a never ending week...

of hell I think. It just doesn't seem like it's going to be all that great, so far it's lived up to my expectations. You see last week was SKULK. Which was a lot of fun as usual but also not healthy for the body. Lack of sleep probably didn't help as well as kissing (well touching lips) with so many people from my floor gave me some sort of illness. I HATE COLDS. I have been fine pretty much all year this year, which is so awesome cause I was sick all the time last year.

But no of course I wasn't going to go the whole year without having a deadly cold that would have been way to abnormal for Lister. I was just hoping. But I guess it was all worth it cause we WON!! That's right bitches, we kicked fuckin ass again, even while every other floor was sabbatoging us in the penny wars because we fucking kick ass. It's so awesome. Makes me happy. :) I almost considered not drinking Saturday since i got pretty sick but clearly that was not going to happen cause it's mystery lake and it's like a sin if you aren't hosed. So I got fairly drunk. Felt pretty good too. I even cried when we won... although I'm not sure why, made me happy I guess. It was good to see everyones hard work stand out. I'm proud. Me and Dani had a pretty good time dancing one the stage and I had fun screaming. I'm not sure how I didn't loose my voice Sunday... Good times though.

But anyways, back to the good weekend leading into a bad week. I was pretty sick Sunday from this cold. I was sick yesterday which made kickboxing class really hard because I'm having issues breathing, and I had the worst stomach ache that just wanted to eat my body. Not cool. Oh yeah and I get my period sometime this week to top it all off!! Woohoo. I couldn't have done any better that's for sure. Plus I have readings, homework, design projects to catch up on, oh and sleep, which hasn't worked well. I try to sleep but yet I'm still not getting enough to keep me awake in class. I need more sleep when I'm sick like most people but I haven't been able to really get that for whatever reason. Maybe part of it is because I am sick but I haven't been sleeping well and at 3:30 this moring I woke up like wide awake and for a few minutes I thought the clock said 6:30 which ment I had to get up and blah. Just no fun. I mean I almost fell asleep in Human Sexuality this morning, if that doesn't tell you something is wrong then I don't know what will. (We had the coolest presenter this morning, he taught us a lot and he make sex/relationship board games that look super cool but of course right now are of no use to me so of course it would be stupid to get one, BUT THEY ARE SO COOL. Oh and he is even giving us a discount! Haha. If anyone wants one let me know...) .
But yeah I slept through most of Comp Sci which isn't good because she started C++ programming today and I kinda need to know how to do that. So lets hope I picked up on most of the stuff.

I think the only thing I have to look forward to is that they have cabbage rolls and perogies in the cafe tonight!!! Yay. First time since we have been back and it couldn't have been soon enough. I don't think this week is going to be good for anyone. Ali, I hope your week gets better as the days go by. It's hard to hear you sad and not being able to do anything about it. Leanne I hope you rape your midterm and that they can figure out whats wrong with your stomach with that test so you can keep your food down, cause it sucks being hungry!! Dani, I hope yoga and wall climbing is fun and your arms don't get too sore! Next week will be better! (well I hope anyways) Later dudes!

I know, I know

I try to keep up on my posts but I still can't type as fast as you even though I am faster then I used to be. For me to write a blog it can be quite time conssuming and I haven't seemed to have the time since I have had math assignments, and design and then there is the readings, which I have been pretty good about keeping up with this semester. I am quite proud of myself actually. :) Yet somehow I am still behind in a lot of it but I seem to only be able to do so much in one day before I get bored and then I end up being lazy. I can do it! And you all know what happened this weekend, since you were all there, or someone has already wrote about it. Haha. The Kegger was awesome though, and I am totally looking forwarf to Mystery Lake. It will be great. I need to go and buy a disposable camera! At least I have something ot look forward too. But this blog is finished for now because i have a math assignment to finish!! Later peeps.

Kim

Intense

Last night was crazy. I got right fucked, and had an awesome time. I didn't really want to come back, cause living here just seems weird and I miss having a home. I realized that when I was at home during the break. It's weird. I'm glad that I have my friends here to take care of me though, cause who knows what would happen if I didn't. Pure crazyness. My head hurts a little bit today though, and I still feel dizzy. Stupid hangovers. I'm glad I didn't consume any more alcohol, that would have been bad. I think I need to have a nap now though. Recover a bit more from my intoxicating night. Haha. Later. Love you all. And thanks for takin care of me!

cool

I died my hair too!! It was supposed to be a brown with a reddish ting. It kinda looks almost blonde that is verry red. It was supposed to be darker.... Oh well I guess I will have to do something different next time. :)

:)

I am feeling so much better now that I am home and done with my stupid exams. I just needed to get the physics over with. I think I was scared of it. I still am considering I haven't got my mark back yet. I hope you are all having a wonderful time and I hope to talk to you all soon. Don't party too hard this holiday season!! ;) Love you all and talk to you soon.

fucking die

I seriously hate life right now. Like really hate it. What is the point. I dunno. Cause I am a failure. The only thing I have to look forward to is going home if I don't kill myself first. Like seriously. If I fail out of University it will because of this stupid Economics course. I HATE IT. A LOT. IT IS A FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT. I SWEAR TO GOD IF I COULD BEAT IT UP RIGHT NOW I WOULD, TO DEATH. THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MY EASY CLASS. YA RIGHT. I think those were my hardest tests of the semester. Harder then biology. That's just wrong, and so unfair. Now I have no inclination to study for Physics but obviously I have to or I really will fail out of University. Not that I will make it into the program I want next year anyways and then I will be living at home again being a bum cause I'm stupid. I don't even know why I should come back next semester. I mean the classes I am taking pretty much have nothing to do with anything and it will probably be more a waist of my time and money and stress me out and shorten my life span. Like seriously. Why do I put myself through this. I really have no idea. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I mean I am looking forward to my Human Sexuality course cause I'm sure it will be interesting but once again no use to me cause I don't seem to attract any guys and clearly I'm not having sex so yeah.... I am going to go wollow in my own self pitty now, take some Tylenol for the headache I have created and maybe have a nap until me and Leanne go tanning. That is the only thing that is fun or that I have to look forward to right now. How sad is that... hmmm

i dont wanna study.

I don't wanna study I don't wanna study. do do do. i hate studying i hate studying do do do. i wanna go home i wanna go home. do do do. :) just 2 more. i can do this!

HOME IN 3!

I can't wait to go home. I am so excited. It is so close now. Yet so far. I didn't study at all really yesterday and I NEED to study for Econ and Physics. I don't know what I was doing. I just couldn't. A bunch of people weren't studying but most of them don't have 2 tests left. I am an idiot. Oh well. Three days I will be home and done with this shiznit. Yay Christmas!!! I'm so excited. I still have to pack today too cause I won't be doing it tomorrow cause I have a test then I have to study for Physics and then after my test Tuesday my dad is coming... But i guess I have a few hours in there to do it. But really is that enough?? Ok I have to go. STUDY!!!!

grrr

I am getting really tired of these headaches. I mean really. Tylenol just isn't working. Grrrr. Oh well what can you do. I'm going to bed now. Get a good night sleep before my first exam. That's the paln. And today was a good day. I got a lot of studying done, had some good food, chilled for awhile, came back and chatted with Dani. I think I am confident and ready for this test. I will be ok!! :) Night all!

aaaahhhh

My head hurts, I'm tired, and once again not wanting to study and having serious issues trying. WHY is it so hard for me to study right now. Really why am I having such issues. I need to get my shit together SOMEHOW!!! AAAHHHHH. Fuck me!

meh

Clearly I have failed to write anything in awhile, and none of it has been all that interesting. It's sad really. My life just isn't that exciting anymore. I mean school has takin a lot of it over. I realized the other day that I really haven't been out that much this year, and I really don't know why. Just don't want to or just not the right people. I dunno. This year is so much different than last year and things have just changed. Where I stand school wise and what I am doing is so up in the air. I mean me and Dani can't even guarantee that we will be living here next year. I hate uncertainty.

I'm really worried with exams coming up, because I have to do well on them but at the same time I can't seem to find the motivation to study. I mean I think what the real problem is I don't care what in the class but at the same time I need to raise my GPA. Like my Bio classes, I have already decided that I will never need them for anything that I might be going into yet I am still finishing them. So i guess I don't care much if I actually learn what I need to know. What a bad place to be in, really. But I have nxt semester to look forward too which I hope will be as much fun yet still not that fun as I think it will be. All I can do is hope I guess.

So ya the only real exciting thing that has happened in my life lately is going out to Cook County Wednesday night which turned out to be a really fun time. I got really drunk and I was quite happy. It helped that I got my secret santa gift that night too. I miss wakeboarding so much it's not even funny. It actually makes me kinda depressed. It is the one thing that I know I'm pretty good at and that I have fun doing. I mean why can't I do that all the time. But clearly that's just not going to happen. Oh and then there is skiing. I mean I know I am decent at that, but of course you can always get better. But seriously after my last ski of the season this year, I had the best feeling in the world. IT WAS GOOD. That is when I am truly happy. Doing that. One thing that I have decided for this coming summer is that I will not let work stand in the way of me getting out on the water more. I need that to keep me sain and who I am. That is what I have to look forward to!

Peace dudes.
Kim

I'll make it through!

I am just looking forward to going home. The more exams I get done the closer it comes. I am going to try and work hard and get good marks and do what I need to do. Then next semester I will worry about next year. Small steps Kim, small steps.

Alone

It just hit me like a sack of hammers. I feel very alone right now. It just seems like I have no one to go to and anyone I would go to is too far away. Like my parents. I miss them. I miss my dog, I miss my sister right now. This month is going to be a long one. I am still so confussed about school and what I am going to do next year. What if I don't get into the program. Which I probably won't cause Kyle said they take 30 people and 4oo and some applied when he got in. Like really what are my chances. SO I guess I wouldn't be coming back here and I don't know if I will go to school at all. Maybe try something at SAIT at home. I dunno. This sucks! I hate life right now. I'll be surprised if I don't kill myself. Like really.

Just chillin....

So this weekend has been alright. I really haven't done much at all. I do have to study today though. I HAVE to. I am GOING to. I need to find the motivation. Otherwise I just might fail my lab exam and that would just suck. But anyways. Friday night was alright. Probably would have been better but I didn't want to drink and be humg over yesterday.... not that I did anything anyways. Oh well. I hit my hip though and now I have a bruise and it's sore. Oh and everyone just kept randomly disappearing so I ended up walking back most of the way by myself until I found Eric and Mikey in Papa John's. Then Eric went to the house and I signed Mikey in so he could come in and pass out, which he really needed to do. Yesterday was a write off. I did NOTHING. Seriously. I planned on doing shit all day, and I just couldn't. I talked on msn to my mom and Dani for like maybe an hour and that's like all I did all day. I didn't want to read, I didn't want to watch a movie... nothing. I didn't even nap. I just kinda lied there. Like I was dead to the world. It was very strange. I did finish my 10 square painting last night but I was up till 3:00 doing it cause I didn't start till like 10:00 probably. I watched Ocean's Twelve first. The funny thing is I have seen it before but I didn't really remember it. Haha. Made for a good watching. Oh and when I was in the middle of painting I went into the lounge and then I was there for at least an hour maybe 2 watching this really crazy but funny movie with Alison and Brittany. More distractions and procrastination. I WILL NEVER LEARN!! Oh well. Today I made my bed and working on a bit of art. Now I have to go and study for Bio and do a self portrait! Later peeps.

mixed feelings

I seriously am not sure how I fell right now. I am all over the place. My mind and body are being strange. I mean I have had nightmares this last week, I have been pissed at people and I am freaking out about school as usual. Cause that's what I do. I just don'e even know what I could say. I mean so much is going through my head but it's all crazy and mixed up. Plus I don't want to make anyone upset because I do not need the drama right now and frankly I just am starting not to care. I have decided to worry about me, and my school and that's it. I am going to try my hardest to stay out of EVERYTHING. Lets hope it works. Peace.

thinking... and telling

Well guys as you all know I had a pretty good weekend at home. I got to see people, I got to party a bit and I got to relax. Most of all I got to watch TV, a lot of TV. It was great. Really. Just so you all know now incase you didn't before I LOVE TELEVISION. I am not going to lie, it greatly amuses me and I watch a lot of shows and I love them all. I mean I don't even think I could pick a favorite. So that's that.

Now I would like to mention that I hate University and as Leanne has stated clearly in her blog EVERYTHING IS STUPID. I still don't know what I want to do with my life but right now I am thinking of switching into Arts and taking Design Engineering which will eventually lead to architecture. That's the plan. But I was also looking into what I need to take and I basically will be starting from first year, with a few courses that I won't have to worry about. That's the plan anyways. Oh and I have to take stupid engineering classes. I dunno guys, I dunno. We will see I guess. There is the possibility of taking Computer Design but I think I am going to see how I do in comp sci next semester before I decide and see what the councilors say. But ya, just wanted to put that out there. Cause I know this is how you all know whats going on in Kim's little random crazy mind.

Peace out!

waiting to go home...

1. What time is it? 3:46 pm
2. What is your name? Kim
3.Any nicknames? Kimmy, Gibler
4. Parent's names? Frank and Donna
5. What is your Favourite drink? well I love juice and milk. Alcoholic probably gin and tequila
6.(a) Tattoos? nope, but I want one
(b) Body piercing? 5 in my ears
7. How much do you love your job-scale of 1 to 10? Well since I'm not working school is my job and really it isn't that much fun. Like a 5
8. Birthplace: Calgary
9. Favourite vacation spot: Always and forever SANDPOINT
10. Ever been to Africa? Nope but it would be awesome to go.
11. Stolen any traffic signs? Can't say that I have but it would be fun
12. Ever been in a car accident? Sadly yes... minors. I was rearended once and sister hit the ditch another.
13. Croutons or Bacon bits? croutos for sure
14. 2 Door or 4 Door car? I dunno. Both are ok. 2 door I guess cause thats what i have
15. Salad Dressing?I like so many. Creamy cucumber, italian
16. Favourite Pie: chocolate cream
17. Favourite Number? 666
18. Favourite Movie? soo many, I love movie. Probably Van Wilder, Varsity Blues...
19. Favourite Colour? I love color but blue and green
20. Favourite Holiday? I dunno, probably Christmas because there is good food, a break from school and I get to see family!
21. Favourite Food? I love beef. Stir fry, meatloaf, mushroom chicken dish. YUM!
22. Favourite day of the week? Friday becayse it's the start of the weekend and the last day of the week!
23. Favourite brand of body soap? I like soap... um Olay...
24. Favourite TV show? I have an obsession with TV. Way too many to choose from... maybe CSI, Gilmore Girls.
25. Toothpaste? Good tasting stuff that cleans my teeth!
26. Most recently read book? don't remember... been awhile. Maybe Harry Potter #5
27. Favourite Smell? home, rain, food.
28. What do you do to relax? sleep... aka napping, read cosmo, watch TV/movies.
29. Favourite Fast Food? Probably A&W although Wendy's frostys are yummy
30. When was your last hospital visit? don't know... um last time I hade stiches probably. So grade... 9 I think
31. Message to your friends reading this: I hope you all have a fucking awesome weekend. There should be some hard core drunkenness! Haha. Love you all to death. Hopefully I don't miss out on too much this weekend.
32. How do you see yourself in 10 years? Hopefully maybe I have found someone by then, possibly getting married, almost 30.... that's scary!
33. What do you do when you are bored? Talk on msn... a lot, write a blog, watch TV, chat with people, anything.
34. What presents do you enjoy receiving? Notes from my girls, and ones that are sentamental or have thought behind them.
35. Furthest place you will send this message? maybe around the world since anyone can read it.
36. Who will respond the fastest? I dunno, no one, this isn't an email.
37. Least likely to respond? I dunno.
38. What time is it now? 4:02 pm.... almost time to go home!

indifferent

After briefly thinking about these blogs i have come to the conclusion that being indifferent is the only way to go. I mean after reading my blog and yours(Leanne) and mine again we are still somehow fighting about a little thing like someones opinion. I dunno. I see now how stupid it really is and all I can do is shake my head. Maybe if I just stay at middle ground where I don't not like a movie but on the same token I don't love it either. Then I won't be upset if someone else doesn't like it or make anyone else upset if they do like it. Problem solved.

P.S. I guess we read things differently because I would have thought by reading my blog again that I was actually somehow directing it more to Alison even if I didn't mean to. Part of the confussion may have to do with my bad use of grammer where I should have said you guys instead of just you. Anyways, oh well.

response

Leanne. Yeah I did know you were going to read it and that's why i wrote it. But it was not just for you. I meant Alison too because it was both of you, and for whoever else that might read it because this whole thing just seems to bug me for some reason. I mean Patrick was getting in on it too but obviously he isn't going to read this. Truthfully I think it bothers me more when you and Alison do it because I value your opinions more. I never say things in person because i don't like getting into arguments because i never seem to win, especially with you. Not that it happens a lot or anything your just a more aggressive person in general then I am and I always feel like burrowing under a rock when it comes to an end like that. I think that's why I just avoid those situations. I know you always say to say it in person and I almost did but then after it had passed and I just didn't think it would make sense. I will talk to you after, for sure. I just wanted you guys to know how I felt. I know you were not directly insulting me when you were making fun of the movie but it hit a nerve. I was probably just emotional/pmsing. I mean really I'm not even bothered by it today, because I get over things really quickly and I think that's another reason why I didn't say anything because I know that it's stupid. Anyways, I hope your having a good time at Sam's because I know you haven't hung out with her yet. Have a good night!

don't diss

Ok I hate being angry/ upset about little things but this is really bothering me. Why is it when I seem to like something, I get dissed for it. I mean I know I can be different and I like a lot of stuff some people don't but on the other hand some people do like it. I say that a movie looks good and you guys shoot it down right away and you haven't seen previews let alone the movie. I mean I haven't seen it either but I still feel shot down. So what if I like chick flicks and cheasy movies, it doesn't give you the right to make fun of the movie or me for it. Think about it, even if you didn't mean to. I know I should say something if it bugs me... and I was going to but you know me and just not liking to make trouble out of a little situation but this I can't let go. I mean Alison you showed me that article about country music and how people shouldn't diss it. I know some people don't like it but they don't need to shoot us down for listening to it right. So why should we shoot people down for watching a stupid movie. Just like Chris Conner making fun of me for liking XXX. I like it so fuck off. I don't like Clockwork Orange but I don't make fun of people for watching it. People have different tastes. You don't have to like it. Just say that and leave it at that. That's just how I feel.

-Kim

fuck me

Ok I can't do this. Today was a terrible day and it was going better tonight but little things somehow always ruin it. Like seriously. How do I manage to do things that make people mad. I dunno. I'm just not going to talk anymore and then maybe my problems will be solved. Be a hermit and hide out in my room studying all the time. Hey maybe it's a good idea. At least then maybe I won't fail university and get kicked out. That will be just peachy!!! Fuck maybe I should anyways and then I could get my year off that I wanted since my dad and mom don't think it's a good idea. I mean I don' t know if it is either since I have already done 1.5 years. Well getting there. Not thats really all that much. Most of my courses seem pretty usless to me right now anyways. What am I going to do with any of it. Fuck school. I have to decide real soon what I plan on doing because I need to do well or I'm fucked. AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH. Oh and the major reason why my day was crappy in the first place is because first of all I had an 8:00 am art class which went by so quick and I had pretty much no time to work on my project because the teacher talked so much and I wasn't sure what to do. Like fuck. So now I will probably be in the art studios for the remainder of the weekend working on that shit plus studying for my Bio 108 midterm next week and working on Physics so I don't fail my final like I failed my midterm. Yeah I got that back today too. A nice 25 out of 65. Not good. Why physics. Why am I taking a class that is guaranteed to bring my mark down. That was smart Kim. GENIOUS. Oh and to make things that much better I had my Physics lab today too. First off I go into my regular lab room and there are a lot of peopl there I don't know..... what the fuck right. Well I guess they decided to change our lab rooms around this week. Randomly.... I dunno. Then the lab was a mess, cause it's Physics and things never work in Physics. It took us forever to get out data so we were rushing to try and finish our lab and we didn't . We went like 15 minutes over as it is. But no we probably failed. Just great. Just what I need to add to that nice midterm mark! Seriously I should have gone out and got drunk tonight. I think I would have been better off. Although I did watch The Italian Job and had a nap through part of it. Had a good little chat with Leanne and then we watched Mean Girls in the lounge which was quite entertaining. I hate life, it is far to complicated just like people. I wanna say that I wish it was simple but then people would say that it wouldn't be exciting without the drama. Oh well what can you do? I am really missing my family right now but on the other hand I was kinda getting annoyed with my mom tonight. Like why does she have to know EVERYTHING that is going on. That's why I moved away from home in the first place but it really doesn't seem to have changed much. I dunno I think I was just in a bad mood and didn't feel like talking. Plus she is harping on me about school and I fucking know that I have to do good. I KNOW. There is that little thing in the back of my head that is constantly saying if you fail this you could get kicked out of university. You could be a failure. Don't you think I know. I am tired of having it rubbed in my face. Maybe I just won't tell them how I am doing and deal with shit on my own. Just tell them I'm doing awesome and leave it at that. I think that's all I can handle. Grrr. Seriously I just want to go home where I can have a nice shower and where I don't have to wait like 2 minutes for it to heat up in the morning. To have my room back with my nice big bed and nice sheets. To have good food, to sleep, to have to some fun with my closest friends and to just relax. I want my hot tub. That will be nice to go home to. Why did I move away from home??? Seriously I have to wonder, because it seems to much better there sometimes. I mean I could be driving my car right now if I was at home. I miss my car!! I love driving. I miss not having to pay for laundry or having to wait or having someone randomly put my clothes somewhere. Wow I just want to go home right now. I need home. Soon enough it will come. Wow it feels good to get that out.

So about the weekend. I'll try to make this short. I was pissed with Chris on Friday because we were supposed to hang out and we weren't so I got mad at him and we had a good discussion and at least now I knoe where he stands. I dont' think he wants a relationship but I'm going to do my thing and if something happens then it happens and if something doesn't then it's all good. I was glad that I had been here though because I was here for Dani when she got sick and I was happy to comfort her and to support her. Now she is getting better!! Love you Dani. Then Chris ended up calling me at like 1:00 in the morning and asked if I wanted to come over and habng out and watch a movie, so I did, and it was nice. I got to see Garden State and to just sleep beside someone was nice. And then there is Alison who is always looking out for me. Giving me a call at who knows what time to be careful and be aware of my actions. Haha. :) Gotta love friends. Then Saturday was our floor crawl. What a fucking gong show. I had a lot of shots. All of them. Just like a lot of other people yet somehow I was one of the only people functioning and not passed out or puking. Oh man. What a night. Leanne I will always love you even if you do puke on my bed. Haha. It's ok. Taking care of people is what I do I guess. I mean I am not going to lie I was so fucking drunk yet somehow I kept it together. I'm just glad everone is alive and well. Oh alcohol. So that was a good night. Sunday was a right off because everyone was hung over and that was the end of that. It was an all around interesting weekend. But I think I am going to shut up now because this blog had turned into one of my classic Reader's Digest versions which go on forever and ever and I have no clue if anyone will get throught the whole thing. So if you did I hope that it was at least entertaining. Night all.

crazy ass weekend!

Oh Halloween... gotta love it. This weekend was interesting on so many levels. With the floor and then with Chris and everything. So much to talk about. No time to elaborate now but when I have a chance I will give you all the detail... that I can remember. Haha. Oh dear. Just a taste of what is to come. PURE CRAZYNESS. Peace

oh Leanne...

Haha, I know I know. I am trying. I am going to block him out until I'm done midterms and then I will worry about it. If I hang with him on Friday I can have some fun and then maybe I will get a chance to talk to him. Because midterms will be done he has less excusess and if we still don't hang out then that's it. I will move on. You know how hard it is for me. I get so attached to people. Look at Marc. Haha. That was a little overboard yes but you understand. I will try so very hard. And you can take me out and get me drunk and help me find a guy to randomly make out with. mwhahaha. P.S. Even if I do think about him for whatever reason I will keep it on the down low cause I know I'm driving you nuts. Hhaha. Oh and thanks for wanting to die with me. I feel much better. :) haha. Love you. Party on girls. Good luck with the continuing torture which we all call school!

am I blind???

You know what I told you it might not happen, and it didn't. Somehow I know that I'm stuck in a rut with this Chris situation but I can't seem to move ahead and I'm just not ready to back up yet either. I am leaving the whole situation till after midterms and after I get very drunk on Thursday night, because I know I will. I just wish this week was over and everything would just all go away. I have given up on guys. I just don't have a chance. No luck. I mean I never had any guys in high school. Why do I need them now? I think for some reason I'm scared of dying alone. It could happen. But ya I need sleep cause my brain is not functioning. Peace all.

one messed up weekend!

Ok guys, it's all good for now. Your right Dani I did have a hard couple of days for whatever reason but like you said things blow over and get better and they are. This weekend was crazy but it ended up being really good. I think I am finally starting to understand some things and just accepting others. I still don't really know what I want to do in school and what I want to make of myself in the future but I think I'm heading in a bettter direction this year then I was last year no matter how much work it is. I think I might just have to trust my parents on this one and stick with the art and design stuff. Maybe that is what I'm ment to do. I mean the only thing I can really do is give it a shot. Cause Chemistry sure didn't work last year and I have no other ideas that have anything to do with Science so this is my best shot at the moment. I'm actually ok with that. I am going to try and study more, get things done sooner, and hopefully sleep more cause I cannot pull a last week again it just fucked me right up. It was good to get some decent sleep this weekend. I mean I didn't sleep that much but enough. And now I plan on going to bed a lot sooner. I can't pull those almost all nighters all week long. My body just shuts down, which is expected, and it doesn't help that I'm still sick. Friday night was soo much fun with the guys and just getting drunk at Duke's. Even if I did tell them my life story. So now they all know me. I mean I am going to be living with them for another 6 months so they will get used to it... haha. I'm crazy what can I say. I have few secrets and drinking definitely brings them out in me. I really do have to watch about stepping into fights though. Two big guys and me equals a bad mix for Kim. I'm lucky I didn't get hurt and I know that now. I need to try and control what I do when I'm drunk. Talking to my parents tonight was good. It's a relief to know they are still there for me even if they are a few hours away and not always right on hand. I really am glad that I have them both. :) Then there was last night and it's crazyness. I think I am finally learning how you tick Alison. Haha. And I'm sorry I yelled at you, but I have to admit it felt good to stand up for myself. I need to do that more often to people. Not that I plan on getting mad at you all the time... haha. I don't. Cause it really wasn't fun either. I don't like fighting with friends. No one does. And it was so silly. But it's fixed now and that's all that matters. :) Sometimes I don't realize how much I really do love you guys until shit like this happens. It's crazy. Oh silly silly weekend. Oh and I must admit Chris calling me last night improved my mood and outlook on the situation. And he tried to call me today when he was sober. Which is also good. Oh and he asked me tonight if I wanted to watch a movie tomorrow. So he is finally taking some initiative. We will see what happens tomorrow. I mean I'm not getting to excited cause it hasn't happened yet but I really hope it does I'm not gonna lie. After this week if we hang out tomorrow and then maybe sometime this weekend it will be good now that midterms will be done. If not then I'm going to talk to him straight up and say what do you want out of this. I mean I wanna know if we are going anywhere or not cause if we aren't then I'm not going to waist my time and emotions waiting for him. I don't need that stress and crazyness. My life is nuts as it is. So ya I have been slightly enlightened this weekend. I can't wait for this week to be over though!!! What a relief that will be. Speaking of which I should get back to studying so I don't fail the midterms I have. Love you all. ;) You are my life. It wouldn't be the same crazy party without you. Haha. Night.

maybe one day I will understand...

I never seem to know what's going on or where people are coming from. I think I just see things totally different then everyone else. Maybe it was the way I was raised or the people I have always know but I'm just different. I can't seem to win. I never really fight back or stand up for myself. I just walk away. I don't know. I JUST DON'T KNOW. FUCK. I seriously can't do this. I hate this. All of it. What does the man upstairs have against me. Now I am sounding like my sister. Why am so sad? Why can't things work out for me? Why can't I get my shit together? Why can't I understand? I CAN'T DO IT. I can't deal with all of this shit. It's too much for me. Why am I even here, in Edmonton. I have so much back home, but yet I want to get away from that sometimes. I mean I feel like it's totally pointless for me to be in school because I don't even know what I'm doing so I have no motivation half the time. And when I do get shit done it seems like I never get sleep and it all just bites me in the ass. AAAHHHHH!!! Now I'm getting a headache. I don't need this shit. I hate being in a bad mood. It's depressing and then people are like what's wrong blah blah. It just doesn't matter. I need to figure out what I want and what's important. So stupid. Grrr. I'm done.

worst day ever....

I seriously fell like crap and today was just a shitty day. I don't even want to elaborate that much cause most of you know what's going on anyways. Basically, I need to get homework done sooner, I need to party less even though I wanna party more and I really don't party that much, I need to stop procrastinating, I need to stop staying up to all hours of the night, I need to get better, I need to stop sleeping in for class and I just need to get my act together. I just wish things would work out for me for once. It shouldn't be this complicated. I want life to be fun. I hate being frustrated all the time. Stupid, stupid, stupid. I'll get over it, but it still sucks. I don't know what I would do without you my girlies. Love you all.

starting to understand

I think I'm starting to understand where my head is at. Why I'm making a big deal out of the whole Chris situation and maybe even talking/ thinking about sex more. Something Leanne said the other day kinda turned a lightbulb on. It was something like "Are you that determined to have sex now???" Then I was thinking about what she said and it hit me. I am sorta thinking about having sex but I'm also thinking about being in a relationship and hanging out with a guy. It's like one of those COSMO articles that talks about women in there 30's who decide that they need to find a man and start having babies because their biological clock is ticking. For me it's this little thing going off in my head saying KIM YOU ARE ALMOST 20 AND YOU HAVE NEVER HAD A REAL RELATIONSHIP AND WHERE IS THAT GOING TO GET YOU. MEET SOME PEOPLE, GROW UP, BECOME AN ADULT, YOUR NOT SO YOUNG ANYMORE!
I mean really I'm not that old I know people are setteling down at a later age and yadda yadda yadda. But still. I need something, someone. Seriously it sucks not having anyone to see or to call and whatever. It's depressing. And with everything else going on with school and my sister it just seems so much worse right now cause my emotions are all over the place. I CAN'T DO IT!!! I mean I can... BUT I CAN'T. I will shut down. There is only so much Kim can handle. I hate being strong and the one some people can turn to cause it's hard. But at the same time I don't think I would be the same person without it. I like being able to help people. It makes me feel good. Oh god. I'm going to need to be put in a phsyco institution. That sentence doesn't even make sense. Ya I will try to explain later when I can think straight and actually have time.

things can change so fast...

I have to agree with Dani, things are fucked up and shit can change so quickly. Like why am I having so many problems with Chris already. I mean I can't see this relationship going anywhere especially because we can't even seem to plan to get together and we aren't even dating. I mean he acts like he wants to see me and then he won't fucking come and get me or asks if i will take a cab. I am not taking a fucking cab. That's just stupid, and not fair. Why can't he ever come here. He always wants me to come there when it would be SO EASY for him to come here after class or something. Like seriously. He makes it so complicated. But what really makes me mad I tried to tell him that I want to see him more and I sent him a drunk email last night clearly stating how I feel and he hadn't acknowleged it at all. Should I have to ask about it. NO. He should write me back or talk to me about it. But he isn't. Everytime I email him I have to ask him later anyways cause he never emails me back and he never answers my questions. Like who does that. Why do I even put the effort in. Ok, now I'm getting worked up again. I was better after going to work out but maybe I'm not actually better. FUCK!! I am going to ask him about it and if shit doesn't change I will simply tell him that he just isn't good enough for me and I will go out and have my fun and maybe meet someone who actually wants to hang out with me and who will make the effort. TALKING ON MSN IS NOT A RELATIONSHIP!!! I really can't do this. I am going to work on Bio. Be productive and maybe things with blow over.... I have to do something else cause thinking about it only makes it worse. Love you all. Thanks for listening to my phsyco babble. Later.

In a Good Mood!!

Happy! I am actually, trully happy for the first time in awhile. I feel great and a lot of it I'm not even sure why. I'm just in a good mood. Which kinda random since this time of the month is supposed to make me bitchy... Weird I know. Anyways, I guess I had a pretty good day today. Got more sleep. Went to the chiro. Saw Chris even though I didn't say hi it was nice to see him. Fuck you know what I think I'm just really obsessed right now which is really not that good but thats alright, cause it makes me happy. Haha. Oh man am I hyper/ going crazy. You know what I'm not going to lie. Chris added to my good mood too. It's funny because he just says stuff that makes me laugh and just makes me happy to be me. :) This is seriously not good for my health. I like this kid way to much. NOT GOOD! Snap out of it Kim. Someone needs to slap me!

Moving on, Thanksgiving was awesome this weekend. I got to see family and friends. The weather was nice. I had fun drinking and playing cards. Some good food! Oh and it was my cousin Jason's 18th and we went to the Roadhouse in Calgary and I had an awesome time. It was good to be home. I miss camping too. I need to get out more.
But I am going to go do homework now cause my Physics is due tomorrow and I haven't even done much!

Later Alligator

ps - I don't care if I spelt something wrong. Cause I'm too lazy to check!

why does history repeat itself??

History really does repeat itself. I feel like I am almost in the same situation I was in 4 years ago. Why me though. Like seriously, I just want a chance and this better not get fucked up. But I mean the whole story hasn't ended yet, we have to see what happens and then we will know for sure if it truly repeats itself but I just have that feeling, like it will. I almost dread it. It's strange. Most of you will have no idea what the fuck I am talking about it but that's ok cause I don't really feel like explaining and it's not really important I just had to write down what I was feeling. The funny thing is this just popped into my head last night and I am kinda sharing it late but I think part of it is all because somehow I am trying to tourture myself and I can't let myself get excited or comfortable so I'm making up excusses. You know when that happens???? I just hate it!! Oh well. I have studying to do. Later peeps.

never ending

Ok i had art at 8:00 this morning right. Ya well I was there for all three hours plus another 2 doing some assignments and I still have an unbelievable amount of shit to do. Art will kill me. I am falling behind in other things because I always have something to do for art and there is always something due for the next class. Seriously is she trying to kill me. Cause it's working. Ahhhh. You know what I don't care. I will do the best I can without freaking out or having a nervous breakdown and this year will go just fine. Just gotta think positive. Fuck I gotta go. Lab in 10 minutes and I didn't even read it over so I have NO CLUE what I am doing today. Hopefully it goes quickly. Later

Annoyed…

Why is it that I always feel like I’m the idiot when something doesn’t work out and it really isn’t my fault? It’s the whole expecting too much thing again. Although this instance is just stupid and not fair. Ok last night I was talking to Chris but then he said he was going to bed because he was tired. Then I decided that I wanted to see him, which I think is pretty normal. So I asked if he would be in ETLC this morning studying because he does that a lot. And he said that he would and that it would be fantastic if I came to visit. Ok that’s cool. So I went to bed at like 2:30 or so and was woken up by the fire alarm at 6:00. So loud and annoying. The stupid thing is the sound of that alarm has been haunting me all day now. It just sits there in my head. Beep, beep, beep. You know what I mean. Aaaahhhhhh!!! So anyways, after standing outside for like 15 minutes we all come back in and I decide that I will try and go back to sleep. Yeah that totally didn’t work. I was wide awake. No thanks to the door alarm that someone forgot to shut of. So I decided to get up at 7:00 and have some breakfast and I chilled in the lounge a bit with some peeps from my floor. Then I got ready and decided I had time to go visit Chris before my Bio workshop. So I walked over to ETLC and went upstairs. I went around the corner past the Tim Horton’s way at the back to find him because that’s where he said he sits. He wasn’t there. I didn’t see him anywhere up there in fact and I felt like an idiot wondering aimlessly. Grrrr. So I just went to my workshop and classes. I was falling asleep because 3.5 hours just doesn’t cut it for me. Oh well. Lunch was good though. Me and Eric were chilling in CAB having a pretty awesome conversation and then Wendy joined us and we were all chilling. At like 1:30 I left them and went to the Art building to do my drawing. I sat there till like 5:15. So long oh my god. Like my eyes hurt now from staring at lines. Then I came back here and now I’m writing this in a so so mood. I mean I still have to talk to Chris because I may have missed him or he might have slept in but I want to know why. We have not seen each other very much and he seems like he wants to hang out but then he seems to make it difficult sometimes too. Ok I really have to stop complaining and just except that I am going to be single forever and go on miserably with my stupid no goal oriented school life which I hate so much. I hate not know what I want to do. There is no point to me being here!!! Breath Kim, breath. It will all be ok.

It's all good guys!!!

So he came. As I am sure most of you are aware by now. I went out and didn't see him but it's a good thing I stayed there to study cause I saw him walk by and I went up to him and he had been like in this little corner where there is a table and it's quieter. I guess I just have to look harder. Hahah. Anyways, we chatted and it was fun. He's cute and super nice. The funny thing is I think he was actually more nervous then I was. I mean after I saw him I was like "Yay he's here. This is good." And I was happy. But we sat down at a table and he kept playing with his hat and figiting and he was doing the leg shake thing, which made the table shake but I didn't think it would be nice to ask him to stop cause it was already weird for him. lol. Oh man. It was good. I was happy all day. And then my mommy tried to call me this afternoon. First time this year. Someone actually loves me!! Hahah. Good good. But boys are bad cause they are distracting. I mean I think a lot of it today had to do with me meeting him for the first time but I was just like off in my own little world all day. It was great, although unproductive. Haha. But ya just thought I would share and inform all that the situation rebounded and it's all good! Love you all!
Kimmy

Fuck

K guys I actually make a point of coming to see him and he isn't there. So I come to the computer lab to inform you and make myself not look like an idiot and that I'm here for a reason. I was sorta scared walking over here and now I feel... weird cause he's not there. Aahhh. I'm like shaking. Why? Is he there and I didn't see him. Or maybe he happened to be in the washroom at that exact time. Fuck! This is so not cool. I got up early for this. I mean I was sorta looking for him but he did say that he was going to wear a red shirt or white hoodie. Seriously I didn't see either. Like what the hell. So fucked up! K I need to calm down. I can't freak about this. I will go check once more and if he's not there I will go somewhere to do homework. Ok. I'm leaving now...

bitter.......

You know I don't think anyone will undrestand this blog but I don't give a fuck cause I need to vent and it will do me some good so I d0n't go shit a brick especially on a certain someone!!!! No one knows though because no one know me and they don't really know what's happening tonight cause it was crazy and I'm not part of the the little duo. No I'm on my own folks. Just like its always been. I should have excepted it by now but I really haven't. Seriously I am mad and feel really evil right now. I mean like if i stated saying something I would be the measinst ass bitch right now and that's not me so I have locked myself in my room to prevent that. AAHHHHHAHAHHAHAHAHUHAHAHAHAHHAHAHUHUA. I am so mad. Why am I so mad. I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE. WHY DO I BOTHER. THAT'S IT I'M DONE. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You have no idea how a punching bag would be so super awesome right now. Breath Kim breath...... Why do people have to play favorites, or say they don't need anyone or just have to be a plain old BITCH. i seriously can't even do this and I don't want to say anything else because I just don't know. You know something. All I wanted to do tonight was walk home with James. Just walk home. Alison and Leanne and Eric were ahead of me and I had no one. Just me and James and then he had to be difficult and says that he doesn't need anyone to walk him home and this shit and that. I seriously didn't care how drunk he was, I just wanted SOMEBODY to walk home with but I guess I couldn't even have that. And you know what I come back and turn on my comp and Dylan says hi and I have to ask myself why I wouldn't hang out or date that kid because HE CARES. He really does and he listened to me rant and rave and tried to make me feel better with no complaints. Maybe he is what I am looking for. I know that I can trust him to be a true friend and to be ther for me cause he has shown or proven that to me which means a lot. It's funny how you find out who your friends are and who truly cares for you. And I mean TRULY. Wow this is going to sound supe bitchy but I don't even give a flying fuck because I seriously haven't been this mad in awhile. I don't get this mad. I am not having a good couple of days. I'm jsut not!

Lonley.....

K so so here is the thing. I never used to care if I had anyone and I usually still don't care, but for whatever reason I cared today. I was thinking and it's depressing. I was remembering this convo I had with my cousin Katie this summer about relationships and marriage and kids. I wanted to have kids young but considering I'm like 19.5 and I have neverr had a boyfriend i can't see that happening anytime soon. I mean I know it's stupid and I have plenty of time but it hit me today. And I truly feel lonely. I think I notice it more too because there are a lot of people on the floor that are in relationships or just got out of them and the flirting and so on and so forth. I CAN'T DO IT!!! Seriously. I considered hanging out with Marco when he was in town and going to his hotel because I wanted someone and I kinda miss him even though I haven't seen him in a year. I mean there are some really cool guys on the floor but there is the whole floor cest thing and I watch other people hanging out/ flirting and I feel like I don't belong or that I'm invaiding what they have. I mean it's just Abby's personality but she hangs with a bunch of the guys and cuddles and such. First John now James. Who I sort of like but I think I just like his honesty and chill attitude. I JUST DO NOT KNOW!! AAAAHHHHH. But I do love the girls on the floor this year. Now that I'm getting to know them I'm getting more comfortable again. It's good. And then being back here with my girls again. But me and Leanne aren't roomies anymore so I feel more alone because I talk less with her. And I love Ali but I still feel like a third wheel when I am with her and Leanne. Why, WHY do I always feel out of place. I mean I'm one of the most social people I know and yet I think people are scared of me or they just get annoyed with me and I don't know what I can do. And talking about this shit makes me want to cry. The tears are coming. It's 3:30 am on a friday night and I am fucking writing a blog and I sat on my ass all night and didn't do anything that was super fun or exciting. I don't have a lot of days where I don't have homework or free time and I wasted it. TO make matters worse I feel like I'm going to puke cause I have a stomach ache and no tums. grrrr. Oh and this whole guy situation. I never meet anybody. Maybe a random few guys seem to have liked me over the years. Like 3 and they have all been shorter and lighter then me and that freaks me out. I want someone that could actually puch me around. I know that sounds stupid but it's true and I'm frustrated. And with girls and guys is always a competition. To many people liking the same people and who likes who and what not..... I dunno know what I am even talking about anymore. This is like a random frustrated blab session that no one will even read except for maybe Dani because she seems to be the only one that reads them and cares. Which I love you for!!! I'm going to miss you this weekend. :( I will drink for you! One last little note before I bid you adue, I met this guy on Nexopia and he is decent looking and nice and so much fun to talk to and his name is Chris but there is no hope there cause nothing will ever happen with that. So ya that's that. Take this all with a grain of salt cause its pure babble that allowed me to sort out my thoughts. Later.

Much to talk about!

So I have a lot to say but right now all I really want to mention is that my new lab partner for Physics 124 in 32. Ya that's right. Some guy that decides he wants to go back to school after like 10 years. And i get stuck with him. He doesn't even understand significant digits. SUCH A SIMPLE CONCEPT!!! Aaaahhhh. He turned out to be ok I guess but its still creepy right. I think so. Just though I would share. Later.

Back in Edmonton!

So I'm finally back in Edmonton and I'm glad to be back but sadly I'm not even in the party mood. I mean it is like 1:20 but I haven't drank at all tonight and I'm tired and just want to go to sleep. I still have stuff to unpack but I guess I will get to that tomorrow. Meh. Just thought I would let you all know what's happening. Good luck with school and can't wait too party and hand with everyone and make new friends. Later!

Summers ending....

So these last couple of weeks have been good. I got second in the Ghost wakeboard competition. It was fun. I got a new pair of shorts out of it. :) It was a fun weekend but Katie ditched me for Tyler. Haha. I knew that was coming. But I was stuck with the boys. I was going to go to bed early but then I didn't anyways. I had my fun. Then I went to John Mellencamp which made for a good weekend. Man was that a good weekend. Ashley's kegger. Hahaha. you should just see the pictures. I don't even know how much I had to drink. A lot. I thought I went to bed at like 2 apparently it was like 5. It was fun. Then I worked and I finished work this last week. Me and Leanne worked so hard to finish our project and we did. At like exactly 4:30 Friday afternoon. It was awesome. We got it done, and we did good!! I'm proud of what we did. And then I went to Megregor this last weekend to camp and boat. It's was my last chance of the year. And I had an awesome time. Saturday I had the best ski of my life on beautiful water and I probably had the best wakeboard too. I love my new board and I had a lot of fun this weekend. Saturday night I drove Katie, Tyler, Robert and Jordan into town for ice cream and we walked around and I met some crazy Vulcan people. It was fun. And we didn't even end up drinking but I still had a good time. Haha. And I sleep like a rock right. Katie told me Monday that she snuck out early in the morning to hang with Tyler and I guess she was supper loud and I didn't hear a thing. Tyler has no idea how she didn't wake me up. Lol. That's what happens when you live in rez with noisy people. So I went to the farm for a few days because I miss is and I wanted to help out like I used too. So I helped Katie paint her grandparents garage. Man were we messy but we had fun singing and talking. Why can't everyone be so easy to talk too, seriously. I helped Robert clean bins Tuesday. That wasn't too bad. Haha. Except for maybe the mice. The last bin we cleaned had a bunch of mice in it. Robert was weed whacking so I was going to start by myself but when I opened the door there were like 3 little mice huddled together. I mean I am not scared of mice at all. I could have pet them right there but I left the bin and and told Robert because I knew we had to get ride of them and I was sure not doing it. He was going to hand me the shovel and I said there was no way in hell I was going to kill those mice. I could not do it. So he went in there and I heard banging and yelling ( I should mention here my cousin is crazy) and then these dead mice come flying outta the bin. Roberts laughing. Says there was like 10 of them in there. I guess he hit one with a screwdriver. Nice hey. Soooo violent. There was blood splattered on the shovel. Ewww. Oh and to make matters more interesting I went in there again and found another one so he had to kill that one too. Then I found another one hiding. I was like awww and I called Robert and then I told the mouse to run or he was going to be sorry. Well of course he didn't run. Robert comes in sorta pokes him and the mouse goes running around the bin and Robert goes after the mouse with a shovel. Well I left the bin. It was so sad. He had to kill a baby too. :( He laughed at me and said I had such a sad look on my face. Yes I was sad that he killed a mouse. What can I say I'm an animal lover. That made for an interesting day. Oh and it's not just a city girl thing either. My cousin and aunt both said they wouldn't have done it either, so there. I came home Wednesday and I took Katie to Tylers which was cute because they are so good for each other and I was glad that I could help. Then I went with my mom to greet my sister at the airport since she was coming back from her month long trip. It was good to see her. I miss her sometimes. We have some good talks, like last night in the hot tub. I miss talking to my sis all the time. That's about all I've done though. I didn't even get dressed today. I just stayed in the house and packed. I can't believe I'm moving back in only a few days. I am so excited to see people and go out but I'm going to miss being home too. There is so much here that I'm missing it seems. But then I would miss stuff in Edmonton too. You just can't will or have it all in life. Kinda sucks really but what can you do. You know I think I don't want to go back cause I'm truly not ready for school yet. I still don't even know what I want to do. I need to figure that out and then maybe I will have more motivation. Or lets hope!! But I should sleep. So I will talk to you all later.

Sittin on top of the world!!!

So I have to say that I am in in best mood tonight at 11:00. Seriously I think part of it is the lack of sleep right now, which I should be doing. But I'm not. I think I'm just enjoying the last of my summer. This was one of the best weekends of the summer for me other then the last kegger, holidays and last weekend. Friday I got 2 new bras, one free one cause of my bra card so I saved myself $40. Which is always nice. Then I went to Ashley's for her and Dave's going away Kegger which was awesome. Seriously I'm going to miss them. But anyways I started off with a beer and then I went into drinking my micki of spiced rum. I drank almost all of it in 2 drinks with like a shot or 2 left in the bottom. Plus I had 2 or 3 tequila shots and I chuged a good load of Eric's Gin and 7Up. Man was that good. Hahaha. I was right fucked and the funny thing is I thought I remembered a lot until people started telling me stories. I took a lot of pictures though and let me tell you there were some good ones. I love pictures. Oh man there is so much to tell. I have many a stories. I will have to leave you hanging a few hours until I get the chance to finish. Right now I need sleep. Serious sleep. So I am leaving you to wonder about my mysterious, fun crazy weekend of entertainment. Have a good week all!! I know mine has started out just right.

Peace

It's been awhile.....

So I haven't wrote a long blog in awhile, and I don't know how long this one will be cause I can only type so fast and my laptop may die before I finish. But that's ok. This will probably be a random bable anyways. So I'm not even sure what I have talked about in the last while but I'll fill you in a little. Today was the airport golf tournament and I got payed for like a 11 hour day to do pretty much nothing and I was fed. So I don't know what else to talk about. I mean my summer has been pretty much work. I went on my 10 day holiday to Sandpoint Holiday. I was drinking every night. I was hanging with my friends, a lot of my guy friends. I miss hanging with them. They put a different, fun perspective on thing sometimes. You know some people say, even me that they need to grow up but I like being childish with them sometimes. It's weird really but I trust them and some of my best memories are hanging with them. Why is it that I always have a lot of fun with them. You know I have to wonder if I just need to loosen up and just be a little gutsy. Find other people to have some fun with. Aaahhh. I dunno. I need to figure out what I really want to do with my life. Why is it so hard? I just have no idea. I'm so confussed. I really just need to do some thinking. Hmm, so there hasn't been much more that has happened since them except this weekend. I went in the Chestermere Wakefest wakeboard competition and I got first for girls, which was exciting. Plus I got to watch pro riders which is so awesome. I wish I could be that good. They had some good prizes too. I won a t-shirt and a belt from a girls riding company. Which was cool. Then they were throwing stuff into the crowd and I got a skid shirt, a nice long sleeve, red fox one. It's cool. But I have to say the best part of the whole thing was when I won a wakeboard. Brand new $700 Liquid Force 125. It's sweet. And I just got lucky cause it was a draw thing. Tyler won the wake skate and I was like k we have to be done now there is no way any of us other guys have a chance now, and then Jeff Price (pro rider, kinda cute, but a bit cocky) was like Jakowski, and I was like WHAT! NO WAY! Then they made fun of me and were like no we were kidding you can't have it! Hahaha. Crazyness. So that was the big excitement. We hung out at the Ponto's on Saturday night cause it was a whole weekend thing and then we had flank steak and stuff which is always good. We stayed over and played some pool and watched some movies. I got to hang with Tyler a little bit and chat cause Leanne and Darren were hanging and Heather and Matt were hanging so I kinda needed a buddy. It was good. I got to know him better. I also realized how much he really is like in love with my cousin Katie. Haha. So cute. Maybe he will come to the farm when I go and we can hang out some more. This summer has been decent. I'm happy. I miss seeing these guys more though. It's not the same as it used to be. There is more fun to come though. Ashley is having another Kegger tomorrow night!! Woowho! Oh did I tell you about the last one. I was so drunk I don't remember talking to Leanne on the phone for like 5 minutes at 2:30 in the morning. So good. I had a party at my house too. Oh it was fun. But a mess to clean up. I think I mentioned that. Anyways, this summer has a fair share of memories and there is still time for more. Oh and a few random bits of information. If you can avoid burning your lips I suggest you do it cause when they blister it hurts like a fucking bitch. Of all the things to burn I don't want to burn them again I can tell you that. Especially cause it hurts to eat, and you all know how I love to eat. I do, I do. Just to give you an idea it looks like a coldsore that is a whole half of a lip that hurts so much I can feel it like in my chin. So weird. Oh and I bought a new pair of Smith sunglasses for $30 instead of $90 which is awesome and I love them. Leanne got some too, so now we match! Mwhahaha. Crazy crazy. I think that coffee I drank today just messed me up. Note to self, no more coffee. So ya that's it. Oh and I apoligize for the spelling cause this is way to long to actually go through the process of spell checking! Thanks and have a great night. ;)

HAPPY B-DAY DANI!

Happy birthday Dani! I hope you have a good day. Don't get too stressed. Remember Evan is coming and soon it will be NY. Yay. That sounds like so much fun. Rock out. And I know we may not have a chance to go out drinking but our time will come. Patrty on! Love you.

So much time... yet not enough!

So guys, I have now been back from Idaho for a week, my sister had left for London England and I'm still here in Canada, working. This really sucks! I mean why can't I go to England and Scotland. We were supposed to go to Germany my grade 12 year, but did that happen....NO. And now my sister gets to go to the other side of the work by herself with her best friend. I don't understand how that seems fair?!? And you know my sis says that we get treated equally but I have to disagree. My parents totally buy her more stuff and she gets to go to F*CKING Scotland. Who's the spoiled one???? I mean I know it will be fun for her, I'm just a little bitter at the moment cause I'm home for a few months during the summer and she ditches me for like all of July and August. Whatever, I'm over it now. I had my little vent. There are other things on my mind too but I'm just not going to get into those. Infact I was going to talk about my holiday but it's getting late and I don't even feel like doing that right now. It was a blast though, and I was drunk a lot. It mad me miss rez. Lol. Oh man, it's going to be great to be back let me tell you. I have to work so much harder this year though. No more procrastination! Help me with this guys! So ya, that's it for now. Oh and I saw Wedding Crashers this weekend man was it funny. Bye for now!

P.S. I was talking to Dylan the other day (he went to Wedding Crashers with me) and he sent me an email after and said that he wants to hang with me again before he goes on his holiday on Friday and that when we do see each other he wants to say something...... This is kinda scaring me guys. You all know Dylan. My movie buddy from 5K. Well anyways, this should be interesting!

Peace!

It's coming, it's coming!!!

HOLIDAYS ARE FINALLY HERE!!!! Just a few more hours and I will be out of this airport, and then a few hours after that I will be packed and ready to go and then a few hours after that I will be sleeping only to wake up and be on my way to Idaho. It's like the sanctuary of my life. What I would so without Idaho.....it's a depressing thought!

However I will want to sleep the whole way there and probably for like 12 hours that night just to catch up on what I have missed this week and then prepare myself for a very long drunken week of fun. You know when you aren't working it's a lot easier to go to bed really late and get up in the morning without being tired. It's crazy I tell ya.

But you must realize that this vacation is much needed. See I can't even make good sentences anymore. This week has been a really long week for me. I mean the party was fun on Saturday and all but everything went spirlalling down after that and cleaning up the mess on Sunday was just the start. I mean I spent all day Sunday cleaning everything up with the intention to mow the lawn on Monday only to find out that I had to work at Sobey's on Monday as well as Tuesday, so there goes half my week and time which I needed because I had other crap to do. Working at Sobey's was seriously stressing me out. They never have the schedule ready for a week until the Saturday before the Sunday it starts. It's so stupid. And then I ask my manager to write me a reference more then 2 weeks ago, and she STILL isn't done and I was handing it in today. Like FUCK. I do so much for them and I come in if I'm free and they can't even write a one page reference that would take all of 10 minutes to write. So I quit. I'm done. I went in last night and I told her that I am not coming back. She was a little mad cause I wasn't giving her 2 weeks notice. Technically I don't actually have to cause I haven't worked there for more then 3 months but I wasn't going to tell her that. Also, I'm giving her like a week and half sorta because I was going away on holidays anyways and it's not like I was going to be here anyways. So there. Take that bitch. Ahhhh, whatever. It's over with now. Unless I don't get my reference. Then I'm fucked. Fuck, fuck, fuck. It's ok Kim, it's OKAY. But really it's not. I broke the lawn mower last night too, half done, which sucks. I still have to take the bottles is, get a few things, pack and try and finish the lawn. Like seriously going on vacation should not be this stressful. But I should get back to work and actually find something to do. Yes that's what I will do. Ok. Peace out!

Best weekend all summer!!

This was an awesome weekend. I know that holidays hasn't come yet and it will most likely be the best time during this summer but so far this was the best weekend. Wednesday me and Leanne stayed late at the airport because Eric came in and he stayed at my house until last night for Stampede. Thursday my mom took Eric downtown with her in the morning and then he found a breakfast and chilled for awhile and then met up with Codey and had lunch and some drinks and such. I went to the Chuckwagons with Heather and the Grandstand show which was awesome and it gave us a chance to chat which was a lot of fun. I invited the guys to come but they didn't really want to stand so they hung around the Stampede for a bit and then went somewhere and drank. After the show me and Heather walked around a bit and I played 2 games and won a little Spongebob and then went back to my car. I drove her home and then I went downtown to Melrose to pick Eric up. He was a little drunk. Haha. Then he gets in my car and he reeks like beer. I guess Codey spilt one on him. The whole way home I wanted to barf from the smell. Then Friday I still woke up at my usual time but I decided I wasn't going in so I called Leanne and she said she was staying in too. Then I went with my mom at like 7:00 to get my sisters car. Which is so weird to drive. After that I showered and got ready and then once Eric was ready he came with me to get some stuff for my mom for holidays. Then we went home and watched Remember the Titans. It kinds makes me mad that I didn't go to work though because he sounds like it was the best day of the week for Stampede stuff. They took an hour and a half lunch and got some good food, cotton candy and airbrush tattoos and just had a good time. I could have got payed to come to work and have fun and still have sat on my ass. I should have just brought Eric with me. But oh well what can I do. It's over and done with. But anyways, after my mom finally left at like 1:00 me and Eric went to the mall. He ended up buying 2 DVD's and 2 CD's and I bought a new bathing suit from West 49. It was on sale. I felt bad for making him wait though. Meh, you gotta do what you gotta do. Then we went to the bank and then hopped on a train to go to the grounds. We hung with Dave for awhile and checked out the animals and then chilled on a bench and people watched. Then Neil came because we were going to see Brad Paisley together. So I ended up having to leave Eric alone with Dave but it sounds like they had fun. Leanne and Meredith and her friends came later and so did Ash. Me and Neil went to the concert and it was awesome. I had to buy a t-shirt cause I got one when I was at Toby Keith and Brooks and Dunn too. So I did. It's cool. I got to see Dan Nixon too which was cool cause I haven't seen that kid in ages. Crazy crazy. So I met up with Ash and Dave and we had a drink and chatted and then we went and found the other guys. We didn't so much after though. Just watched the fireworks and then went home. It was a good night. Saturday I got up a bit later and chilled for awhile. Cleaned some and then when Eric woke up he watched like 4 hours of Discovery channel. After I was ready we hit the liquor store and I bought a few things for the night. Ash, Dave and Heather were the first to show up at like 6:30 and then we ate some hotdogs. Then Meredith and Laura came after they got lost cause I wrote down the wrong directions. SO blonde. Then James came and Meredith brought Leanne back. Then the guys from the shop finally showed up. Ian, Matt, Will, Robert and Daniel. They were a lot of fun. Jason came later too with his buddy Paul. We had a pretty good time. Drank, played pool, played music, had a fire, went in the hottub. It was crazy. The guys left at like 4:15 in the morning to go home. They probably should have stayed over but whatever. So Eric slept upstairs, James slept on the red couch, Meredith and Laura slept on the green couch and Paul joined them, Leanne and Jason had my bed and I slept in my parents. It was good everyone had a place to sleep. The place was a mess though. I cleaned up some that night but only outside. After the last of them left I took Eric to the airport and then did a little work before going home to clean the mess. I picked up all the bottles, wiped down counters, washed towels, vacuumed the whole house, drained the hottub which takes forever, cleaned it, filled it, made and ate dinner, did dishes, exercised. It was a crazy and tiring day and I went to bed late and I'm sick so I'm feeling it more today. The wrath. So today is Monday and I will be looking forward to Friday all week. I have to pack, mow the lawn, work at Sobey's and here and still sleep in between. It's going to be a long week that's for sure. Oh well. Back to work! Later.

STAMPEDE!!

Hey guys, this weekend was fricken awesome. Gotta love Stampede. I haven't gone in.... 6 years I think it is. That's a pretty long time considering I live in the city. But who wouldn't rather be in Idaho waterskiing and wakeboarding and not having to work. Ya me. It is nice to hit up Stampede again though. I missed the rides and the crazyness. Plus I'm legal now so it makes it even better. Friday I went to the grounds with Leanne and met Stef, Heather, Hailey and Laura there. We went on a ton of rides and hung out and just had a good time. We went into Nashville north for like 15 minutes but it wasn't that much fun. I wasn't' drinking and I have no one to dance with so it just wasn't as good as it could be. But that's ok. I wanted to get my money's worth on the rides anyways, which I think I did. Me and Leanne stuck around while the other guys left to hang out and watch a movie, but they had been there all day before we got there. We didn't hang around that much longer anyways. I think we hit two more rides and then tried to go meet up with the Lister crew. First we bought a C-Train ticket but then we didn't end up getting on because the people were stupid and according to Jason it was closer to walk from where we were. Which is true but I didn't even know where Bob the Fish was, I was relying on Leanne. We got there but then the crew wasn't there. So I tried to call Kat but she didn't answer, of course. So we headed to the train station. We were almost there when Kat called me back saying they went to Ducky's. I was so mad. So we decided to catch the train. Walk back to Stef's to get my car and drive to where ever Ducky's was. So we did that but there was a bit of a detour because Kat gave me the wrong address and we went around in a bit of a circle first. But we finally got there and it was great. Alison was there, Dani, Chris and his buddies, Mikey, Hendry, Kat, Kyle and his buddy Kevin. It was all a good time. Hahaha. Man were they trashed, and I got to watch. So me and Leanne left at about 2:15 and I drove her home and then ended up going home when I was originally going to crash at Stef's. I got to say good bye to my dad and the dog though when they left for Idaho at 6:30 in the morning. But I was slightly out of it because I had only had 3 hours of sleep by then, or less. Good time. So I slept in till about 11:00 and chilled and watched some TV and a movie with my mom then I got ready to go out and me and Leanne headed to Kat's to hang with the gang again. I chilled there for awhile and then I left Leanne to party with them and I went to Stef's. Once Nicole and Brian got there and we had a drink we headed to the RoadHouse. It was a good night. I had 2 shots and a drink within the first 15 minutes and I was already feeling it from before. Then Nicole decides that she needs to find this Chris dude so she goes outside with Stef and leaves me and Brian inside. We stood there for a couple of minutes and then got annoyed and Brian decided to buy me some drinks. The first round we had 2 tequila shots. Then we walked to another bar and had another tequila shot and a beer. I was writing text messages to Nicole and Stef to come back inside and some guy decided to play footsy with me when I was sitting in the chair. It didn't matter how many times I kicked his foot he wouldn't leave me alone. Grrr, stupid guys. But then Nicole and Stef came back in and I was writing another text when I bumped my half full beer and it crashed to the ground spilling booze and cutting my toe. We left after that and it couldn't have been much later than 12:30. Went back to Stef's and had some KD and hit the sack. Nicole kept spilling on Stef's bed and the next day I found a piece or hardened macaroni on my shirt. Crazy! So I got up Sunday, and not feeling well drove home and made myself a few eggs and then went to work for 8.5 hours at Sobey's. Man was that a long day. It kinda sucked too because Ryan actually sent me a text back and he went to Stampede on Sunday and I had to work... so I couldn't hang with him and see him dressed up in his cowboy attire. Oh well, maybe later this week. Worked yesterday and went shopping for some bra's which was kinda fun and then went home, had dinner with my mom and pretty much chilled for the rest of the night. So that was my exciting crazy weekend and it just keeps on going this week. I work tonight and then Eric comes tomorrow and my party Saturday. I'm going to be busy busy. Hahahaha. Going crazy!! That's it. Later.

Man oh man!

So guys, I just wanted to say that sometimes my Have a Day Calendar is right on the money. Today was have a dumb day and man I felt dumb. It showed the most at work. I screwed up so many times on till. Hahaha. If felt like an idiot. But anyways, I just thought I would inform you. Thanks and have a great night!

GREAT WEEKEND

Guys this is one of the best weekends I have had in a long time. Even though I didn't get to go camping which means I didn't get to go water skiing or wakeboarding but what can you do. Anyways, I went to Cowboy's Thursday night which was fun but not that great and it sounds like Tequila's foam party was awesome and I would have known more people there. If they hadn't run out of draft before I got in I wouldn't be so bitter about the situation. But we had to wait in like for like and hour, the first bouncer said my ID didn't look like me, which is crap. I have NEVER had a problem before, and of course I didn't have a second piece. But luckly the second bouncer took one look and he said I was good. But then they had a metal detector. That was weird and then it was $10 to get in. AND I DIDN'T GET ANY DRAFT. So I had one beer and one shot because I didn't bring enough money. I could have drove home that night. So stupid. Oh and I walked all the way back to my friends house in 4 inch heals. Man did that suck! But I must say Friday night definitely made up for that even though I payed for it on Saturday. I was quite drunk. I had Ciclone and Keg beer. Not a good mix but it got me drunk and man did I have fun. We had some cool people there. Leanne had come and went home with a friend to stay at her place instead and I guess she called me to chat later.....don't remember. Once again I was very drunk. Hahaha. I miss it so much. It's been awhile since I have been like that. I can't wait to hear what Matt has to say Monday at work though. Haha. They left him a random message but he's going to know it was them because of what they said. Oh man, the things you do while drunk. Funny, funny! So ya. I just chilled last night with my folks and watched NASCAR because I was still recovering. Plus the race was an awesome race. Today I am not doing much but I do have to work in an hour. So I should go. Talk to you all later and I hope your Canada Day long weekend was as good as mine.
Peace

Weekend adventures!

Hey guys, what's up? So I hope everyone had a pretty good weekend. Mine was alright. My parents went to Regina to see my Grandpa so me and my sis were alone for the weekend. I had to take care of the dog Friday night so I had to bring him with me, which can kinda be a pain but oh well. So I was leaving my house Friday night at like almost 9:00 pm and heading to Crowfoot to meet Kristin and Jenna for icecream. So I was on my way and there was this cop standing in the road at like Rocky Ridge Road which is like 1 km from my house. So that's fine he waves me through. But then I get to the road that I'm planning on turning at which is about 3 km later and there is a cop van blocking it and a cop car on the other side of the road. This is when I start to worry. So I turn around and head back. Oh by the way, the road that was blocked off is the one that goes by the jail, reman centre and juvenile detention centre, which also worried me a little more. So I go back the way I came and the cop that waved me through before stopped me and everyone else in front of me to chat. I get to him and he says, "Have you seen 2 suspicious people around here at all tonight?" Of course I had just left my house and hadn't seen anything so that's what I told him. He thanked me and let me go. So I'm driving along and I'm like this is great I'm going to be home alone tonight and there are two crazy bad people wondering around my house. LOVELY!! But oh well. I don't know what ended up happening. Cause the cops were gone later and I didn't here anything else about it. So I ended up finally making it for icecream but it was a short visit because I had to pick up Heather and then we headed back to watch a movie and eat some junk food. It was a nice night just chillin with the girls. Stef and Heather suggested that I stay there but I was like I'll be fine I have and alarm system and all. I got home at like 1:30 AM and I was fine. Saturday I went and saw Madagascar with Ashley. It was really cute and funny. I enjoyed it. But then I went home for a bit then had to drive out to Bragg Creek to babysit Cole and Shelby. It was fun as usual. We watched Two Brothers. The movie with the tigers. It was a gooder. But I love tigers too so that helped. But I think I'm going to have to buy it now. Soooo... anyways. I slept over then went home in the morning. Washed dishes and made an angle food cake but there was too much stuff for the pan and it overflowed a bit. What a mess! Oh well. It tastes fine with whip cream. Then I had to work at Sobey's for 7 hours. Which wasn't too bad but it went by slow. I don't think I can last all summer. I will probably quite early so I can have some free time! But that's it, that's all. Maybe someone else has a good story to tell of there weekend. Let me know. Oh and I plan on partying Thursday night and I am hoping some of you who read this join me. It should be a good time. But I should go to bed because tomorrow is going to be a long day. Later all!
Kimmy

Short Update!

So guys, nothing too much has happened since I wrote in last but I thought I would update you on what I have. I went out last Saturday with Leanne and Stef to the Road House and that was pretty fun. We sat a few times though cause Stef's feet hurt but then we got bored. The Road House is a bit of an older crowd so it wasn't as much fun cause there were less guys to hang with. There was this one dude that like stalked Stefanie all night. It was funny. I didn't see the problem though because he was actually decent looking but she didn't like him. Apparently he had huge hands. I'm like soo... what's you point that could be a good thing. Hahaha. I drove Stef and Heather to work Sunday morning and Leanne home and then I went to work. It was alright I guess. I got my teeth cleaned Monday at the dentist. That was the longest dentist appointment I have ever had but they did a good job. Me and Leanne had to stay at work late because of it though. Wednesday I worked at Sobey's too. Thursday I had a doctors appointment and a Chiro appointment. I got my new phone though!! I couldn't choose between this one LG and the Samsung, but I decided on the Samsung only because the LG has an internal antenna and they don't know how good the reception is. I really liked the color and look of that one though but oh well. You can't have it all. Then yesterday morning I had my wisdom teeth out. That was fun. THe guy that went before me was really nice. We were talking about movies and stuff. He said he was 24 but he didn't look that old. Then there was this hockey player dude a few after me. He was being so annoying. He's like I don't need this goze and pain killers blah, blah, blah. I was like dude just shut up and listen to the nurses they know what they are doing. He didn't here me the first time ( I was having difficulties talking obviously), so the nurse told me to say it again cause they can't really talk to him like that, so I did. He didn't say another word. It was kinda funny really. I ended up napping a lot yesterday. All the drugs and anastetic made me sleepy. My puppy was with me all day. I had to eat a lot of soft food. But I puked a few times cause the drugs made me sick. Man that was not fun. It was kinda like a hangover but my mouth was sore too. It was crazy. I felt better today though. But I am a little swollen. But at least I don't ever have to do it again!! Mwhahaha. But I gotta jet cause my rents are leaving. Talk to you all later. Have a good weekend!

Something new!

Hey hey, my fellow peeps. How is everyone doing? Me I'm doing alright I guess. I have been working a lot ,the same as before but I do have new and different information to share with you this time other then my experiences at work as well as my experiences at work. This last week was quite boring a lot of the time but we did some fun stuff too. We got to work on our paper mache heads for our Stampede manikins which was kinda fun. It was like being back in elementary. Good stuff. Quite messy though and I must agree with Leanne that it look suspiciously like spooge. Haha. Ahh well it gave us something to talk about I guess. The paper mache started to ferment after being left too long though and there were fruit flies..... It was kinda nasty. Freaked me out a bit. But then we got to paint them and that was fun. This is becoming a bit of a process however. What else did I do at work..... nothing! Except for sedan surveys but I dunno if that even counts. I didn't have to work at Sobey's later on in the week either which was alright but then instead of going out Thursday like we originally planned I went with Stef to work a bingo for someone for their kids hockey team and I made $100 which was nice. The money went right down the tubes though. It's amazing how fast you can make money disappear. A little here and a little there and it's gone. But I did get a really cool purse with the money though even though it cost me $50. It took me awhile to actually buy it because that's a lot of money for a purse. The most I have ever spent is like $20. So I better like this purse other wise it's a big waste of money. It's good so far but it is a little bigger then I usually get too. Last night I was thinking of going out too but then I had to go to my sisters grad which was fine except for the fact that it went till like 9:30 and then there were pictures and then we had to go eat. So I got home just before 11:00. There was no way I was going out. Plus I was really tired. I fell asleep well on my computer. That was good. So that's it I guess. So I still don't have that much to tell but that's ok. I''m going shopping today so who knows what I'm going to get. Not too much though. Gotta save the money! It sucks really. Ok I guess I should go. Enjoy your weekend everyone. Later.

Life sucks right now.... sort of

So life kinda sucks right now. Only because I am working two jobs which takes up most of my time and when I'm not working I'm usually at home tired as a dog. It's stupid really. I have very little of a life. I did go out Saturday night though to the Road House with my buddy Stef. I miss hanging out with her like we used to all the time when we lived in the same city/area. We had some fun too, although her feet hurt from the shoes. I also went and saw The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants with Kristin and Jenna. It's a bummer Leanne couldn't come. It was fun and totally a movie that suited our sillyness and crazy humour. Ah well, everyone is busy and has their priorities. I miss my Lister buddies too. I still haven't seen Dani since I have been home which is terribly depressing and I haven't even talked to Alison at all. I should really email that girl. I get all the dirt from Leanne. Haha. Seriously though. It feels like everything is going down the drain. I feel stupid now too because I got a letter from the University and it said that I am on Academic Warning which means if I don't get my act together this next semester I am screwed. And the other bad thing about that is because my grades arn't that high I might not get the scholarship from my Dad's work which sucks because that extra money helps out a lot. Whatever. I'm ready to give up right away anyways. I still don't know what I want to do, so sometimes I wonder, what's the point. Ahhh, why am I so frustrated right now. I gotta think.... But I am going to bed now anyways. Long day tomorrow. Later peeps!

It's been almost 2 weeks.....

Hey guys, so you are probably wondering what I have been up to since my last blog since it's been almost 2 weeks. Truthfully I don't have a lot to tell. I have no life now. I thought I would have some fun this summer but that just doesn't seem to be in my cards, because all I have been doing is working, and sleeping, and watching some season finale's on TV. That's it, that's all. The extent of my life is so boring and so routine that this blog will probably only be a paragraph long because I don't have anything to say. I work at the airport and Sobey's so I have been pretty busy. Five days a week for 8 hours a day I work at the airport, mostly doing mind numbing, stupid, none eventful work. Then I work at Sobey's a couple of nights a week which makes for a really long day and then I work Sunday's too. It's not that bad because if I wasn't working then I would probably be sitting on my ass anyways but that's beside the point. But the season finale's have been awesome. So ya that's it. That's my boring summer. But just wait, it will get more exciting. Haha, I hope. Later!

A few bad days.....

The last couple of days have kinda been the shits. I've been in a bad mood and things have been crappy between me and Leanne. I hate fighting with people, especially people I'm close with. I think this is our first big big fight....... I dunno. Anyways, hopefully things get better. I am happy the weekend is here however. I need a break from work and things. It will be fun to hang with Ash tonight too because we haven't really done that in awhile. Maybe smoke up with Stef and Dave, lol. We shall see. Things are so crazy right now. Work is good though. I'm staying pretty busy now that our survey is done and we can hand it out to people. It's nice talking to people and being outside the office. I don't know if I like office jobs... But um I'm happy I guess. I did get my new car, well sort of new. It's a red 95 Pontiac Sunfire, which is way better than the Buick and a lot funner because it's a standard. It's good times. Oh and it has a Sun roof. But that's pretty much all that's new. Soooo.....I guess I will talk to you later!

Crap ass work!

So me and Leanne are at work right now. Done our survey after a week when they thought it would take a month. We are NOT INVALIDS!!!! Man oh man. So anyways, we are pretty bored right now and my only other option is to go to someones office and organize - BWAHAHAHA - Leanne has taken over the blog. I really don't like work at all. I know I should be grateful that I have a job but still. This is bad. They totally underestimate our intelligence. It's crazy. Anyways, I'm going to post this for Kim before we get caught not working. Maybe I'll write my own blog soon enough. Bye everybody! Hope everything is going awesome for you all! :D

Working = None interesting life!!

Ok guys. It's been a few days since I wrote a blog, and the sad thing is I really don't have a lot to say because work is boring and sadly that is now my life. I can't wait for the weekend. My life is now depressing. Weekends will be my savior and my fun party time. But anyways, work is ok, but there needs to be more to do. It's pretty boring. I find a lot of random things to do, like organizing people's offices. Today was sort of interesting though because both me and Leanne decided to wear heals and then of course we ended up walking all over the fucking airport. My feet still hurt like a bitch. Never, ever again!! I had to walk to all the different gates and write down their phone numbers and test them. So much fun....NOT!! Oh well, like I said it's work. So that's my life, my week. Boring hey?? Crazy. Oh but that bump on my head from last Friday, STILL NOT GONE!! I must have whacked it good. Definite possibility that I had a concussion, but what can you do? I guess drink less alcohol, lol. Good times guys, good times. That's it, that's all!! Later.

P.S.- I added to my last blog...if your interested.

Interesting weekend!!!

Well my weekend was interesting....well it was more Friday night that was interesting. For any of you that don't know the story yet. I went to Tequila with Leanne and my sister and her friends. I had a few drinks before I went and I had a few when I got there because there were cheap plus a lot of champain which was a really bad idea because it ended up screwing me over. By the time we went to dance I was pretty drunk. That's when things start to get a little blury. I went to the dance floor and I started dancing with a guy like right away. I think his name was Kurk...or something, don't really remember. I danced with him pretty much all night though. He was nice. Bought me a few shots, and I think his friend bought me one too. I also drank one of his beers because he had 2 in his hands. I think that's why I got sick later. I had hard alcohol, champain and beer. A lot of crap, that was mixed, and the champain was not very good champain. So I got sick and drunk and I puked on the floor, which is embarrassing and I fell sometime during the night and hit my head, really hard, and no one knows what happened. But I conked it good because I think I might have got a concussion. The bump is starting to go away now.... Oh and in case you were wondering, I made out with that guy too, and I don't think I wanted to leave him at the end of the night, but I didn't really have a choice because once again they were kicking me out, lol, two of them. I guess I saw Nick there too but I don't remember that, but maybe that's why I was worried about my sister. Anyways, after we got our coats me and Leanne left and Jason was outside waiting in the line with his friend Louie. They were going to come in because Leanne had told them we were going there but we couldn't go back in there because I couldn't get back in there. But we went to Coyotes and were waiting in line and apparently I was hanging off Louie, I'm sure because I was having difficulties standing and he's like what do I do man to Jason and Jason's like I dunno. Haha. Wow, well this is what I heard anyways. But I had dropped my I.D. in Louie's car so we just went back to his car and he drove us home. I was too drunk to go any where else anyways. I did almost puke in his car though. They were like WAIT 10 SECONDS!!! WAIT 10 SECONDS!!! They pulled over and I got out, but I don't think I puked. I was randomly walking around though. Jason seemed to direct me in the right place. Then I rode in the front just in case. When we got back to Leanne's I really don't know what happened. I guess I called my mom and told her I bumped my head and then told her I was going to bed. She worried about me all night and couldn't really sleep. I guess I called my sister back too cause she had left me a message making sure I was ok. I listened to the message the next day.... didn't sound like me, and I think I dropped the phone at some point. What a fucking gongshow. Oh well. So I went to sleep. Got up and went home and then drove to Rose's to get a hair cut. My head really hurt. I didn't even really want to drive, but oh well. Then I went home and chilled. There was not going to be any more drinking for me that's for sure. Went looking at one car on Sunday. I might be getting something. Yay!! Today I went in for work orientation. It was kinda lame but whatever. I get to make money now right. But I think that's all I really have to say now. Later.