Short Lived

So much for my happiness. Seriously, my life is all over the fucking place. I mean I know I have a lot of good things but I seem to let the little things get to me and then I freak out. Especially right now. I fucking hate being a girl and pms. Sometimes I think life would be that much easier as a guy. I might as well be. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I hate being angry. I hate being upset. I hate being me. I'm crying like a baby for no reason. WHAT IS THIS??? Why does life have to be so complicated. ANGER HATE VOLATILE EMOTION!!!! I just wanna someone to love me for me. To hold me and tell me it will all be ok. I hate not knowing where I'm going or what I'm doing. I make too many choices on emotion and chance. I need a plan. And I need to stick to that plan. I don't know what I need. Sometimes I hate people. I wish everything could be more obvious. I know it would take away all of the fun. WHATEVER. It would make life that much easier sometimes too and maybe I wouldn't end up like this and talking like a psycho crazy person. I'm going to stop now. Nothing makes sense.