Starting to Stress (like SOS except STS)

Save me from drowning into craziness! As of tonight I have 2 weeks until I leave on my cruise. And it has hit me how much I have to do. I still have to pack for the cruise. Pack the rest of my shit for moving. Hope that we get a trailer so we can pack it up before we go so we aren't doing it the night before we move to Saskatoon while jet legged. Fuck!!! And we still have to get a few things for our place. And I am stressing because we only have like a day and a half to unpack in Sask before orientation and school starts. I don't know how much I will be able to party that first week because I have a feeling I'm going to be right beat! And although I could probably use this weekend at home I want to go camping to enjoy the outdoors, get some rays before the trip, and maybe get in a ski since I haven't gone all summer and I'm feeling deprived (and I have to try and not hurt myself because I need to be able to walk for the cruise). Just plain craziness I tell you. I'm not even sure what to worry about first. And of course I still have one more shift at LNT and they tried to get me to work Saturday even though I quit so I would be done Thursday. Sorry guys but I just don't have the time, and I don't want to. Oh and half the time at the airport I don't have much to do but oh no I only have 2 weeks left of work and all the sudden bam bam Kim can you do this, Kim can you do that. No not really because I have to do this. Everyone has something for me to do all of the sudden. I have to fill this awards case for my dad who is overseeing this because no one else wants to but everyone wants it done. I have to clean out these stupid rooms for Bruce so that they can get them cleaned out so this guy can come in and rip up some espestice tile. And I don't even know what else. BBAAAAHHHHH. So this is my mini freak out. Life will go on.

OMG

Living with my sister may be more stressful then I thought. I really hope we don't want to kill each other and then it will work out all ok. I think it will just some days she REALLY GETS TO ME and I just want to ape shit on her ass. lol. or walk out and not do anything and see what happens. I dunno. It just seems like I shouldn't bother trying to do anything because I'll just fuck it up. And really being the oldest child really blows most of the time. I hate having that f'ing responsibility! It's not fair that so much more is expected of me just because I am one measly little year older. BAH! I swear to god if everything is left for me to do, I may strangle her in her sleep. Well at least I know more people is Saskatoon then I do hear and they are all very close and the university is close so I have a place to escape if I can't take it. I know Ashley will let me crash if I need to, she's awesome like that. There are always options. Sometimes living at home, out here, I feel so incredibly trapped its unbelievable. And the second I want to go out for a walk I get eaten alive by mosquito's so that's not even really an option unless I want to be itchy and pissed off. NO WHERE TO GO!

Coming Together

Well it finally seems like some things are coming together and not everything is so crazy and it will all be over soon. I think we are pretty much ready for the trip. A few more things to buy. I can tell you right now that will change the week before when we are trying to pack. I'm sure I will be stressing then. Not only will I be packing for my trip but I will be packing to move too. We found a place, an apartment. It's pretty nice, but we don't get it until Sept. 1st. We were hoping for Aug. 1st so we could move in before the cruise but it doesn't look like that is going to happen. So we are going to pack all of out stuff into my uncles stock trailer and then when we get home on the 31st everything will be ready to go for when we leave on the 1st. By the time we get there we will have about a day and a half before orientation starts and then 2 days after that classes start. It's going to be like "wam bam thank you mame!" Crazyness. But we leave in like 35 days for the cruise! Yay. I cannot wait to be done working. For awhile anyways. I am planning on getting a job in Saskatoon. Not sure doing what yet. I got all my classes registered too. So I am pretty much set. A little more relaxed. Still so much to do though. Hopefully I don't have a mental break down anytime in the near future!

interesting weekend; lame Canada Day

So there was some good and some bad to this weekend. Thursday night I went to my cousin Kaity's high school grad. That was actually a lot of fun. Nothing like my grade. But I mean really there was 60 of them and 600 of us! Big difference. I went out with my cousin Jason to the town bar after. It was actually a pretty good time. A bunch of the grad's were there, and other people. I didn't have to buy myself one drink. That was nice for once. Doesn't ever happen to me you know. Only with family around! lol. It was fun though. Nice to spend some time away from home and with some different people and a different atmosphere. I crashed over night because it was late. I was going to drive into Calgary to work but decided against that and stayed and slept in instead. I needed the sleep. And Auntie Suzy made me breakfast. :) Then I drove home and had like an hour at home and we left for Saskatoon.

I slept half the way. Yay for road trips. 6 hours.... I tried watching a movie on my lap top but something was wrong with it. We get there, check in and then go over to Matt's for the kegger he was having. Kelsey stayed for a bit, actually ran into a girl she used to work with at Montana's here in Calgary. Kind of funny actually. Talk about small world. Anyways, I drank, but not excessively. We danced and chilled, there was a fire too. People started to go home after awhile. Most people had gone home by 3 am. lol. Ash showed up after work close to 4.... We ate some pizza. Played some Mario Kart. She left and I crashed on Matt's couch at about 5. Mom calls somewhere around 8:30 to tell me Dad is coming because we wanted an early start looking for a place to live. Surprisingly I wasn't hung over or overly tired. All about the adrenaline! I saw Matt, it being his party and all but he was busy, and drunk and his usual friendly self so I don't know what's happening with that kid. I just thought I would update you but I'm not worrying about it. Actually I had quite a bit of fun Friday with other people that I wasn't even thinking about/ my attention wasn't drawn to him unless he was in the room or close to me. I actually feel really chill about the situation. It doesn't bother me at all which is nice for once. It feels different then it did with Jaan. In a good way though.

Have you guys missed my randomness?? lol

Continuing on. We spent a great majority of Saturday calling people and looking for a place. We had been calling like 2 weeks before too. Either places were already rented or people weren't calling us back or whatever. Anyways we only ended up looking at 2 places and we decided on the first place. The second place had TINY bedrooms. One was like the size of a king bed, the bedroom. Clearly to small. So the other place it was. It's called Duchess Estates. There are like 6 building or something. Each has 4 floors. We are in building B. Top floor on the end. It should be alright. It's a decent size and rent isn't too bad. We have to pay electric and cable/internet. But whatever. It's about a 12 minute walk from the University so it will be close and save me on gas! No parties at our place though. There is pretty much a no noise policy at any hour because there is a hospital near by and there are people sleeping at all times because of shift work and such. But I'm ok with that. I'll just have to go out to party or to someone elses place! lol. The only bad thing is we were hoping to move in Aug. 1st but this place we don't get until Sept. 1st. So we will be rushing to unpack and get ready for school after we get back from the cruise. It will be one insane week!

That was the excitement of my weekend. We stayed in Saskatoon Saturday night and then drove to Regina to see my grandpa early Sunday. Stayed with him all day until about 8pm. Then went to our hotel. I wanted to see the fireworks but no one really cared so we missed them. Talk about a lame July 1. Sunday we visited for a bit longer and then drove home. 8 hours.... Sitting that long is hard on the ass. Went to Baba's for dinner. Picked up the dog and stayed for a bit and then went home. One LOOOOONG weekend alright. Like I said good but lame too. So much driving. The only good thing is I caught up on a little sleep on those long road trips.

This week and next are only going to drain me more. Crazyness at work because of Stampede and then you gotta go out once or twice for stampede too! Going to see Reba in concert. Pretty excited about that. Keep trucking along and eventually I will have my vacation and free time, and then WAM BAM back in school! Oh well. Better than working. That is all for now. Night Ladies!