Naive

An I really that Naive? Have I just noticed not that it has been like this for a very long time? Do I believe in people and friendship and relationships when it's all in my imagination. I think part of it is I get along with people so quickly I just assume they will be my friends because I feel like that but I guess not everyone is like that right. I somehow believe that after meeting people once or twice that they should respond to messages or want to hang out. Apparently I was wrong. I have no idea how I have been so delusional. Like my sister says she trusts no one and I seem to trust everyone. Which I think is going to bite me in the ass.

The point is. I need to meet some people here and make my own friends and try and form a bond with random people on my own. Give it time to grow I guess. Not everything happens overnight except for maybe in my head. I just can't stand being so lonely and it feels like I am stuck in my own apartment because I have no one to see and no place to go because I am all by myself. I'd love to go dancing at the bar, but Ash is really busy and going by myself is probably not safe. But I am pretty sure I am going to a movie by myself tomorrow. I really want to see it and I invited some people to go but no one seems to into it. Maybe they aren't movie people here, I dunno. I have to remember I'm in a different city/ province here. Things are done differently in some places right??

Hell all I know right now is that I am lonely and right now there is no one here I can turn to, to fill the void. It's almost worth it to drive to Edmonton and take Kyle up on his offer hey Leanne? lol. I wouldn't do that but you know. I miss you guys more and more all the time. I am trying to make a sort of life for myself here though. I need to make it work. I'm going to be here for awhile so I have to make it work. I'm getting a job and I need to concentrate on getting my school shit straightened out and maybe other things will fall into place....

Love you girls!

Catch up time!

So there is no way I can really type out my adventures. This blog would be unbearably long. This is something that needs to be told in person. Haha. My cruise was awesome. Saw some amazing stuff in 4 different countries. I had a lot of fun but at the same time by the end I was ready to come home. I think it would be a lot different to do a trip like that, or a European trip with friends or by yourself. Do what you want to do. You know. It was crazy over there. Italian drivers are nuts. They will even tell you that they are crazy drivers. But they are good crazy drivers. As I told my dad it's basically a form of organized chaos. It was a a new experience that's for sure. Nothing like I have ever done before. And again it was amazing. We have NO HISTORY compared to these people. It is insane. They are very devout too. Churches absolutely everywhere. I have never seen so many churches in all of my life. This was mostly in Italy of course. It wasn't as much in the other places we visited. Man I am sure I have a million random little stories! This would be something really cool for us girls to see together! European trip in a few years anyone??? Once we get some money in our pocket!

The getting home and packing up and moving part kinda sucked. It all went so fast I felt like I had no time to prepare. It's weird though because it all went so quick I already feel at home here in our little apartment. We are settled in. The only boxes left have movies in them because we didn't have room for the self we were planning to put them on. But in a months time that should all be fixed too. I've already been out a couple of times. Meeting a few new people, getting to know some other people a little better. It's alright so far. Although at times I do wish you guys were here to party with me. It's always a good time when your around! Plus I still love Cook. haha.

But as they say in Meet the Robinsons "keep moving forward!" So I guess I just gotta keep truckin' along and hope that it all works out in the end. And maybe I'll fins a boy in the process too! lol. Love you girls!