a never ending week...

of hell I think. It just doesn't seem like it's going to be all that great, so far it's lived up to my expectations. You see last week was SKULK. Which was a lot of fun as usual but also not healthy for the body. Lack of sleep probably didn't help as well as kissing (well touching lips) with so many people from my floor gave me some sort of illness. I HATE COLDS. I have been fine pretty much all year this year, which is so awesome cause I was sick all the time last year.

But no of course I wasn't going to go the whole year without having a deadly cold that would have been way to abnormal for Lister. I was just hoping. But I guess it was all worth it cause we WON!! That's right bitches, we kicked fuckin ass again, even while every other floor was sabbatoging us in the penny wars because we fucking kick ass. It's so awesome. Makes me happy. :) I almost considered not drinking Saturday since i got pretty sick but clearly that was not going to happen cause it's mystery lake and it's like a sin if you aren't hosed. So I got fairly drunk. Felt pretty good too. I even cried when we won... although I'm not sure why, made me happy I guess. It was good to see everyones hard work stand out. I'm proud. Me and Dani had a pretty good time dancing one the stage and I had fun screaming. I'm not sure how I didn't loose my voice Sunday... Good times though.

But anyways, back to the good weekend leading into a bad week. I was pretty sick Sunday from this cold. I was sick yesterday which made kickboxing class really hard because I'm having issues breathing, and I had the worst stomach ache that just wanted to eat my body. Not cool. Oh yeah and I get my period sometime this week to top it all off!! Woohoo. I couldn't have done any better that's for sure. Plus I have readings, homework, design projects to catch up on, oh and sleep, which hasn't worked well. I try to sleep but yet I'm still not getting enough to keep me awake in class. I need more sleep when I'm sick like most people but I haven't been able to really get that for whatever reason. Maybe part of it is because I am sick but I haven't been sleeping well and at 3:30 this moring I woke up like wide awake and for a few minutes I thought the clock said 6:30 which ment I had to get up and blah. Just no fun. I mean I almost fell asleep in Human Sexuality this morning, if that doesn't tell you something is wrong then I don't know what will. (We had the coolest presenter this morning, he taught us a lot and he make sex/relationship board games that look super cool but of course right now are of no use to me so of course it would be stupid to get one, BUT THEY ARE SO COOL. Oh and he is even giving us a discount! Haha. If anyone wants one let me know...) .
But yeah I slept through most of Comp Sci which isn't good because she started C++ programming today and I kinda need to know how to do that. So lets hope I picked up on most of the stuff.

I think the only thing I have to look forward to is that they have cabbage rolls and perogies in the cafe tonight!!! Yay. First time since we have been back and it couldn't have been soon enough. I don't think this week is going to be good for anyone. Ali, I hope your week gets better as the days go by. It's hard to hear you sad and not being able to do anything about it. Leanne I hope you rape your midterm and that they can figure out whats wrong with your stomach with that test so you can keep your food down, cause it sucks being hungry!! Dani, I hope yoga and wall climbing is fun and your arms don't get too sore! Next week will be better! (well I hope anyways) Later dudes!

I know, I know

I try to keep up on my posts but I still can't type as fast as you even though I am faster then I used to be. For me to write a blog it can be quite time conssuming and I haven't seemed to have the time since I have had math assignments, and design and then there is the readings, which I have been pretty good about keeping up with this semester. I am quite proud of myself actually. :) Yet somehow I am still behind in a lot of it but I seem to only be able to do so much in one day before I get bored and then I end up being lazy. I can do it! And you all know what happened this weekend, since you were all there, or someone has already wrote about it. Haha. The Kegger was awesome though, and I am totally looking forwarf to Mystery Lake. It will be great. I need to go and buy a disposable camera! At least I have something ot look forward too. But this blog is finished for now because i have a math assignment to finish!! Later peeps.

Kim

Intense

Last night was crazy. I got right fucked, and had an awesome time. I didn't really want to come back, cause living here just seems weird and I miss having a home. I realized that when I was at home during the break. It's weird. I'm glad that I have my friends here to take care of me though, cause who knows what would happen if I didn't. Pure crazyness. My head hurts a little bit today though, and I still feel dizzy. Stupid hangovers. I'm glad I didn't consume any more alcohol, that would have been bad. I think I need to have a nap now though. Recover a bit more from my intoxicating night. Haha. Later. Love you all. And thanks for takin care of me!

cool

I died my hair too!! It was supposed to be a brown with a reddish ting. It kinda looks almost blonde that is verry red. It was supposed to be darker.... Oh well I guess I will have to do something different next time. :)

:)

I am feeling so much better now that I am home and done with my stupid exams. I just needed to get the physics over with. I think I was scared of it. I still am considering I haven't got my mark back yet. I hope you are all having a wonderful time and I hope to talk to you all soon. Don't party too hard this holiday season!! ;) Love you all and talk to you soon.

fucking die

I seriously hate life right now. Like really hate it. What is the point. I dunno. Cause I am a failure. The only thing I have to look forward to is going home if I don't kill myself first. Like seriously. If I fail out of University it will because of this stupid Economics course. I HATE IT. A LOT. IT IS A FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT. I SWEAR TO GOD IF I COULD BEAT IT UP RIGHT NOW I WOULD, TO DEATH. THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MY EASY CLASS. YA RIGHT. I think those were my hardest tests of the semester. Harder then biology. That's just wrong, and so unfair. Now I have no inclination to study for Physics but obviously I have to or I really will fail out of University. Not that I will make it into the program I want next year anyways and then I will be living at home again being a bum cause I'm stupid. I don't even know why I should come back next semester. I mean the classes I am taking pretty much have nothing to do with anything and it will probably be more a waist of my time and money and stress me out and shorten my life span. Like seriously. Why do I put myself through this. I really have no idea. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I mean I am looking forward to my Human Sexuality course cause I'm sure it will be interesting but once again no use to me cause I don't seem to attract any guys and clearly I'm not having sex so yeah.... I am going to go wollow in my own self pitty now, take some Tylenol for the headache I have created and maybe have a nap until me and Leanne go tanning. That is the only thing that is fun or that I have to look forward to right now. How sad is that... hmmm

i dont wanna study.

I don't wanna study I don't wanna study. do do do. i hate studying i hate studying do do do. i wanna go home i wanna go home. do do do. :) just 2 more. i can do this!

HOME IN 3!

I can't wait to go home. I am so excited. It is so close now. Yet so far. I didn't study at all really yesterday and I NEED to study for Econ and Physics. I don't know what I was doing. I just couldn't. A bunch of people weren't studying but most of them don't have 2 tests left. I am an idiot. Oh well. Three days I will be home and done with this shiznit. Yay Christmas!!! I'm so excited. I still have to pack today too cause I won't be doing it tomorrow cause I have a test then I have to study for Physics and then after my test Tuesday my dad is coming... But i guess I have a few hours in there to do it. But really is that enough?? Ok I have to go. STUDY!!!!

grrr

I am getting really tired of these headaches. I mean really. Tylenol just isn't working. Grrrr. Oh well what can you do. I'm going to bed now. Get a good night sleep before my first exam. That's the paln. And today was a good day. I got a lot of studying done, had some good food, chilled for awhile, came back and chatted with Dani. I think I am confident and ready for this test. I will be ok!! :) Night all!

aaaahhhh

My head hurts, I'm tired, and once again not wanting to study and having serious issues trying. WHY is it so hard for me to study right now. Really why am I having such issues. I need to get my shit together SOMEHOW!!! AAAHHHHH. Fuck me!

meh

Clearly I have failed to write anything in awhile, and none of it has been all that interesting. It's sad really. My life just isn't that exciting anymore. I mean school has takin a lot of it over. I realized the other day that I really haven't been out that much this year, and I really don't know why. Just don't want to or just not the right people. I dunno. This year is so much different than last year and things have just changed. Where I stand school wise and what I am doing is so up in the air. I mean me and Dani can't even guarantee that we will be living here next year. I hate uncertainty.

I'm really worried with exams coming up, because I have to do well on them but at the same time I can't seem to find the motivation to study. I mean I think what the real problem is I don't care what in the class but at the same time I need to raise my GPA. Like my Bio classes, I have already decided that I will never need them for anything that I might be going into yet I am still finishing them. So i guess I don't care much if I actually learn what I need to know. What a bad place to be in, really. But I have nxt semester to look forward too which I hope will be as much fun yet still not that fun as I think it will be. All I can do is hope I guess.

So ya the only real exciting thing that has happened in my life lately is going out to Cook County Wednesday night which turned out to be a really fun time. I got really drunk and I was quite happy. It helped that I got my secret santa gift that night too. I miss wakeboarding so much it's not even funny. It actually makes me kinda depressed. It is the one thing that I know I'm pretty good at and that I have fun doing. I mean why can't I do that all the time. But clearly that's just not going to happen. Oh and then there is skiing. I mean I know I am decent at that, but of course you can always get better. But seriously after my last ski of the season this year, I had the best feeling in the world. IT WAS GOOD. That is when I am truly happy. Doing that. One thing that I have decided for this coming summer is that I will not let work stand in the way of me getting out on the water more. I need that to keep me sain and who I am. That is what I have to look forward to!

Peace dudes.
Kim

I'll make it through!

I am just looking forward to going home. The more exams I get done the closer it comes. I am going to try and work hard and get good marks and do what I need to do. Then next semester I will worry about next year. Small steps Kim, small steps.

Alone

It just hit me like a sack of hammers. I feel very alone right now. It just seems like I have no one to go to and anyone I would go to is too far away. Like my parents. I miss them. I miss my dog, I miss my sister right now. This month is going to be a long one. I am still so confussed about school and what I am going to do next year. What if I don't get into the program. Which I probably won't cause Kyle said they take 30 people and 4oo and some applied when he got in. Like really what are my chances. SO I guess I wouldn't be coming back here and I don't know if I will go to school at all. Maybe try something at SAIT at home. I dunno. This sucks! I hate life right now. I'll be surprised if I don't kill myself. Like really.

Just chillin....

So this weekend has been alright. I really haven't done much at all. I do have to study today though. I HAVE to. I am GOING to. I need to find the motivation. Otherwise I just might fail my lab exam and that would just suck. But anyways. Friday night was alright. Probably would have been better but I didn't want to drink and be humg over yesterday.... not that I did anything anyways. Oh well. I hit my hip though and now I have a bruise and it's sore. Oh and everyone just kept randomly disappearing so I ended up walking back most of the way by myself until I found Eric and Mikey in Papa John's. Then Eric went to the house and I signed Mikey in so he could come in and pass out, which he really needed to do. Yesterday was a write off. I did NOTHING. Seriously. I planned on doing shit all day, and I just couldn't. I talked on msn to my mom and Dani for like maybe an hour and that's like all I did all day. I didn't want to read, I didn't want to watch a movie... nothing. I didn't even nap. I just kinda lied there. Like I was dead to the world. It was very strange. I did finish my 10 square painting last night but I was up till 3:00 doing it cause I didn't start till like 10:00 probably. I watched Ocean's Twelve first. The funny thing is I have seen it before but I didn't really remember it. Haha. Made for a good watching. Oh and when I was in the middle of painting I went into the lounge and then I was there for at least an hour maybe 2 watching this really crazy but funny movie with Alison and Brittany. More distractions and procrastination. I WILL NEVER LEARN!! Oh well. Today I made my bed and working on a bit of art. Now I have to go and study for Bio and do a self portrait! Later peeps.

mixed feelings

I seriously am not sure how I fell right now. I am all over the place. My mind and body are being strange. I mean I have had nightmares this last week, I have been pissed at people and I am freaking out about school as usual. Cause that's what I do. I just don'e even know what I could say. I mean so much is going through my head but it's all crazy and mixed up. Plus I don't want to make anyone upset because I do not need the drama right now and frankly I just am starting not to care. I have decided to worry about me, and my school and that's it. I am going to try my hardest to stay out of EVERYTHING. Lets hope it works. Peace.

thinking... and telling

Well guys as you all know I had a pretty good weekend at home. I got to see people, I got to party a bit and I got to relax. Most of all I got to watch TV, a lot of TV. It was great. Really. Just so you all know now incase you didn't before I LOVE TELEVISION. I am not going to lie, it greatly amuses me and I watch a lot of shows and I love them all. I mean I don't even think I could pick a favorite. So that's that.

Now I would like to mention that I hate University and as Leanne has stated clearly in her blog EVERYTHING IS STUPID. I still don't know what I want to do with my life but right now I am thinking of switching into Arts and taking Design Engineering which will eventually lead to architecture. That's the plan. But I was also looking into what I need to take and I basically will be starting from first year, with a few courses that I won't have to worry about. That's the plan anyways. Oh and I have to take stupid engineering classes. I dunno guys, I dunno. We will see I guess. There is the possibility of taking Computer Design but I think I am going to see how I do in comp sci next semester before I decide and see what the councilors say. But ya, just wanted to put that out there. Cause I know this is how you all know whats going on in Kim's little random crazy mind.

Peace out!

waiting to go home...

1. What time is it? 3:46 pm
2. What is your name? Kim
3.Any nicknames? Kimmy, Gibler
4. Parent's names? Frank and Donna
5. What is your Favourite drink? well I love juice and milk. Alcoholic probably gin and tequila
6.(a) Tattoos? nope, but I want one
(b) Body piercing? 5 in my ears
7. How much do you love your job-scale of 1 to 10? Well since I'm not working school is my job and really it isn't that much fun. Like a 5
8. Birthplace: Calgary
9. Favourite vacation spot: Always and forever SANDPOINT
10. Ever been to Africa? Nope but it would be awesome to go.
11. Stolen any traffic signs? Can't say that I have but it would be fun
12. Ever been in a car accident? Sadly yes... minors. I was rearended once and sister hit the ditch another.
13. Croutons or Bacon bits? croutos for sure
14. 2 Door or 4 Door car? I dunno. Both are ok. 2 door I guess cause thats what i have
15. Salad Dressing?I like so many. Creamy cucumber, italian
16. Favourite Pie: chocolate cream
17. Favourite Number? 666
18. Favourite Movie? soo many, I love movie. Probably Van Wilder, Varsity Blues...
19. Favourite Colour? I love color but blue and green
20. Favourite Holiday? I dunno, probably Christmas because there is good food, a break from school and I get to see family!
21. Favourite Food? I love beef. Stir fry, meatloaf, mushroom chicken dish. YUM!
22. Favourite day of the week? Friday becayse it's the start of the weekend and the last day of the week!
23. Favourite brand of body soap? I like soap... um Olay...
24. Favourite TV show? I have an obsession with TV. Way too many to choose from... maybe CSI, Gilmore Girls.
25. Toothpaste? Good tasting stuff that cleans my teeth!
26. Most recently read book? don't remember... been awhile. Maybe Harry Potter #5
27. Favourite Smell? home, rain, food.
28. What do you do to relax? sleep... aka napping, read cosmo, watch TV/movies.
29. Favourite Fast Food? Probably A&W although Wendy's frostys are yummy
30. When was your last hospital visit? don't know... um last time I hade stiches probably. So grade... 9 I think
31. Message to your friends reading this: I hope you all have a fucking awesome weekend. There should be some hard core drunkenness! Haha. Love you all to death. Hopefully I don't miss out on too much this weekend.
32. How do you see yourself in 10 years? Hopefully maybe I have found someone by then, possibly getting married, almost 30.... that's scary!
33. What do you do when you are bored? Talk on msn... a lot, write a blog, watch TV, chat with people, anything.
34. What presents do you enjoy receiving? Notes from my girls, and ones that are sentamental or have thought behind them.
35. Furthest place you will send this message? maybe around the world since anyone can read it.
36. Who will respond the fastest? I dunno, no one, this isn't an email.
37. Least likely to respond? I dunno.
38. What time is it now? 4:02 pm.... almost time to go home!

indifferent

After briefly thinking about these blogs i have come to the conclusion that being indifferent is the only way to go. I mean after reading my blog and yours(Leanne) and mine again we are still somehow fighting about a little thing like someones opinion. I dunno. I see now how stupid it really is and all I can do is shake my head. Maybe if I just stay at middle ground where I don't not like a movie but on the same token I don't love it either. Then I won't be upset if someone else doesn't like it or make anyone else upset if they do like it. Problem solved.

P.S. I guess we read things differently because I would have thought by reading my blog again that I was actually somehow directing it more to Alison even if I didn't mean to. Part of the confussion may have to do with my bad use of grammer where I should have said you guys instead of just you. Anyways, oh well.

response

Leanne. Yeah I did know you were going to read it and that's why i wrote it. But it was not just for you. I meant Alison too because it was both of you, and for whoever else that might read it because this whole thing just seems to bug me for some reason. I mean Patrick was getting in on it too but obviously he isn't going to read this. Truthfully I think it bothers me more when you and Alison do it because I value your opinions more. I never say things in person because i don't like getting into arguments because i never seem to win, especially with you. Not that it happens a lot or anything your just a more aggressive person in general then I am and I always feel like burrowing under a rock when it comes to an end like that. I think that's why I just avoid those situations. I know you always say to say it in person and I almost did but then after it had passed and I just didn't think it would make sense. I will talk to you after, for sure. I just wanted you guys to know how I felt. I know you were not directly insulting me when you were making fun of the movie but it hit a nerve. I was probably just emotional/pmsing. I mean really I'm not even bothered by it today, because I get over things really quickly and I think that's another reason why I didn't say anything because I know that it's stupid. Anyways, I hope your having a good time at Sam's because I know you haven't hung out with her yet. Have a good night!

don't diss

Ok I hate being angry/ upset about little things but this is really bothering me. Why is it when I seem to like something, I get dissed for it. I mean I know I can be different and I like a lot of stuff some people don't but on the other hand some people do like it. I say that a movie looks good and you guys shoot it down right away and you haven't seen previews let alone the movie. I mean I haven't seen it either but I still feel shot down. So what if I like chick flicks and cheasy movies, it doesn't give you the right to make fun of the movie or me for it. Think about it, even if you didn't mean to. I know I should say something if it bugs me... and I was going to but you know me and just not liking to make trouble out of a little situation but this I can't let go. I mean Alison you showed me that article about country music and how people shouldn't diss it. I know some people don't like it but they don't need to shoot us down for listening to it right. So why should we shoot people down for watching a stupid movie. Just like Chris Conner making fun of me for liking XXX. I like it so fuck off. I don't like Clockwork Orange but I don't make fun of people for watching it. People have different tastes. You don't have to like it. Just say that and leave it at that. That's just how I feel.

-Kim