200th BLOG!!!!

Surprisingly for the amount I blab and how often I post I really thought I would be way past that by now. Guess not. And the stupid thing is the last like 50 blogs (not actually counting) have been about being here, boys, Jaan in particular. And why should this one be any different. That is all my life seems to revolve around lately. Really I think that's all I have to blog about, there is more to my life, just not as interesting. Plus my blog in a way is sort of like a diary, even though diaries are usually private. But only people I would tell this stuff too know about my blog anyways. Blogging gets everything out on the page for me to think about. I mean I don't even expect you guys to care about most of it anymore. Because you have heard most of it before and I know it can get tedious. But what can I say, I can't seem to help it.

Now on to the actual blog. Today was interesting but also frustrating. I just wish I knew where Jaan was coming from. He makes no sense. Guys are confusing. And I am pretty sure I am getting mixed signals. Up, down, up, down. I see him today, he sits down next me to on the bench. We are randomly talking about not much. He takes out this phone and it like check out this text message I sent Teri earlier. It said something like "Salutation exclamation noun verb question mark." I was ok... Not really understanding. Then hes like it means like "Hey! How are you?" or something like that. I was ok I get it. He thought it was clever. I was like if I got a text message like that I would be thinking what kind of drugs are you on. Now I don't know if the text message really matters... why would he mention Teri in particular unless it meant something?? Am I crazy? I want to ask him. But it would have had to have been done then. Anyhow more conversation and talking about people and whatnot. Then somehow we get into a conversation where he is showing off his muscles and it like you don't want to mess with this. SO SHOWING OFF!!! There is no way that can't be showing off. Totally looking for praise, right?? I was like oh yeah. Did you hit up the gym. He's like yeah I was just there. I try to go three times a week for at least 20 minutes you know cause every little bit matters. And last but not least there is that part I already told Leanne. It was me and him and another 4th year (a Chinese women who has kids and is older but is totally awesome) chatting about glass and courses and whatnot. We were talking about the courses I would take next year if I was going into glass. All that fun stuff. But then I mention that you know I don't know for sure yet if I am even going back there, and that I am terrible at making decisions. Then Jaan kindly pipes in well I'm not going to be here, with a smile. I looked at him and I am sooo glad that I was sitting forward because I turned away and I am pretty sure I was probably BRIGHT red. Totally embarrassing. Jung-Yee is like oh yeah you are going to be in Australia and he says hopefully. But I am pretty sure that wasn't the point he was getting at. He was totally looking for me to be embarrassed, am I right?? Then he's like I should go blow some glass and he disappears into the hot shop. OK.

Continuing on in my day. I went back to drawing for like 45 minutes then I went back down to glass cause Tyler (one of the teachers) was doing a demo. I ended up staying cause I wanted to see and Jung-Yee is like we need an audience, cause they were filming for it. So I stayed of course (causing me to miss the rest of my drawing class because I was gone for over an hour). I wish you could read people by their actions and facial expressions cause he was all smiles and was looking at me. We were randomly laughing and having a good old time. I might have bruised his ego a little bit though. When the piece was almost done it was pretty big. Anyways, he is always so dynamic and was like "It's a BIG ONE!!" I don't know why but I responded with "Thanks for stating the obvious tips." Kinda funny. But I think he took it a little seriously cause he was quiet for a bit. Hahaha. Leave it to me when I like a guy to not be able to flirt with him and go with his cockiness and be like wow your arms are really big and grab them like some girls might do, but bash him when he makes a comment all in fun. I don't make sense either. PEOPLE DO NOT MAKE SENSE.

At this rate clearly I am thinking nothing is going to happen. Well I had a dream the other day that was like the last day of school and I was like well I don't know if I will see you, so I hug Jaan (because I usually don't even though Dave gives hugs all the time) and then as I am backing away I'm like I wish you would have given me a chance, it could have been fun. And I walk away. What is with that. Me planning my pardons with the whole situation. I don't get him, I don't me, I don't get this situation. I just wish he would be less flirty with me since he said no to me. And the worst part is, I don't even know if he entirely realizes it because truthfully he is a flirty person in general, from what I gather. So maybe I am getting more out of it. Whatever is going on it's hard on a girls emotions. Now that Deanna knows about me liking him though it's a little easier cause I know I can talk to her. She is like yes he is cocky and I don't know what his deal it but keep your chin up. Seriously I could see her lasting as a good friend. She is a good replacement for you guys at school when I don't have you there for me all the time. I'm not sure what I would do without her. And she is the ONLY one from school who came to my b-day. That means something.

PS - I kinda wish I had never met Jaan's ex (if she still is...). I mean I met her, and I know she is really nice, and skinny, and blond, and pretty and I find myself wanting to know about her; I think because I am comparing myself to her. Which sucks. I wish I could take her out of the equation because it ruins everything. Haha. Obviously. Boys, good or bad??? I'm not so sure anymore. And then there is my horoscope today: "It sounds like a fairy tale, but the right person will come along when you need them. In the meantime, remember what's important to you. Upholding your standards will make the wait worthwhile." I sure hope so. Haha. Anyhow I think that is enough out of me for one reading/night. Peace out.

Sad :( Reality is setting in...

I was talking to Matt tonight (the guy I work with at the airport) and I had a realization. School is almost over. Like maybe a month, that's it. Most people want it to end and I sort of do, but after talking to him, I don't want it to end anymore. I realized I was sad that it's ending. You guys know how much I hate making decisions and the sooner school ends the sooner I have to make decisions about what I am doing for school next year. Like if I go back to U of A or stay here and if I stay here if I take glass of photo. This really sucks. Plus I have to make portfolios for these stupid applications. So much work. I am so screwed for the next month, truthfully.

And this weekend is gone because I am most likely driving up to Saskatoon to see Ash and party, which will be fun but won't help my situation any. I wish I had someone to come with me cause I am going to be driving for 6-7 hours by myself. :( The worst part about me driving by myself is, that is a lot of time to think. And lately me thinking just gets me upset about whatever is going on. So dumb really.

Anyhow, the other reason why I really don't want this semester to end is Jaan. I mean I know I have been saying it will be good cause I will be away from him and maybe I will meet someone else. But really I don't want to be away from him. I enjoy his company. And no matter how much I try to block it out I really do like the kid and I can't do anything about it. So much for controlling emotions... Impossible in this case. I swear he is on my mind like %75 of the day, when I am awake and I am pretty sure I dream about him too. Which is crazy but pretty human I think. I wish he could give me a chance, I can be a really good friend to have, right girls? :) And really he is too nice to me sometimes or flirty, like Friday which makes this even harder. And the whole thing with summer is no school no seeing Jaan every day. And I probably won't see him at all because we don't hang out outside of school. And even if I do stay at ACAD, he's done this year so I don't even have next year to look forward too. That's why I'm like would it be better for me in Edmonton because I would always be thinking that nothing could be better than this year, all because of him. EERRAAAGGGHHHHH.

It is so not fair that guys have this power over me, over women in general! I cannot be the only one going through this. Why can't I just meet someone who will like me back, for who I am?? I mean I know it isn't that big of a deal, and I'm sure I will meet someone sometime. But I really do want someone now. And it really is important to me. Maybe because I have had life plans that aren't going the way I planned or maybe I am just in some serious need of human contact. There are times when I could really use a guy, just like any other girl and I don't do a very good job of helping myself in that matter.

Brain mush!!! I have worked myself up and managed to confuse myself. Grrr. At least Matt is being sort of helpful. He is actually giving me relative pointers, which I was wasn't expecting. Confidence Kim, confidence. I can't wait for the day that I am truly happy with myself, my life and when it shows in my face and actions.

Peace out.

Don't Understand

I really don't get boys. At all. They make no sense and WE are the complicated ones. HA that is so bullshit. I think they have more issues. Anyways, last night was awesome for the most part but of course I have boy issues with Jaan as usual and other things.

So anyhow, when I got my mug last night and when I got my first beer Jaan was working the bar and he poured my beer and he was all smiles. He even blew me a kiss which was so random. I didn't even register it right away though cause I was asking him why he was wearing his sunglasses inside in the dark. Well he was and probably is still pretty sick and his eyes were like crazy bloodshot. Super red, so he was hiding them. Haha. I talked to him randomly a few other times. Then later, about 11:30 we were working together selling mugs. Randomly talking. And everyones likes your going into glass right and I'm like actually I still don't know. Then they of course ask what else I would do and I tell them I might go back to Edmonton. If I remember correctly or I guess if I heard him right Jaan said maybe that's what I should do. I don't know what that's supposed to mean if anything at all but he said it. Oh and he was also being a baby like boys are when they are sick and was complaining about his throat but he continued to drink. Haha.

Then later when everything was winding down I was sitting at a table randomly watching people dance. Well Jaan comes over and was like standing in front of me and he rests his head on my shoulder. And I kinda rested mine back. Then I think I mentioned something about going home cause my mom was coming to get me. And he's like you didn't drive? (Because I always drive). And I said yeah I did but my parents came to get my car earlier because I knew I wouldn't be able to drive home. And he's like yeah that's probably a good idea, I'm going home too. Then we helped clean a bunch of shit up before we left cause we were leaving before everything was done and I didn't want to leave the rest of the people with all the nasty mess.

I was chilling by the mug table for a bit after that just waiting for my mom. And I got talking to Katie, Deanna's friend about boys and stupidness. Then I admitted to liking Jaan. Deanna was of course listening and shes like "I KNEW IT!!!" haha. Then she mentioned she has a tiny crush on him too but she knows he would never like her like that. But yeah we were mostly talking about how it's hard to find guys because at ACAD they are either gay, or a lot of them are taken or they really aren't all that attractive. And neither of us really know anyone that can hook us up.

Anyways, the last random thing that happened with him was when he brought in a propane tank from the bbq's outside to put away. He was carrying it in and set it on the table. I asked him how full it was cause you can tell by the weight usually. I'm not really sure how we got to the next part but I consider this showing off. He's like I can probably tell how heavy this is in one curl (meaning one arm curl). So he lifts it like he is doing a bicep curl and he says its probably about 45 pounds. I of course was thinking who really cares so I just said oh yeah. Then he took it downstairs. My mom called and I left, not seeing him so I didn't say bye. I sent him a text message though and said later and I actually saw him walking to the train as we drove by. But he didn't text message me back. Sometimes he does, sometimes he doesn't. Anyhow, after I got home I sent him another one but this one was a little more random. I was referencing something that happened in first semester that he learned about me but he probably though I was crazy. I said something about no ripe bananas. Haha. He wouldn't have remembered so I'm not sure why I did it. He said he would see me monday.

Because of this crazy text message I sent Deanna a text message this morning and I'm like can you find out from Jaan in a roundabout way if he thinks I'm crazy cause I was sending drunk text messages. She just laughed and said she will see what she can do. So it should be interesting to see if she can find anything out.

Oh and on a totally separate note one other thing happened last night. A couple of these guys from SAIT were at mug night cause they live in rez and were there with a couple of people I know from school. Well I got talking to this guy and according to my friend Ivy he was kinda into me so she sent him over to chat. We chatted it up for awhile and I found out he is from a little town in BC, his name is Dave, he's 20. The basics. Anyhow, they did last call so I went out to buy a drink. He followed and offered to buy it. Of course of all the times. I was just like thanks but you really don't have to, I get it for free. Haha. He kinda seemed put down. Ivy came over after and apparently he was like I dunno, he felt a little shut down. I was like I dunno I need to talk to him more. So we exchanged emails and he added me to MSN. So I guess we will see what happens with that.

So yeah that was my night. It was pretty crazy. But fun. And there was no crying which is always a plus. I was hungover for a good deal of the day though. Haha. Oh well. I work with some cool people so it wasn't all that bad. Yay. Later guys.

Piercing

So I am going to get my belly pierced today. Should be interesting. I wonder if I'm gonna like it. I hope so. At least I can take it out if I don't. I kinda nervous/excited. I dunno. YAY PIERCING!! Haha. Oh and I had a massage this morning which was really needed. My muscles are crazy tight. And I was going to write something else but I seem to have forgotten what that was going to be. Oh well. Obviously not important.

OH oh! I remember. People seem to be noticing that I am in better shape now. I saw my chiro for the first time today in months and he is like you look different, have you lost weight. I haven't really lost that much but thats ok. :) Maybe he's on crack but it was nice of him to notice.

Terrible decision maker

So maybe you guys can help me out. The lady who does my schedule at work is stupid. I asked to work a later shift this Saturday because I knew I was going to be getting drunk and I usually work Saturdays. Well she didn't cook me saturday but Sunday instead. I didn't want to work sunday because I want to go snowboarding. The reason why she is dumb is because she has me written down for asking for the 22nd till the 25th off. I didn't ask for that. I look at the availability thing though and I think she read it wrong because those are the days I booked off in February. Making her dumb. Anyhow. Here is my dilemma. I can either get drunk Friday, have Saturday off and work Sunday and not go snowboarding OR I can see if this lady who works in my department will switch her Saturday shift with me causeing me to be at work for 11 am and probably hung over saturday so i can snowboard sunday. I think I like the latter better other than working hungover, but can still be managed unless I'm puking. So any thoughts??

Perfectly Normal

As Leanne predicted and I suspected myself even though I was super embarrassed Jaan acted like nothing happened today. He was perfectly cheery and social. As normal as can be with him. Although he was looking a little scruffy today. Hahaha. I notice everything. I am crazy. But that's ok, and perfectly normal when you like someone. ;) I should really do my drawing now, even though I hate it. I don't plan on taking any more drawing classes if at all avoidable. I'm not the person that just draws to draw. I don't. I mean I see people doodling in there sketchbooks and notebooks all the time at school which is thought to be normal there, but I don't, I never really have. I dunno it's one thing I don't usually find enjoyable. Can't be good at everything right! PS. I am pretty sure that I am going to get my belly pierced on Thursday. I really hope I like it. I'm kinda scared. But at least this I can take out if I don't like it. Personally I think it will give me even more motivation to work out and get into shape. Theories again. All theories. Anyhow I should get back to my drawing. Peace all.

I know, I know

So the reason for the title is because I know what you guys are going to say and you will probably shake your head at me. So read it with an open mind and know I know I'm crazy and accept it, cause it probably will never change. Haha.

So anyways, this is about my Friday night adventures at the Roadhouse and part of the craziness of why I was stupidly upset and why I will probably avoid school for a few days and why my msn name says I'm crazy. So I text messaged Jaan. This is where I start to dig my own birthday grave. I was drunken text messaging which is never a good thing but something that I frequently do. The hole gets deeper. I ask him if he is coming and he doesn't answer, surprise, surprise, causing disappointment and a deeper hole. Then I kind of get mad and send him a text message asking if he is scared of me now or what since he avoids me all the time and doesn't really talk to me. The whole gets bigger. WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING???? Hints the crazy Kim comment.

The plot thickens. Mwhahaha. Not really. Anyhow he decides to message me back this time and says, I quote "Yo kim u shouldnt take it so heavy, its al good." For YOU maybe, but apparently not for me, I was like grr you suck and I hate you for being so chill about everything. Getting deeper. Then I send him one back apologizing like I always do even though Leanne tells me to stop apologizing for things that I have no right to be sorry about. Because I really don't have to be sorry about wondering why he won't talk to me now. Anyways, I simply explain that I am drunk and crazy. And once again he says it's all good. Oh any casually wishes me a happy b-day, I forgot that part. THANKS FOR REMEMBERING! Grrr. This is even making me mad now. I am CRAZY. I'm sure he is going to think I am crazy and I am so mad at myself for drunken texting and angry at him for being a fucking jerk or a friend. And this is where the hole is dug, ready for me to jump into.

I wasn't have as much fun by this point and Kelsey wasn't either so we wanted to go home. Stef stayed cause she was with her work friends and making money, so whatever. Me and Kelsey catch a cab home. Which ended up costing like $40. A tank of gas in my car for like a week and a half. *Cringe* Oh well, the parents paid for it cause they didn't want to come get up. But on the cab ride home we were probably like half way and you know me I'm an emotional drunk and I think it hit be about how much Jaan really could care less about me and how much my friends at school aren't really my 'friends'. My sister held my hand and I cried. I missed you guys a lot at this point. But we got home and I wrote a blog and went on Facebook and then hit the sack. Oh me being the big baby and breaking down in the cab is me jumping in the hole by the way. Just to clarify. Thankfully I didn't do anything else stupid that would have metaphorically represented me being buried alive. Haha.

CRAZY!!

Too much alcohol

Well I was successfully drunk last night. About it being fun though, it was pretty mediocre. People just love to disappoint. Kels said that she would make my birthday great this year. And she really did try but somehow it turned out the same as always. I am no longer having birthday parties. 21 was the last. Dani I totally know what you mean about hating birthdays now. And I like presents too and I didn't even really get any of those. My sis got me something, and my godmother gave me money but that's it. My parents didn't even get me anything. I mean I know we are going on the cruise in August but she usually buys me a t-shirt or something anyways. I hate growing up. I would rather be naive of all the bad and hurt in the world. Go back to the simplicity of childhood. I love you guys! We will party next time I'm in Edmonton. Forget celebrating my birthday. We will celebrate our friendship. Hope you guys have an awesome weekend!!!

Disappointed again

I tried not to get my hopes up but shit always happens. I wish you guys could have been here. It would have made a difference. I should have just stayed home and drank with my sister in our hottub. It would have been just as fun if not more. I miss you guys. I try not to be dissappointed but somehow I am. My friends at school aren't my friends. They are people I go to school with. It's amazing. Why should I care, but I do. I cried on the way home in the cab. How ridiculous is that. I should have been having fun. But why would that happen. It's my b-day. Nothing ever goes right. Wanna be anywhere but here....

So, so

Today was an ok day. It wasn't bad but it wasn't awesome either. I had Art History this morning and I was pretty tired and my prof is really good at putting me to sleep. So that's what I did for a good chunk of the class. Haha. Oh well. Then Ii was down in glass visiting and I picked up my pieces from yesterday. They turned out not too bad. Then I went and worked on my photo project for this week which was actually pretty successful. So that's always good. Then I hung around in the library for like and hour and a half meaning to do my assignments but failed miserably. Haha. Oops! Then I went to get my tattoo touched up. Which was pretty quick. Then I was back at the glass shop, then I went home. So although my day was pretty activity filled it wasn't really all that exciting. I did watch Miami Ink for 2 hours tonight and it makes me want to get another tattoo even more. I'm hooked. But I still think I am getting my belly pierced. Probably next week. It's going to be crazy but I'm excited.

You know I am applying to the U of A and for photo at ACAD. But really, I think I really do want to major in glass. I mean I know it's kind of crazy and I have NO idea where I can go with that. But I love it, and that's important too. For now. I mean I could get a degree in it and then if I want to do something after, I will. I was talking to Deanna today and shes like by the time you graduate I should have enough money saved and stuff and we could open a shop together. I was like it could really happen. It's exciting to think about. I mean I know I need to think about it some more and it depends on what happens and stuff. But I may be staying here next year....

Awesome Day!!

Today was a good day. But first things first. Guys totally are the masters of witchcraft. Man they are just as bad if not worse than girls with messing with people. And they are the reason why we get so mad sometimes. I think that is the coolest shirt ever. Men are dumb. Haha. Oh and Leanne you should totally take the botany class on drug plants and inform us of everything you know! Haha. Could be interesting.

But anyhow my day today. This morning really wasn't all that exciting. I finished writing my paper and all that jazz. Then I went to school for English which was pretty crazy as usual but whatever. Then I went to work out at the SAIT gym. Which I have been doing for like 2 and some odd weeks now on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays and I feel a lot better doing it. I do cardio and weights and a little bit of abs. Good times other than the fact that I am usually sore after. Then I went back to the school. I was in the hot shop chilling. Jim one of the teachers said I could blow some glass since no one was really in there but just after I started people came back so I gave up my spot. Oh well. I was in the library for awhile Facebooking. It's my new addiction and procrastination tool.

Then I went back downstairs and I was talking with one of the class technicians and we were having a good convo about glass and making a career of it and all. Then he said that because there was space tonight he wouldn't care if I blew some glass. He would be around to supervise. So I was stoked. I was in there for awhile. I made 3 pieces. They weren't anything crazy but I was just getting back into the flow and practicing. It was good. It made me really happy. And Jaan was helping me out and giving me some tips and actually having normal conversation which was nice for a change. Therefor I was even more happy! So all around it was a pretty awesome night. I had fun anyhow. I was like in a dancing mood. It was great. This is the first time I have been really happy in awhile here. I was smiling from ear to ear. YAY HAPPINESS. We will see how long that last with the rest of this crazy week but I am looking forward to Thursday rolling around. Then the fun really begins!!

Hope you have a great week and I will send you lots of loving text messages when I am out for my bday. <3

:) - Kim

How Do Guys Do It??

You know I hate guys sometimes. But I'm not sure how some of them do it. You want to be mad at them but you just can't. Me and my sis had a conversation about this yesterday. There are some people that no matter how much you want to be mad at them you just can't really be, and when you see them they just make you laugh. That is part of my dilemma with Jaan. There are times I want to strangle him because he is acting stupid. But there are the times when I see him and he jokes around and just laughs or smiles and my anger likes melts away. You know what I mean. I have had this happen before too. How do they do it?? Seriously, I wish I could figure it out so I could block it, but no I have to live with it. Haha. Oh well. Just gotta deal.

I confuse myself!

I seriously never know what I want. I am always confusing myself. I think I want something, or don't want something and then I go and do something that is totally opposite of what I'm thinking. I'm not even making sense right now. Have you guys ever seen Monsters Ball. It's a strange movie and I think it has messed with my brain tonight. Haha. It's weird to think that my b-day in in less than a week. It doesn't even feel like it. I mean I am planning something and inviting people but it doesn't feel real. Maybe because I'm not getting my hopes up this time so I'm not even expecting anyone to come. I dunno. I need to sort my thoughts out. Crazy mind mumbo jumbo. Hope you all have a good weekend. How's the new job going Dani, you started Thursday right??? Night girls!

CONFUSED

Thanks Guys

Thanks guys. Like I said if it weren't for you I would go crazy. I'm sure I drive you crazy at times, with my random crazy babble, but most of the time I do it to clear my head cause I am never sure what is going on up there. Last night I just had a lot on my mind and somehow it all gets jumbled, which makes me crazy. I know I'm not fat. I'm just not as in shape as I would like to be. But I am working on that. I went Friday to the gym and today and I am going to try and go at least three times a week if not more. Take advantage before school ends. However I have to work on the healthy eating thing. I eat too much junk food sometimes and I don't eat at regular hours. It's like all over the place which I know isn't good either. So that's going to take some work. Hahaha.

Anyway, I really do need to find myself and learn to be happy with the person that I am. I have my insecurities, which everyone does, I just need to learn to accept them. I need to get over the whole needing a guy thing too. I think I just get lonely and I would love to just have someone to cuddle with among other things. Lol. But you know, if you want something done right you gotta do it yourself. :p

But thanks for always being there for me guys. If I didn't have you I would probably be one fucked up chick. You ground me and keep my head on straight, and I appreciate that with all my heart. And you know, I'm always here for you if you get stuck in a rut and just need someone to talk to. :) <3

Who am I kidding?

I'm having one of my serious issue depressed moments again. I seriously can't help it lately. And who am I to think that anyone would really want me. I think I am delusional at times. Seriously. I never know what's going on up in my head. All of the sudden I get emotional and shit and then I'm in trouble. And this week I have my period. Because I decided to skip it this last week cause of tests and stuff. I seriously hate having my period lately because I have been acting so strange. I'm not sure what has happened with me. I am starting to wonder if this newer birth control I'm on actually has too much hormones in it cause I swear I am never myself anymore. I dunno, I dunno. I'm kinda glad that I have a job now. Because really it occupies my mind for some of the time and I have less time to think about other things. I seriously hope I meet someone randomly some day. I know they say when you stop looking is when it happens. But even though I'm like I won't find anyone, and I don't look, nothing comes. It's me. We were having this random discussion at work the other day. And I think I'm the fat girl that has personality. We were talking about what people would say or how they might describe you or something and I swear that's what I am, the girl that is loud and has personality. That's it. I'm the fat, ugly girl that everyone sees as the mom figure. Thanks mom. And I totally cater to that too, not on purpose, but it's my nature. Someone leaves garbage, I'll throw it away. I put it on myself, this image, but I can't get away from it because it happens to be who I am. Seriously if I didn't know that you guys loved me and my family loved me and that you would miss me I have to wonder if I would still be here. Because I don't care about much else most of the time. I'm like what's the point, I'm not happy most of the time, so why bother. It's stupid I know but I can't help it. I feel so worthless. EEERRRRRRR. Don't mind me, I have mental issues. Move on Kim, move on.

Blast From the Past

So I went out for Britt's b-day yesterday. It was a good time, even though I didn't know that many people. We went to Mongolie Grill which was awesome cause I had never been. And we had a Marble Slabe bubble gum cake with gummy bears which was totally awesome. Then we went to Lloyd's and we went roller skating. It has been years since I have been rollerskating. It was totally awesome. It was a bit of a workout for the legs and butt too. Haha. All in all it was a pretty chilaxed night but totally awesome.

I'm still trying to decide what to do for my b-day though. I think I might just end up going to the roadhouse. Cause I want to go to the bar and dance and I think that everyone I know here is ok with the roadhouse. I want people to be encouraged to come. So hopefully I will have a better turnout than in the past. I know I can count on a few people. I mean Deanna said she would be there for sure and Dave too. My sis will come with me, I will make her. Haha. I'm pretty sure Jaan will come, cause he likes the Roadhouse and were friends. And I am hoping a few other friends from school will come too. I'll ask but I'm not expecting too much. We will see.

Anyhow, pretty uneventful weekend. Worked all day today. I think I am going to like it at Linen's N' Things. Most of the people there are awesome and even the managers are pretty cool. And no asians. Haha. I'm a terrible person. Anyways, hope you are all having an awesome weekend. See you!