't even remember why I wanted to go then of all times but maybe I was just too drunk and done. So I came back here and I ended up talking to Jeff and went out to his room and watched Fight Club with him a Tyler and Dylan. Those kids are awesome. I also made sure to inform them of my birthday. Cause I want them to come cause they are cool and Tyler is an amazing 2 stepper. It would be great! Haha. So ya that movie it not a good movie to watch while drunk because it is really fucked up. I was like omg. But it was good to watch something because then I sobered up a bit before I went to bed so I wasn't that hungover at all this morning. I did fall asleep for a little bit during the movie and Dylan made fun of me and asked me if I had a nice nap. It couldn't have been for that long. Anyways, Jeff fell asleep to so there. But ya it was good and then I left and came back here and went to sleep at like 3:30 am. Nice hey? And like no sleep because I woke up at like 9:30. Why would I wake up if I could sleep in, stupid body. Like seriously. But oh well. I decided to be productive and get some homework done while Leanne still wasn't here. I did a little and then she came back but left again to her dad's and I went with Dani for a walk to Rutherford library. It was kinda nice. Then I ended up helping with recycling which took awhile. We had a lot of crap. Too much crap. But oh well. There was like 600 and some juice bottles, which is ridiculous. Plus all the pop, beer, and juice boxes. So much. But we also got the lounge cleaned which is awesome because it looked like a pig sty. It's pretty now even though Kyle A killed the vacuum with a bobby pin. But they cleaned up the stereo cords and stuff too so it was nice. I can handle it now. So that has been the extent of my day and this is my procrastination for the afternoon. Now I must return to my stupid homework so that I can pass university and come back again next year. So ya ta ta for now!

Friday was awesome... and today in consequently unproductive!

Well last night was awesome. I don't really know how to describe it really. It was just so much fun. I got to hang out with my four best friends in Lister, chill and watch a movie, sit in a hot tub and drink, with a bunch of drunkard's, lol. It was purely entertaining. I was having a good time bugging everyone last night. And of course the lesbianism was great too!! We have our fun that's for sure. Crazyness I tell you. I mean Amy was nuts and blonde last night, haha. But I still love her. It was so nice of you to invite us over to your very beautiful house. That media room was fuckin' awesome. I want one, even though you killed it by burning 2 bags of popcorn. Wow was that funny. The whole house smelt like burnt popcorn and that's hard to do in a house that big. ;) Oh and the fact that you couldn't manage to drink in the hot tub without spilling or totally submerging your drink! Lol. I think you were drunk before you even started drinking. And then there was Dani and Leanne with there whale water splashing skills. That was good too. Definitely special, that's the only way to put it really. I myself didn't do anything to crazy... the booze just wasn't hitting the right spot. But that's alright because I got to watch the girls have the time of there life and I still had a good time. Plus we got to watch How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days and I love that movie, it's such a chick flick and so cute! It was just a good night and when Amy's dad brought us back to Lister they all decided that they had to go nuts because they were pretty calm all night and that's when it got crazy, CRAZY. They were running around like chicken's with there heads cut off. Lol. Being as random as they could of course and Chris was being an ass about it all, but oh well. I decided that I was super tired and that I was going to bed, and I did, but I read while I waited for Leanne cause I wasn't going to sleep until they did anyways, because I could hear them down the hall, haha. So ya, because of last night and not going to bed until about 3:00 am I didn't get up till about 11:00. I was awoke at 9:00 by stupid ass Telus though to tell me that the call waiting was activated. Thanks guys, that was helpful. They better not do it again. But ya, I went back to sleep and then was awoken again because Leanne's cousin called and I couldn't figure it out until she started having a conversation and then I was like ya you have the wrong person, here's Leanne, lol. Oh well. I guess we sound similar on the phone. So she went to the mall (to buy me my b-day present :) ) and I'm excited. Haha. I can't wait till next Friday. It's going to be amazing and so much fun! So anyways, as I was saying I haven't really been all that productive today. I had a shower, put clean sheets on my bed and painted my toenails, but nothing really useful. I could be doing homework, but I just don't want to and I don't really care, so I am procrastinating some more. It's a good time. I might be going to Duke's tonight and getting hammered but we shall see. But thanks again girlies for last night. It was definitely something I needed after this week! I look forward to doing it again. But now I must be productive... so chow for now. P.S. I do know that's not how you spell ciao but I like to spell it that way anyways. So have a good day everyone!

drink drink sink

Hahaha. We are drinking. Taking shots of red sour puss. There goes Leanne's micky. Yes. I had one drink and I am getting red in the face. INSANE. SO much fun. nice. DRINK DRINK DRINK!! And then sink!

haha, I think I might have actually enjoyed that organic chem lab!

I have been having such a rough few weeks in my organic chemistry class that today the lab felt like a breeze. It was really easy, and I FINISHED EARLY! That has never happened to me before...I don't think. Anyways, it turned out well and I kind of had fun. Me and my lab partner ended up getting the same product so we helped each other out and it was entertaining even though our results were messed. But I am not looking forward to next week because we have a practical exam and that is going to be scary. Anyways, that is my new information and the only thing worth talking about. Oh wait, I did have my economics midterm this morning and it was actually alright. I studied till 2:00 this morning and then exam was pretty good. Lets hope I did alright. But anyways, that is it now, oh wait no it isn't, there was the stupid RCMP memorial thing on campus today that took over and was more annoying for the students then anything. They were in the way. But I guess there were big cheese people here so it was a big bonanza. lol. But whatever, I didn't care. So ya that's it. Time for dinner!

reassurance :)

So for any of you that care to know, I now know for sure that Jeff has not read my blog, thank god.

Stupidly long but interesting survey!

(1) Your gender: Female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: Straight
(3) Single?: Yep
(4) Want to be?: not really but what choice do I have
(5) Your birth day: March 15th 1986
(6) Age you act: Depends really. I act very childish a lot but then again I can be very responsible and motherly so all over the place. I probably act my age when I’m drinking… or maybe not.
(7) Age you wish you were: 17 so I could be turning 18 again because I didn’t go to the bar last time!
(8) Your height: 5'7"
(9) The color of your eyes: Green with like golden around my pupil
(10) Happy with it?: Yes it is very pretty and it’s just as nice as blue
(11) The color of your hair: I dunno. Light brown but more blonde at the moment.
(12) Happy with it?: Sure why not. There isn’t anything wrong with it.
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: right
(14) Your living arrangement?: Rez at University.
Wow there are a whole lot on numbers missing here!
(27) Your family: Happy I guess. Parents and a sister who can be very annoying and is spoiled.
(29) What's your job: Don’t have one! School which I’m not doing well in.
(30) Piercings?: 5 (on my ears)
(31) Tattoos?: Want one, just haven’t gotten around to it yet.
(32) Obsessions?: Hmm…Not so much anymore but TV and movies. MSN has replaced that.
(35) Do you speak another language? Can’t say that I do
(36) Have a favorite quote?: don’t know. Hmm maybe..
Before God we are all equally wise - and equally foolish. Albert Einstein
(37) Do you have a webpage?: yep, blogspot!

DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: I try to. Sometimes I don’t though cause I’m scared of what might happen and I take forever to make decisions.
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Yes, I have to be one of the most tolerant people I know. I mean I deal with people all the time and avoid confrontation and if I am pissed at someone I don’t usually tell them.
(40) Do you have any secrets?: I agree with Neil. Who doesn’t. Everyone has something that they don’t want anyone else to know. And I am keeping mine…if I even have one.
(41) Do you hate yourself?: Not really, I think there are times, when I’m in a bad mood.
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: Not really, I’m not very good and it’s kinda messy. My printing is ok though.
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: other than procrastination not really. Hmm saying to much when I should be keeping my mouth shut. I talk way to much.
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: Hmm, I don’t know if I get that many. I guess my girls think I’m fun and crazy and they love my randomness.
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: I have no clue. The crazy and random life of Kim!
(46) What's your biggest fear?: That something will happen to my eyes. I have like this hurting my eye phobia. I don’t know if that’s good that people know that though cause now they know how to scare me…
(47) Can you sing: I think I sort of can. A lot of people say that I can’t but I don’t care cause I will sing anyways.
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: No, I like me even though I do envy some people for aspects of their lives.
(49) Are you a loner? I hope not, I have friends.
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Of course. Why wouldn’t I be. I like to have fun, go out, and I’m a pretty good student and I have a nice family and cool friends. ;)
(52) Are you a daredevil?: For some things. I wish I had more opportunities to be.
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: That I say to much and it will kick me in the ass when it’s important. Oh and that I’m not in shape… but I’m trying to work on that!
(54) Are you passive or aggressive? Don’t know. I think it depends on the situation but I’m pretty out there so probably more aggressive.
(55) Have you got a ?: I don’t know if this is a question… Have I got a problem, yes I suck at ENGLISH.
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? Strength – hmm I dunno, can’t think of one. Maybe standing my ground on a situation, being me. Weakness – not telling people how I feel and what’s going on when they need to know and I need to tell them.
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself? I would go with the flow more and stop worrying about what is going to happen.
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: Probably love because it can get you through a lot in life!
(59) How do you vent?: Hmm well writing in my blog, which now everyone can see, of telling Alison or Leanne or Dani how I truly feel about a situation.
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: Ya pretty strong. I don’t get upset that often. I’m pretty good at brushing stuff off.
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: Who doesn’t regret something, but I mean what is life living with regrets so I usually deal with it. I guess I wish more that I would stand up for myself and be stronger in approaching people.
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: Yeah, it’s been alright. Can’t really complain. I have a good life compared to a lot of people and I HAVE A LIFE, which is enough in itself.
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Sometimes people may not like you for whatever reason, it doesn’t mean you are a bad person or there is something wrong with you.
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: Not a whole lot really. I guess I have a pretty nice ass, lol, and hair!
(65) And least?: stomach, legs.
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: I’m not ugly, let’s put it that way.
(67) Are you confident?: Depends on the situation but I try to be.
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: Hmm I don’t really know. Maybe Sydney off of Alias because she is independent, does her job, has fun and she will do what she can for the people she cares about and that care for her.
(69) Do people know how you feel?: Only the dearest to me and the people that know how to help me with my feelings.
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: Sometimes. I think most of the time what you see is what you get but I have my secrets that make me a little less innocent then you may think!

DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: Nope, can’t stand the smell!
(72) Do drugs?: Nope
(73) Read the newspaper?: No usually.
(74) Pray?: Sometimes
(75) Go to church?: Not as much as I should.
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: Yes, until I find out they are creepy or I just don’t care about them because I don’t know them.
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: Yes! My cow that I got from Kristin and Leanne. Guss. He is the bestest.
(78) Take walks in the rain?: Sometimes. I love the smell and it is a very refreshing feeling.
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: Um, sometimes I guess. I don’t hate very many people and I try to be kind to all.
(80) Drive?: Sure do, well not as much as I used to and I miss it very much!
(81) Like to drive fast?: Sure do. More at night though, because it’s more thrilling and there is less chances of getting caught!

HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: Yeah, it is part of who I am and I talk a lot so I must like to hear myself.
(83) Hurt yourself?: Not Physically, but I have done stupid crap that has kicked me in the ass
(84) Been out of the country?: Only to the states.
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: Hmm the only thing I can think of is liverwurst. :p
(86) Burped?: What Um ya I do that a lot, especially when I have pop!
(87) Been unfaithful?: No one to be unfaithful too…
(88) Been in love?: Nope
(89) Done drugs?: Nope!
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: Well there was this one time…
(92) Had a surgery?: Yeah sort of when I was little.
(93) Ran away from home?: Don’t think so. I do that now when my family is driving me nuts
(94) Played strip poker: Can’t say that I have done that yet.
(95) Gotten beaten up?: Nope, well my auntie Suzy took me down once but we were seeing who was stronger, I wasn’t really beaten.
(97) Been picked on?: The story of my life!
(98) Been on stage?: Hmm yep for choir and band and dance!
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: No I can’t say that specific situation has happened. Although I have been severely drunk many times.
(100) Slept outdoors?: I camp all the time. Good times.
(101) Thought about suicide?: Here and there. Nothing serious though.
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: Well sort of, till like 5:30 but then I went to sleep for like and hour or 2 so I don’t know if that counts.
(103) If yes, what is your record?: Probably no more than a day (24 hours) I don’t function well without any sleep.
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: Nope
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: Only like once or twice, totally harmless
(107) Slept all day?: No I can’t do that. I slept till 1 in the afternoon once and I was like OMG THAT’S NUTS!!
(108) Killed someone?: Can’t say that I have.
(109) Made out with a stranger?: Sure have! Lol. Wow.
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: Nope
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: I am crazy!
(112) Kissed the same sex?: Oh probably, I am loving and have loving friends. haha.
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex? Nope.
(114) Been betrayed? Who hasn’t… really. Nothing to serious though that has made me want to take my life or something.
(115) Had a dream that came true? Hmm I dunno, possibly. I don’t remember my dreams very often. And if you mean day dreams, then no.
(116) Broken the law? Well I have sped before, drank under age. So ya I guess I have.
(117) Met a famous person? Nope
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident? Not that I know of
Once again where did all the number go??
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: Nope
(148) Been in a mosh-pit? No
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: That’s a common occurrence for me.
(150) Considered religious vocation? No, that’s to much dedication and not enough fun.
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance? No because I haven’t had sexual relations with people.
(152) Bungee jumped?: I want to.
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yes when I was little it was at the wave pool and my cousin Robert got eaten by a killer whale. It was a bad dream.

CLOTHES and other fashion
(154) Shoe brand? Hmm my favorites are probably Vans
(155) Brand of clothing?: I love Stitches clothing.
(156) Brand of perfume? Very Irresistible by Givenchy.
(157) Brand of cologne?: Don’t know. Axe is alright. I know a lot of people that wear that. And old spice I guess.
(158) What are you normally wearing to school/work? Jeans/Pants, and a t-shirt of some sort.
(160) Wear hats? Yes, in the summer all the time.
(161) Wear make-up? More than I used to.
(162) Favorite place to shop?: Hmm Stitches and La Senza!
(163) Favorite article of clothing? I have a lot. Probably my black t-shirt with the water angel on it. :D
(164) Are you trendy?: Sometimes.
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: Sometimes it would make the whole process of picking and outfit easier…

BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets? I dunno, it’s a possibility if we are here right??
(167) Miracles? Yes.
(168) Astrology? Sometimes
(169) Magic? No :D
(170) God?: Yes
(171) Satan? No, because people do things according to life experiences and teachings and we can’t really judge anyone for what they do and send them to hell because we think what they did is inexcusable.
(172) Santa? Nope.
(173) Ghosts? Not really, but Leanne sure does!
(174) Luck?: I don’t know if it’s luck or just an unexpected circumstance.
(175) Love at first sight? No, You have to get to know people.
(176) Yin and Yang? Yes because everything that is important in life has a counter, some sort of opposite that balances life out!
(178) Easter bunny?: Once again, no.
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? I think so. If you have the love and passion there shouldn’t be a problem and some people seem to do it.
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? Nope.
(181) Do you wish on stars?: Why the hell not, it feels good to know you have a secret and they is something that you would do anything to get!

LOVE, and all that
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: No I just wished that I saw more of it.
(183) Do you remember your first love?: Can’t say that I have had one yet :P
(184) Still love him/her?: Look above.
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: How is something that makes all human beings happy a mistake??
(186) What do you find romantic? Those random situations that seem harmless and meaningless but change things and make you see how much you really cherish a person.
(187) Turn-on?: Personality. Humor is HUGE for me. Oh and they have to be taller and decent looking too. Lol.
(188) Turn-off? Assholes and people who aren’t direct. Cocky people!
(189) Do you base your judgment on looks alone? No. Cause there are have been many people I’m not sure about and then I end up caring for them very much.
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: I would be like wow, someone likes me, and I would feel bad for not liking them back
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: Well I have never done either so I couldn’t tell you.
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: Yes. But after reading “He’s just not that into”, I have seen that it just won’t ever be like that. It will always be weird.
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? Sure I guess, but when I become romantically attracted to someone I usually find qualities I like and it just doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks!
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? Well I can’ be that good looking because I have had very few situations where it has shown to be true.
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: That they are strong, and having a hug from them makes you feel good and they take care of you and buy you drinks when they matter.
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? They can be very frustrating and hard to understand, and jerks and you know you need them even though sometimes you don’t want them!
(207) What's the last present someone gave you? Hmm, I dunno, Christmas, CD I guess.
(208) Are you in love?: Nope.
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot? Don’t have a significant other.
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk? Hmm look at them and wonder what it would be like to have someone like them….

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: Couldn’t tell you.
(212) You wanted to kill?: Can’t say that I have ever wanted to kill anybody. I may get frustrated but not to the extent of wanting to kill.
(213) That you laughed at?: Hmm um myself because I fell out of my chair the other night. It was so quick and so unexpected. Leanne thought it was pretty funny.
(214) That laughed at you?: I guess Leanne in that same situation. Or maybe from last night when I went psycho.
(215) That turned you on?: Hmm well I guess Jeff.
(216) You went shopping with? Just went shopping with Nicole like and hour ago, not even.
(217) That broke your heart? Well my heart hasn’t ever really been broken. I guess Jeremy if that counts.
(218) To disappoint you? Hmm Jeff.
(219) To make you cry?: I totally don’t remember when I cried last, hmmm, the other night when I was feeling depressed and alone I think I might have cried.
(221) To brighten up your day?: Hmm Mickey I guess because he helped me fix my computer and get the sound back!
(222) That you thought about?: Um, I dunno. Shawn I guess cause me and Nicole we talking about him coming to my b-day party at cook.
(223) You saw a movie with?: Jeff, Marlanea, Dyln, and Sarah.
(224) You talked to on the phone? Umm Nicole right before she came to pick me up.
(225) You talked to through IM? Hmm don’t remember….Last night, maybe Jeff or Stef.
(226) You saw?: Chris, he needed to use some hand lotion.
(227) You lost?: By death would be Glen I guess, that I don’t talk to anymore… like everyone from high school.
(229) You thought was completely insane? Umm probably myself or Alison, lol.
(230) You wanted to be?: I don’t want to be anybody, umm, Leanne maybe or do you mean super star cause then Jennifer Garner.
(231) You told off?: I don’t usually tell people of, but my last spat or argument was probably with Leanne.
(232) You trusted?: I trust all my girls.
(233) You turned down? Hmm Marco when I was home I guess.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: When Nicole was telling me her random stories today.
(235) Laughed? Last night I was pretty giggly for awhile.
(236) Cried?: I believe I answered this already but last week I guess.
(237) Bought something? Today I just bought some face cream and wash and shampoo and conditioner.
(238) Danced? That would be the last time I went to the bar which was when I was at home I believe so at Tantra.
(239) Were sarcastic?: Don’t know I’m not very sarcastic. Maybe when I was like “that’s interesting” when I was talking with Nicole.
(240) Hugged someone?: Hmm I guess I hugged Dani last night.
(241) Talked to an ex?: Well since I only have one ex if you can even call him that I would have to say like 4 years ago.
(242) Watched your fave movie? Umm I have a lot of favorite movies, um when I was home at Christmas I guess. Varsity Blues, or Top Gun.
(243) Had a nightmare? A couple nights ago I dreamt that some asshole called me fat.
(245) Talked on the phone?: Today.
(246) Listened to the radio?: Earlier today.
(247) Watched TV?: Hmm that would be last Thursday when I watched CSI.
(248) Went out?: Well Saturday I went to that movie and the mall. A date, never. Lol.
(249) Helped someone?: Um I think…I dunno, maybe Leanne with Chem.
(250) Were mean? I’m not a mean person so this is not a very common occurrence. I really don’t know when I was truly mean last.
(251) Sang?: Earlier today in the car!
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: I saw Hitch on Saturday.
(253) Said "I love you"?: Um to my parents the other day I guess.
(254) Missed someone? Umm I guess I miss my family everyday.
(255) Fought with a family member?: Oh god. When I was home for reading break I guess, and I don’t think it was even a real fight.
(256) Fought with a friend? Oh I think I argued with Leanne the other day.
(257) Had a serious conversation? Hmm, a real serious conversation. Um with Dani yesterday I guess if you can call it serious.
(258) Got drunk? I don’t know. I was pretty drunk Saturday but I think it was stupidity as well and just having fun.
(259) Had sex? Never, there you go, it’s out. Now you know. Haha.

Who's the IDIOT now???? ME!!!

Omg, I didn't think I could be anymore blonde or stupid then I already am but I guess I was wrong. I realized today that I guess when I made this blog I decided to put a link on my Nexopia page which I seemed to forget about and then I was thinking only a few people were privileged to I guess quite a bit of personal thoughts. Well once again I was wrong. Everyone that looked at my page and any one of my friends could have read the information and in fact could be reading this right now. So if I said anything bad or mean about you without realizing it I just want you to know it was simply a moment and this is a way for me to vent and I don't want you to be mad and angry at me for the way I felt at the time. I am sorry if I hurt anyone's feelings of changed the way you look at me. I want to be your friend and that is all I have to say. Hopefully no one thinks I am a crazy nutcase!! Even though sometimes I think that I am. So for everyone reading this I hope you enjoyed my random and stupid blogs!! Idiot, idiot, idiot.... wow, still can't imagine, stupid, stupid, idiot! Oh and if you are a girl and have been shot down or you think are getting mixed messages from a guy read the book "He's just not that into you". It clears all your confusions up within the first 10 pages pretty much. Good luck!

FUCK BOYS...AAAHHHHHHHHHH

AAAASSSSSSSSSSHHHOOOOLLLEEEEEEEE!!! Omg! I hate boys. That's it. I'm done. Finished. I no longer like boys. I am going to be single and alone forever. You would never guess what happened..... stupid ass fucking hoe of an ex-girlfriend Jen decided to speak up and say that she misses him. And Jeff apparently is still madly in love with her or so it seems so now he is all happy and has decided to drink and celebrate. I say FUCK HIM. Omg he couldn't get over her. And if it didn't work the first time what makes him think that it's goin to work again. Grrr. My happy mood of having my sound back and no viruses was quickly shot down. Whatever. I'm done being mad now. I just had to get that off my chest. Jeff was disinvited to my b-day but now he is reinvited because I said that if he doesn't like me that's ok I will still be his friend. But I'm not saying that I necessarily don't like him anymore I have just accepted my fate. And that is my story of the night. The End!

stupid computers along with many other things!!

So guess what I have been doing for the last like hmm 2 hours at least. Talking on the phone and running anti-virus stuff to try and get rid of the crap I picked up yesterday. It fucked with my computer quite nicely. It better start to work soon. My internet is being retarded so I am using Leanne's. Thank god for that. I would be quite bored right now if I didn't have it. But anyways, my stories of this lovely weekend. It was a good time I must say. Oh but first I must mention my week (well last week). It was ok I guess. Not really actually. I am sure I failed my organic Chem. midterm and then I went and barely got my lab to work and managed to break a graduated cylinder of all things. Stupid piece of crap. Now I owe them like $20 which sucks cause I could spend that on booze but noooo I have to pay for replacements. With all the money I put into that university you think they could push over a few bucks so that we didn't have to pay more for that stuff. I mean it's not like THAT MUCH gets broken. But whatever, this university is bad for sucking money out of it's poor lifeless students. So ya that's that story. Friday night I did nothing. I was quite bored. Leanne went to her dad's so all I did was watch Bad Boys 2 and talk with Chris and Alison a bit. Nothing special. She finally came back and then I was getting ready for bed around midnight. She didn't want me to go to sleep but it's not like it mattered cause she was ditching me to go to her cousins anyways. LOL. It's all good. So I got a lot of sleep. It was nice Saturday cause I sat around in my PJ's for awhile and chilled and then I was going to start to paint my nails when Jeff started to talk to me. As I stated before I refused to talk to him first that day and he still talked to me and I ended up going to the mall with him and some people from his floor and Alison came with me to keep me company. When we were ready to leave he's like I'll meet you downstairs, hurry! I was like he forgets I live on the main floor. I don't have that far to go, but we went anyways. So we were down there waiting and they finally show up. He's like holy crap what did you run. I was like NO! I'm not that desperate. And then he made some comment about me being sure or something. I didn't respond. But ya, at the mall we walked a little bit with them and then Alison wanted to go and look at the shoe store to see if they had her shoes, and they did! Yay! But they came in and we decided to meet up later before the movie. So me and Alison shopped and had a great time and she bought a bunch of stuff and I bought one shirt from Garage that was cheap and it's cute. After that I had some fries and then we met up with the other guys. Alison left me to come back to Lister and then I went and saw the movie with them. We saw Hitch. It was so funny and really cute. I liked it anyways. I got to sit next to Jeff which was expected considering I was kind of his guest. I might have been angry if I didn't. So, we watched the movie and he shared his popcorn which was nice. Then we caught the bus back here and I went my separate way when we got back to Lister. I started drinking and so was he and later on he messaged me and I went up there to visit and watch Aladdin. Alison came up too but left after awhile which was ok because I was having fun and I'm sure it wasn't that interesting for her. The movie was good, I haven't watched it in forever. :) I was kind of cuddling with Jeff for most of it too which was nice. After the movie we watched much music and we were playing with our cell phones and such. He changed my banner to Loser, meany. LOL. Then I was cuddling his little pug stuffed animal named Odg who I names Odg Podge. haha. He took him back and we were play fighting and when I grabbed him back I ended up ripping him at the seems by his butt. I felt so bad. But I was up there for a few hours until like 2:00 and then it was time for me to leave and for Jeff to go to bed. When I went to get on the elevator he made me give him a hug, which was good. Made me happy anyways. And then he goes and acts kind of strange on me last night. I mean he said he was tired and in a bad mood but it still felt weird even though it had nothing to do with me. I went up there to sew his dog cause I said I would and I still felt bad. So I fixed it and then I gave it back and then I left. No hug or anything, kinda made me sad. But that's the basic gist of my story. He was good today when I went to visit him in the cafe and say hi, and I was having fun talking to him on msn. So I don't know what to think. I invited him to my b-day party and if he comes I think I might tell him then that I like him and if he doesn't like me back then that's ok. I will just be his friend, if he's ok with that. I guess we have to wait and see. And speaking of cafeteria food. It just about made me hurl tonight. I still kind of feel like crap, and it gave me gas. I hate burping up gross food. Not that you even needed to know that. Lol. Sorry guys. So now I sit here waiting for my computer to finish so maybe it will be fixed and I might try and do some homework now while I wait instead of procrastinating. So I hope you all have a good night and that you enjoyed my random blog! Oh and in case you didn't figure it out the other stupid thing is boys, I just don't understand them. Jeff is sending me mixed messages. If only I could read minds!

Haha, who won now! LOL

I kinda feel like Leanne right now. I refused to say hi to Jeff today because he never says hi to me first and I am not doing it anymore. I'm like maybe he doesn't want to talk. While I won. lol. He started talking to me and asked if I wanted to go to west Edmonton Mall him him and some people from his floor. So me and Alison are going. Yay. lol. Anyways, that is my litte story for now. I will elaborate later. Plus I have so much to say about the rest of this week anyways! Chow

my horoscopre doesn't lie....sometimes

Here's a day off from all that emotional nonsense you were dealing with yesterday... and it will be more than welcome. While you're enjoying it, however, don't forget that some types of emotions are always appreciated. Passion, for example...
Lets hope that that's the case. I am in a much better mood then I was last night. Not so depressed and confused. But anyways, I went to talk to my English prof. this morning and I have extra assignments to do and I am supposed to ask questions and go and see her. Waste of time I tell you. It won't change. But whatever appeases her. Lol. Going to the chiro this afternoon which makes me happy, cause my back hurts and it always feels cool after. Other then that I have studying to do because I have my Organic Chem. midterm tomorrow which I need to study for!! Chow for now.

Feeling alone....

Just to start off I want to let you guys know I just need to vent my feelings, you have nothing to worry about. :) I just feel a little empty right now. I know it's strange because I have you all here for me.... Yet it doesn't seem to matter. I sit here at my desk staring at the screen and wonder...What am I doing. What is my point in life. Who am I living for. I have friends but what does that matter if I have no direction or goal. Maybe I am just depressed because I have recently began PMSing and I have seen very little of m y best friend and the guy I like seems to be ignoring me more or is less interested then I previously thought. Sometimes I wish things didn't change so people wouldn't change. Anyways, I think the whole thing with Jeff is bothering me more then I should. I mean I shouldn't have got my hopes up in the first place, I always get shot down anyways. Why try? But then I have nothing to look forward to either. And if it were only as simple to forget someone as it sounds, but no that's difficult too, which only frustrates me. Grrrr. And then there is the whole issue of school. I don't know what I want to do, I haven't known all year. I am taking school and classes with no goal, no end. So of course I think what's the point of trying if it doesn't matter cause I don't know what I am going to do with all of it anyways. Knowing me I will go in a totally different direction and everything I have done this year will be pointless. No direction, no direction. I feel like I'm spinning in circles always finding myself back where I was before. In a bad situation when it didn't have to be like that and looking at life with no understanding. I could have done homework tonight, but I didn't cause I didn't want to and I don't care. Which really isn't a good thing since I have spent a lot of money on these classes only to brush them off as insignificant. I'm not sure what else to do though. So frustrated. I really feel like crying right now. Maybe the would actually make me feel better. Not that it solves any of my problems. Oh and another thing. I got my English essay back the other day. The one I thought I did better on and that I spent more time on. Well apparently that didn't help. I still managed to get a lower mark then my first essay even though I didn't fail, although I might as well have. This sucks. And you wanna know why. The one class I hate and I am somewhat trying to do good enough in to pass is giving me a swift kick in the pants and I am going to have to take it AGAIN. I don't know if I can endure another year of that crap. I might actually kill myself. I don't like grammar and I could care less about diction and I am sure you can tell with my writing styles. She is trying to teach us but I don't understand and not amount of teaching will change that. I didn't get it in elementary what makes her think I will figure it out now. And even if I do, I'm not going to be thinking of what the direct object and subject of every sentence that I write is going to be. I just write and it's good enough for me and for my scientific writings. I can do that. That should be all I need. But no they have to force this bullshit on me and say I have the intelligence of a fucking 3 year old. You know what fuck you. Not everyone understands the Canterbury Tales and can write perfect grammatical sentences. That's your thing, science is mine. FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! I want to smash something. I have angry energy. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's a little better. I need some sort of motivation. Some reason not to drop out of school, and become homosexual because guys are assholes. Right now I wish I was at home sitting on my couch becoming an even fatter couch potato cause I seem to be pretty good at that. My birthday is coming. It is the one day I have to look forward too that I have an excuse to get extremely hammered and I don't have to worry about anyone else. I can do what I want, when I want and that's what I am going to do. And it won't matter that I have very little friends because I will be so drunk I probably won't remember the night anyways! And where is Leanne? This is 2 nights in a row she has decided to vacate on me until the wee hours of the night. I don't know what she is even doing tonight. Ok I am going to shut up now before I really say something that I will regret and will fuck me over even more than I already am. Have a good night all, or better then mine anyways!